Chapter 3
Julian
I’m in the middle of reviewing my portfolio manager’s write-up on a potential investment when Nora quietly takes her seat next to me. Unable to resist the lure of her presence, I turn to look at her, watching as she begins reading her book.
Now that I’ve had a few minutes apart from her, the irrational need to lash out and hurt her is gone. In its place is an inexplicable sadness… an odd and unexpected sense of loss.
I don’t understand this. I didn’t lie to Nora when I said I don’t want children.
I’ve never given the subject much thought, but now that I’m considering it, I can’t even imagine being a father.
What would I do with a child? It would be just one more weakness for my enemies to exploit.
I have no interest in babies, nor do I know how to raise them.
My parents certainly weren’t role models in that regard.
I should’ve been glad that Nora doesn’t want kids, but instead, when she brought up the morning-after pill, it felt like a kick to the gut.
Like a rejection of the worst kind.
I had been trying not to think about it, but seeing her wipe my seed off her thighs brought back those unwelcome emotions, reminded me that she doesn’t want this from me.
That she’ll never want this from me.
I don’t understand why that matters. I never planned to start a family with Nora.
Marriage had been a way to cement our bond, nothing more.
She’s my pet… my obsession and my possession.
She loves me because I’ve made her love me, and I want her because she’s necessary to my existence.
Children are not a part of this dynamic.
They can’t be.
Catching me looking at her, Nora gives me a tentative smile. “What are you working on?” she asks, placing her book face down on her lap. “Still the drone design?”
“No, baby.” I force myself to focus on the fact that she came for me in Tajikistan—that she loves me enough to do something so insane—and my mood begins to lift, the lingering tightness in my chest fading.
“What is it then?” she persists, and I smile involuntarily, amused by her inquisitiveness. Nora is no longer content to be on the fringes of my life; she wants to know everything, and she’s growing bolder in her quest for answers.
If this were anyone else, I’d be annoyed. With Nora, however, I don’t mind. I enjoy her curiosity. “I’m going over a prospective investment,” I explain.
She looks intrigued, so I tell her that I’m reading about a biotech startup that specializes in brain chemistry drugs.
If I decide to proceed, I would be a so-called angel investor—one of the first to fund the company.
Venture capital is something that’s always interested me; I like to stay on top of innovation in all kinds of fields and profit from it to the best of my ability.
She listens to my explanation with evident fascination, those dark eyes of hers focused on my face the entire time.
I like it, the way she absorbs knowledge like a sponge.
It makes it fun for me to teach her, to show her different parts of my world.
The few questions she asks are insightful, showing me that she understands exactly what I’m talking about.
“If that drug can erase memories, couldn’t it be used to treat PTSD and such?” she asks after I describe to her one of the startup’s more promising products, and I agree, having arrived at the same conclusion just minutes earlier.
I hadn’t anticipated this when I kidnapped her—the sheer enjoyment I would get out of spending time with her.
When I first took her, I saw her solely as a sexual object, a beautiful girl who obsessed me so much I couldn’t get her out of my thoughts.
I didn’t expect her to become my companion as well as my bedmate, didn’t realize I would enjoy simply being with her.
I didn’t know she would come to own me as much as I own her.
It really is for the best that she remembered to take the pill. Once we’re both healed, our life can go back to normal.
Our normal, at least.
I will have Nora with me, and I won’t let her out of my sight ever again.
It’s dark when we land. I lead a sleepy Nora off the plane, and we get in the car to drive home.
Home. It’s strange thinking of this place as home again.
It was my home when I was a child, and I hated it.
I hated everything about it, from the humid heat to the pungent smell of moist jungle vegetation.
Yet when I got older, I found myself drawn to places just like this—to tropical locations that reminded me of the jungle where I grew up.
It took Nora’s presence here to make me realize I didn’t hate the estate after all. This place was never the object of my hatred—it was always the person it belonged to.
My father.
Nora nestles closer to me in the backseat, interrupting my musings, and yawns delicately into my shoulder. The sound is so kitten-like that I laugh and wrap my right arm around her waist, pulling her closer to me. “Sleepy?”
“Hmm-mm.” She rubs her face against my neck. “You smell good,” she mumbles.
And just like that, my cock turns rock-hard, reacting to the feel of her lips brushing against my skin.
Fuck. I blow out a frustrated breath as the car stops in front of the house.
Ana and Rosa are standing on the front porch, ready to greet us, and my dick is bursting out of my pants.
I shift to the side, trying to ease Nora away from me so my erection can subside.
Her elbow brushes against my ribs, and I tense in pain, mentally cursing Majid to hell and back.
I can’t fucking wait to heal. Even sex earlier today hurt, especially when I set a harder pace at the end. Not that it lessened the pleasure much—I’m pretty sure I could fuck Nora on my deathbed and enjoy it—but it still annoyed me. I like pain with sex, but only when I’m the one doling it out.
On the plus side, my erection is no longer quite as visible.
“We’re there,” I tell Nora as she rubs her eyes and yawns again. “I’d carry you over the threshold, but I’m afraid I might not make it this time.”
She blinks, looking confused for a moment, but then a wide smile spreads across her face. She remembers too. “I’m no longer a new bride,” she says, grinning. “So you’re off the hook.”
I grin back at her, unusual contentment filling my chest, and open the car door.
As soon as we climb out, we’re attacked by two crying women.
Or, more precisely, Nora is attacked. I just watch in bemusement as Ana and Rosa hug her, laughing and sobbing at the same time.
After they’re done with Nora, they turn toward me, and Ana sobs harder as she catches a glimpse of my bandaged face.
“Oh, pobrecito…” She lapses into Spanish like she sometimes does when she’s upset, and Nora and Rosa try to soothe her, saying that I’ll recover, that the important thing is that I’m alive.
The housekeeper’s concern is both touching and disconcerting.
I’ve always been vaguely aware that the older woman cares about me, but I didn’t realize her feelings are this strong.
For as long as I can recall, Ana has been a warm, comforting presence at the estate—someone who fed me, cleaned after me, and bandaged my childhood scrapes and bruises.
I’ve never let her get too close, though, and for the first time I feel a twinge of regret about that.
Neither she nor Rosa, the maid who’s Nora’s friend, try to hug me like they did my wife.
They think I wouldn’t welcome it, and they’re probably right.
The only person I want affection from—no, crave affection from—is Nora, and that’s a recent development.
After the three women are done with their emotional reunion, we all head into the house. Despite the late hour, Nora and I are hungry, and we devour the meal Ana prepared for us with record speed. Then, replete and exhausted, we go upstairs to our bedroom.
A quick shower and an equally quick fuck later, I drift off to sleep with Nora’s head pillowed on my uninjured shoulder.
I’m ready for our normal life to resume.
The scream that wakes me up is bloodcurdling. Full of desperation and terror, it bounces off the walls and floods my veins with adrenaline.
I’m on my feet and off the bed before I even realize what’s happening. As the sound dies down, I grab the gun hidden in my nightstand and simultaneously hit the light switch with the back of my hand.
The nightstand lamp turns on, illuminating the room, and I see Nora huddled in the middle of the bed, shaking under the blanket.
There’s no one else in the room, no visible threat.
My racing heartbeat begins to slow. We didn’t get attacked. The scream must’ve come from Nora.
She’s having yet another nightmare.
Fuck. The urge to do violence is almost too strong to be contained. It fills every cell of my body until I’m shaking with rage, with the need to kill and destroy every motherfucker responsible for this.
Starting potentially with myself.
Turning away, I draw in several deep breaths, trying to hold back the churning fury within me. There’s no one I can lash out at here, no enemy I can crush to take the edge off my temper.
There’s only Nora, who needs me to be calm and rational.
After a few seconds pass and I’m certain I won’t hurt her, I turn back to face her and put the gun back into the nightstand drawer.
Then I climb back on the bed. My ribs and shoulder ache dully, and my head throbs from my sudden movements, but that pain is nothing compared to the heaviness in my chest.
“Nora, baby…” Leaning over her, I pull the blanket off her naked body and place my right hand on her shoulder to shake her awake.
“Wake up, my pet. It’s just a dream.” Her skin is clammy to the touch, and the whimpering noises she’s making pain me more than any of Majid’s torture.
Fresh rage wells up, but I suppress it, keeping my voice low and even.
“Wake up, baby. You’re dreaming. It’s not real. ”