Chapter 14
Fourteen
Three years ago…
Cassian
I sit in the driver’s seat of the Ghost. Underneath the matte black paint is a Helios Icarus prototype, stolen from my father’s personal collection.
He wouldn't recognize his crowning achievement now. I’ve stripped it, tuned it, and erased every trace of the sun-god branding he was so proud of.
It’s a hole in the universe, a predator built for the dark.
My hands rest on the worn leather of the steering wheel, my knuckles brushing against the cold steel of the nitrous switch I installed myself—an impurity he would despise.
The five-figure pot sitting in a duffel bag fifty feet away is secondary.
The money is a means to an end. The race… the race is the point.
A sharp rap on the passenger-side window makes me turn. Leo.
He leans down, a flash of blond hair and a blindingly optimistic smile that has no place in this graveyard of ambition. He is eighteen, all lanky limbs and a belief that the world is a good place that just hasn't proven it yet. He’s wrong, but I’d kill myself before I ever let him find that out.
"Just another Tuesday, right?" he grins, his voice barely audible over the rumbling idle of the car next to me—a souped-up Viper with a smug bastard behind the wheel.
"Just another job," I correct him, my eyes forward. I don’t need to look at him to feel his light. It’s the only warmth in my goddamn life.
My phone buzzes in the center console. I glance down. Mother.
A familiar pang of guilt twists in my gut.
I picture her face, the worry etched around her eyes.
She hates this. She calls it my ‘death wish,’ convinced I’m trying to drive into an early grave.
She doesn't understand that this is the only thing that makes me feel alive.
I can't hear her voice right now. I can't let her fear become a crack in my focus. Disappointing her hurts. But her worry is a weight I can’t carry on this track.
I silence the call and toss the phone into the glove box, slamming it shut. A final seal against the outside world.
Leo claps the roof of the car twice. "Bring it home, Cass."
That’s our ritual. My signal.
I look forward. A girl in frayed shorts and a tank top that has seen better days stands between the two cars, a red bandana in her hand. The world outside my windshield fades. The crowd, the noise, the reek of desperation—it all melts away.
Out here, there is no Dimitri Kostas. There is no legacy to uphold or to burn. There is no past, no future. There is only the engine, the road, and my will. This is the only place I am not a son or an heir. I am just a driver. And I am in control.
The bandana goes up.
My foot is already moving, my mind a thousand calculations ahead. The moment the fabric leaves her hand, I slam the accelerator to the floor.
The world doesn't blur. It snaps into a tunnel of pure focus. The Viper jumps ahead, its modern engineering giving it an edge off the line. Good. Let him think he has it. I let him take the lead by half a car length, keeping the Ghost’s nose right at his rear tire.
I feel the engine beneath me, a living thing, straining, wanting me to let it loose. Not yet.
My hands don’t grip the wheel; they merge with it. Every crack in the asphalt, every subtle shift in traction, travels up my arms and into my brain. The car isn't a machine I operate; it's an extension of my body.
We hit the first turn, a long, sweeping left. The Viper’s driver takes it wide, trying to maintain his speed. Amateur. I cut the wheel hard, kissing the inside line, the Ghost’s tires screaming in protest but holding. We come out of the turn neck and neck.
The straightaway opens up before us. This is it.
My thumb flicks the nitrous switch.
The kick is instantaneous and brutal, slamming me back into my seat. The Ghost doesn't accelerate; it detonates. The engine screams, a primal howl of unleashed power, and we shoot forward, leaving the Viper in our wake as if it were standing still.
The wind roars. The speedometer needle climbs past 140. The road becomes a grey ribbon being devoured by the black hole on its nose. This is freedom. A violent, fleeting, thirty-second hit of pure, unadulterated control.
But The Widowmaker is coming.
It’s a hard-right ninety-degree turn at the end of the straightaway, with no runoff. You either make the turn, or you become a permanent part of the concrete wall on the other side.
The Viper’s driver starts braking, sparks flying from his overworked rotors. He’s slowing too much, too soon. He’s afraid of the turn.
I’m not.
I wait. 140. 130. 120.
Now.
I don’t just brake. I downshift hard, throwing the car’s weight forward, and turn the wheel into the skid.
The back end of the Ghost swings out in a controlled slide, a ballet of violence.
For a split second, I am looking directly at the Viper through my passenger window as we both hurtle toward the turn.
I see the look of sheer panic on the driver's face.
Then I correct, the tires bite, and the Ghost shoots out of the turn, perfectly aligned with the finish line. The Viper is still struggling to regain control somewhere behind me.
I cross the line, easing off the accelerator, letting the engine's roar settle back into a rumbling growl. The victory isn't a wave of euphoria. It’s a release. The unwinding of a spring that has been coiled too tight for too long. A fix.
I pull the car to a stop near where Leo is waiting, his face split by a triumphant grin. He yanks my door open.
"You're a goddamn artist!" he yells, his voice electric.
I just grunt, my heart rate already returning to normal. I watch as one of Leo’s friends collects the duffel bag. He brings it over, handing it to me through the open door. I don't even look inside. I just toss it onto the passenger seat.
"Let's go," I say.
Leo gets into his own beat-up Civic parked nearby, and I follow him out of the industrial park. We drive in silence to the shitty, two-bedroom apartment we share on the other side of the city—the one place our father's name means nothing.
I hand him the bag when we get inside. He unzips it, staring at the stacks of cash.
"This is it," he breathes. "This is enough. First and last for the new place. We can finally get out."
"I told you I'd handle it," I say, grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge.
He looks up at me, his eyes shining with a hero-worship that I have never earned and don't deserve. "You always do."
I lean against the counter, watching him. This is why I race. Every risk, every near-miss, it is all to build a wall around him. To buy him a life away from the poison of our family.
My hand finds the pack of cigarettes in my pocket. I shake one out, lighting it with a flick of a silver Zippo. The first drag is a harsh, familiar burn. A different kind of fix.
I think of the Ghost, my perfect machine, sitting outside. The way it responds to my every command, the absolute trust I have in it.
It’s a dangerous thing, to love a machine. To trust a Helios with the only thing in the world you can’t bear to lose.