Chapter 13
Jonathan
It’s been over a month at least since I’ve responded to any of Kaz’s messages. Normally I’m the one continuously messaging her but I really just can’t right now. If i’m being honest with myself, I’m fucking hurt. I know we weren’t ever an actual item. We have been towing this line between coworkers and I don't know… ”lovers” for so long, I think I’m just so mixed up. There was never an official conversation, mostly because we were hiding from everyone, but also because Kaz only messaged me when she was tipsy. Everytime I think of it like that, it pisses me off. Had she been fucking with me all along? I mean, I never asked her to be exclusive but she could have at least had the decency to not mess around with anyone else at work. She made me think we had something special. Somewhere in the back of my mind I thought one day it would be more. Now, instead, I’m left wondering who else she’s been fucking. Does she take turns blowing Sebastian with Sasha? What about Xavier? Maybe he fucks her on the side too. Andre? My brother? Both at the same time? The last part really gets me. I can feel my knuckles tighten, harshly gripping the pen I’ve been aimlessly flipping around. I’ve been stuck in my office all fucking day trying to avoid seeing her. Now I find myself flipping the shades so I can peer out hoping to catch a glimpse. She’s nowhere around but the door to my office opens abruptly to my left and Xavier strides in.
“We are going to the new sex club that asshole Lockhart is opening this weekend. I’m getting a VIP setup so we can get a layout of the place and try to figure out what kind of pie he has his hands in.”
“Is this mandatory?” I ask him while still staring through the glass. Kaz steps off the elevator onto our floor. She looks fantastic as usual in her tight skirt and ruffled blouse. She’s got on a pair of sexy red heels and red lipstick to match. Visions of me fucking her while she wears those heels assault my memory. I squeeze my eyes shut in an attempt to clear my head.
“Jonathan, are you okay?” Xavier asks me.
I turn towards him with a curt smile that feels painted on and respond, “Yeah, I'm good man. Just have a headache.” My head swivels right back to the glass eyeing Kaz as she steps up to Sebastian and starts showing him some paperwork.
“So will you be able to go? We could really use you and Jamison. More eyes to see what's going on.” Xavier says casually while also looking through the glass. No doubt, he is looking directly where I am now. Sebastian places his hand on Kaz's lower back and guides her into his office before shutting the door behind him. I grind my molars and blow out a breath to try to control the slight rage I’m currently feeling.
“Count me in,” I respond to Xavier finally.
He looks at me with a straight face for a good thirty seconds before I raise my brows at him in question.
“Sebastian isn’t into Kaz. You know that right?”
I roll my eyes in irritation. “It’s not my business who Sebastian is into. Besides, she’s off limits, remember?”
He laughs at me and opens the door to my office. “Oh, I remember alright. I’m just not sure you ever actually heard the memo.”
The door slams behind him leaving me to question if Kaz and I were ever as careful as I thought we were.