Chapter 52 #2
“And Zeke never—” I cut myself off, shaking my head to clear the image. “Luca just wanted you to think that he did.”
“We know,” Cade whispers. “Zeke’s letter to Knox told us that.”
“Oh.” I blink, a little stunned. “That’s good.”
“And the reason I’ve been distant is because… well…” I ramble, the words tumbling out before I can lose my nerve. “Even though he never forced me to… you know… he still wanted me to be her, Izzy. My mom. And I got good at it. But near the end, when I tried to tell you where he had us…”
I gulp in some air and try my hardest to breathe through the memory, but it won’t fucking work.
“Baby, just relax,” Lex instructs gently, his strong grip stabilizing my hips from behind. “We’re both right here.”
I nod, releasing a shallow stream of air through my lips before trying again. “After his stupid proposal, I was so terrified that I wouldn’t be able to hold him back anymore. The thought of his hands or his mouth…”
Tears finally spill over, hot and fast down my cheeks. Cade’s thumb tenderly brushes the moisture away.
My voice cracks, but I force out the truth. “I had to imagine you. Both of you. Just to s-stay me.”
“I’m so sorry, sweetheart,” Cade murmurs, leaning down to press a soft kiss to my forehead.
I take a ragged breath, anchoring myself to the feeling of Cade’s lips on my skin and Lex’s weight holding me steady. “But I don’t want to make you wait anymore.”
Lex freezes. Cade too.
“I don’t mean…” I swallow hard. “I don’t mean because I think I have to.”
I lean back, sinking fully into Lex’s broad chest and let him take my weight. “Because I want to remember what it feels like to be touched by the men who actually love me.”
Lex’s breath hitches in my ear, his hands flexing on my waist.
“Are you sure?” Cade whispers.
Nodding, I bite my lip. I tilt my head and wrap my hand around Lex’s neck, pulling him down to crash our lips together.
He moans into my mouth, a low and starved sound that rumbles deep in his chest. His hands immediately go to work, breaking their restraint as his large palms roam hungrily over my stomach, down the curve of my waist, and possessively over my hips.
He pins me flush against his solid frame in a heavy and desperate touch that burns away the ghost of those seventy-five days.
I pull back just enough to gasp for air. My gaze locks on Cade’s darkening eyes. I reach for him and pull him into us. I kiss Cade just as fiercely, pouring every ounce of longing into him and matching the desperate rhythm of his mouth.
Even as Cade takes over my lips, Lex’s hands never leave my body. His fingers dig into my hips. Goosebumps prickle my skin while his lips trail open mouth kisses down the sensitive spot on my neck.
Cade groans, his hand gripping my waist with a sudden, firm authority I’m not used to from him, but love instantly. In one smooth and effortless motion, he lifts me and sets me onto the cool marble of the countertop. He steps between my thighs without breaking the bruising hunger of our kiss.
Cade pulls back just enough to take a quick glance at me. His eyes wild and completely consumed by the heat between us. He slides his hands up my legs, hooking his long fingers under the hem of my leggings. With frantic but careful movements, he strips them down and tosses them onto the floor.
Before I can even process the sudden rush of cold air, Cade drops to his knees between my legs. His hands grip the back of my thighs and pull me right to the edge of the counter.
“Cade,” I whisper as his warm breath brushes against my thighs.
A loud moan tears from my throat when his tongue finds my clit, but the sound is instantly caught.
Lex steps in, tilting my chin up and catching my mouth in a crushingly deep kiss.
He drinks in each and every gasp I let out.
His tongue tangling with mine in perfect sync with the agonizingly slow, wet friction Cade is applying below.
Lex pulls back and glances down at Cade. “I fucking missed this sight,” he murmurs, running his fingers through Cade’s hair. “You on your knees for our girl.”
Cade nods against my inner thigh and hums in a rough agreement before burying his face back between my legs.
“God, Cade,” I choke out as he flattens his tongue. He swirls it slowly over my dripping pussy before sucking my clit right into his mouth. The pressure makes my vision blur.
He slides two fingers deep inside me and curls them up just right, hitting that fucking spot with a perfect precision only Cade seems to have and shatters the last of my control.
My entire body arches off the counter, one hand knotting into the marble edge behind me as the other one grips at Lex like a lifeline.
A breathless sob of pure pleasure escapes me.
“That’s it, malyshka,” Lex’s praise vibrates against my skin. He steps closer, pressing his rock hard chest against my shoulder to steady me. “Let it out, baby. Give it to him.”
Cade increases the pace, relentlessly driving and curling his fingers into me while his mouth stays glued to my throbbing clit. Every swirl of his tongue mimics the deep stretch of his fingers and creates an unbearable buildup that has my thighs violently shaking against his shoulders.
Above me, Lex watches the show with dark eyes. He tightens his grip on my hip with one hand so I can’t escape the sweet torture Cade is delivering. He slides the other one into his shorts and wraps it around himself.
Lex leans down, his mouth brushing against my ear. “Look at him. Watch how much he needs this too.” He moans loudly as he squeezes his length. “Fuck, baby. How much we both need this.”
I force my eyes open, looking down through the haze of tears to see Cade completely focused on me. His jaw is clenched and his throat swallowing every drop of my arousal. The overwhelming safety of being trapped between the bodies of the men I love finally breaks the dam inside me.
A sharp tremor ripples through my lower stomach as the first wave of my orgasm hits in a tight and violent rush. My moans echo off the walls of the empty kitchen as my internal muscles clamp down hard around Cade’s fingers.
“Cade!” I scream his name as my body bows straight into his touch.