Chapter 15
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What’s Christmas without movies?
I had no idea why I was being forced to endure this. Popcorn, I liked. Hot chocolate was fine. The candy cane Chase had forced on me while he sucked on one was tolerable. But watching these ancient Terran films was pure torture.
Both Tam and Chase had abandoned watching the film. They were giggling as they cuddled on the couch. The two of them were all wrapped up with each other, and the sight made me smile.
I was alone on my side of the over-plush couch in a ridiculous Christmas sweater featuring a human who had a massive white beard and red hat.
Tam had also put on a festive sweater, though theirs had an antlered beast with a glowing red nose, but we had kept Chase naked, with just the simple red ribbon around his neck.
I believed that both of us enjoyed seeing his freckled skin so much that it physically hurt to contemplate covering it when we didn’t have to.
Tam laughed loudly again, squeezing a giggling Chase, and I shook my head and hid a smile with my hand. They were so happy together. Every second that we spent with Chase, the more Tam and I got attached to him. I loathed to think about what the journey home without Chase would be like.
My coupling would be distraught without the human, and they might even refuse to leave right away.
I would probably have to drag Tam away from Chase at the port, leaving our human behind.
My hearts stumbled in my chest. An image bloomed in my brain: Chase’s wet face as he cried, and the sound of Tam's sobs echoed in my ears. A burning sensation started in my hearts like I’d been shot in the chest.
I didn’t want to think about how upset I was going to be when we left the freckled, dimpled human here.
I liked Chase far too much. My feelings were even approaching the brink of—dare I say—love.
Fucking him had been a bad idea, but I’d craved that connection with him.
When he’d pleaded so nicely… How was I to refuse that?
Chase giggled, rolling on top of Tam and letting me see his round ass covered in freckles, which ass jiggled as he tickled Tam.
Unable to help myself, I pulled his cheeks apart to look at his hole.
It was still red and slightly puffy from the rough pounding I’d given it earlier, but it would be fine.
“Daddy,” Chase complained, wriggling away from me, face red.
Tam burst into peals of uproarious laughter.
I grunted. “I’m allowed to make sure you’re well.”
Chase was still bright red when Tam kissed him soundly.
The two of them went back to their teasing, and I smiled watching them.
Something about the two of them together was beautiful.
Both of them were clearly content and occupied while I was stuck with only this Terran nightmare film for entertainment.
My fingers twitched as I thought of getting my d-pad and checking my messages to see exactly what was going on back home.
I was trying so hard not to look at work.
That had been part of the deal between Tam and me when we went on this vacation.
No work. I spent far too much time working, and I felt bad for my coupling.
They deserved far more than I was giving them.
My eyes raked over Chase, who was laughing brightly.
Maybe I could convince Chase to come home with us?
He would be right there beside Tam. It would be comforting to know that Tam wasn’t alone all the time when I was at work.
Though if we did bring Chase home, he deserved more than my partial attention, just like Tam.
They would both need more, and that would mean cutting back hours at work, which wasn’t a bad thing at all.
Just something that would be challenging for me.
Still, could Tam even be taken from Chase?
They had bonded so much in a single day.
Clearly Tam was attached at this point, and I had to wonder what they were thinking.
Chase was human. There was no way he would want to return with us after this short stretch.
It was preposterous. All the same, I loathed to think of myself without Chase right beside me.
Chase’s form crashed into me. I grunted, wrapping my arms and some of my tentacles around him to keep my boy from falling to the floor. Remaining calm, though one of them could’ve been hurt, I asked, “What are you doing?”
“I don’t know. Tam shoved me.” Chase sounded hurt, so I kissed his lips, and he melted into my embrace, snuggling against my chest, and my hearts pounded together at the feel of him. He belonged to me, as Tam did, but I wasn’t sure if I could keep him.
Chase wiggled on my lap, and I held him still to keep from getting aroused.
At the thought of sex, I worried about his sore hole.
Part of me wanted to use this rather romantic moment to force more nanite gel into his ass, but I swallowed the urge.
He was fine. Humans, while more fragile than many species, were hardy creatures.
“I wanted Nyx to play with us, pet. That’s why I shoved you. But I have to go, anyway,” Tam said.
“Where?” Chase asked.
Tam leaned over, kissing him, and Chase hooked his arms around Tam. “Remember Maurice?”
“Yes.” Red filled Chase’s cheeks, making me chuckle.
“He invited us to come play with him and his wife tonight. Want to come?” Tam asked, trailing their fingers down Chase’s sides. “It would be fun to watch Maurice fuck you nice and hard.”
Chase pressed tighter against me. “I guess.”
I frowned, and so did Tam.
“Level?” I demanded.
“Three,” Chase whispered, eyes down.
I stroked his chin and cheeks. “Good boy for telling us.”
“What’s wrong?” Tam asked, crawling almost on top of Chase and me. I grabbed my coupling to keep them from falling off the couch.
“I don’t want to.” His voice was barely audible. “But you paid for me.”
I yanked his head back by his hair, pulling him tight enough to make him groan and have his cock twitching. “You’re allowed to say no, boy. I told you that.”
Tears filled his eyes, though they didn’t spill down his cheeks, and I flinched. Chase was soft in form and emotion, and I didn’t want to injure him. I pulled him closer, and he trembled.
“You paid for me, and I feel bad,” Chase whispered. “I should do everything you want.”
Tam wrapped around Chase, kissing his neck and shoulders. “No, pet, you can always say no. Always. I’m not mad, and neither is Nyx. You never have to force yourself to do something that you don’t want to.”
“Okay,” Chase said in a quiet voice that spoke of his disbelief.
“What do you want?” Tam asked.
“I want to stay home with Daddy tonight.”
Something shattered in my hearts. I kissed him soundly. “Then stay.”
Tam kissed Chase next. “Sounds good to me. I will fuck you when I get home.”
Chase smiled. “I would like that.”
“Good.” Tam gave me a feral kiss, and I groaned, sliding my tongue into their mouth. Tam was so familiar. Every aspect of them was known, no mystery, but I loved them all the same. I loved how I knew exactly what to do and how they felt against me.
“I love you,” I told Tam, who grinned.
“I love you too, Nyx.” Tam gave us both a smile and raced out of the house.
I settled Chase more firmly on my lap and cuddled him close. “Let’s finish this ridiculous movie.”
“Okay,” he replied, pressing into me.
I wasn’t paying attention to the movie. I, of course, hadn’t been when Tam was still here either; I’d been too consumed with playing with them.
Nyx was watching the movie with a scowl, and I didn’t know if it was because he didn’t like it or if he was upset.
I snuggled closer to his side, and Nyx wrapped an arm around me, snagging me even tighter against his frame while he absentmindedly rubbed my arm, and one of his tentacles uncurled, then curled around my leg.
His embrace was so sure, so comforting. I’d never experienced anything like it.
My last relationship had never been like this.
Elijah had been controlling and had liked me to call him “Daddy” too, but at the heart of it, he’d been an abusive asshole that had hurt me physically, emotionally, and financially under the guise of love and discipline.
Nyx and Tam were nothing like that. They constantly comforted me and provided the aftercare I needed.
Both of them checked in with me to make sure that I was actually into whatever we were doing.
They both cared about me as a person, and they didn’t even know me that well, though I’d told them things I hadn’t told another living soul.
Today had been healthier and more comforting than I’d experienced in my entire relationship with Elijah. That fact was both elating and terrifying.
What was I going to do when they left?
I had no idea. I’d gone and done the thing that I had promised not to do in record time. I’d caught feelings. Nyx and Tam had crashed their way into my fragile heart, and I was rather terrified that when they left, they would take pieces of me that could never be recovered.
My eyes flicked back to Daddy’s face once more, and he was still frowning.
I tucked against the crook of his neck, and another one of Nyx’s tentacles curled up my leg, joining the first. Another thing to love about lollikrakes—Nyx and Tam could hold me in so many ways.
However, even though Daddy was cuddling me, his expression remained annoyed.
I asked, “Are you mad?”
“Why would you ask that, boy?”
I shrugged.
A sharp slap to my thigh made me groan. My cock perked up.
The hit hadn’t hurt, but it had been a reminder to use my words and not hide.
I kissed his soft sweater in a silent apology, and Nyx smoothed a hand over the back of my head.
The movement made me want to cry. He did the same thing to Tam. It was almost as if he loved me too.
“Tell me what’s going on,” he demanded.
“You seem mad, and I wanted to make sure you weren’t annoyed with Tam.”
“Why would I be?”
I had to fight the urge to shrug again. I didn’t want to confront him, and yet at the same time, I did. I needed to prove to myself that Nyx wasn’t Elijah. That he wouldn’t get mad at the same things Elijah did. That this feeling of safety was true, not that I would be with Tam or Nyx much longer.
“Because Tam left you here with me to go have fun,” I finally forced out.
Nyx lifted my face and pressed a gentle kiss to my lips that had some part of me breaking. It was so loving and tender, like he could see all of the cracks in my heart, and he planned to help me heal them.
“I’m not mad at Tam,” he replied, lips brushing mine again in a sensuous kiss. “I love that Tam is having fun and enjoying themself as we speak. It’s nice and comforting that other people see Tam for the amazing person they are and want to spend time with them.”
I nodded.
“Are you mad Tam left and is having sex with other people?” Nyx asked.
“No,” I said instantly. “I honestly don’t mind.
I also love that Tam is having fun.” I shrugged.
“More love is just more love. It doesn’t mean that Tam loves you and me any less.
” I froze when I realized what I’d said.
My heart was like a chunk of ice while my cheeks burned like a raging inferno, I stammered, “Not me. Th-that’s… I don’t mean… I obviously…”
Nyx cut me off with another kiss. This one was long and deep, and it made my toes curl and my heart spark with affection.
Groaning, I straddled Nyx’s lap to rut against his stomach, and his hands settled on my ass.
His fingers dug into the plump skin and made me groan.
The harsh hold, the sting of pain, had my cock firm and leaking.
My tongue invaded his mouth, slicking over his.
I needed to be closer to him. I wanted Nyx to own me, to be my Daddy forever.
Daddy let me play, my hands and tongue exploring, but when I tried to find one of his cocks among his tentacles, he tightened his hold.
“No, boy,” Nyx growled against my mouth.
I whined, “I want to.”
“And your ass needs to rest, especially if you want Tam to fuck you when they come back.”
“I want you both to fuck me.”
Nyx found my lips again and claimed my mouth in a brutal kiss. “And we will. But you need to let your hole have a break.”
I sighed, shifting off his lap and pressing against his side.
“This movie makes no sense,” he said, and I burst into laughter. Nyx smiled down at me, and my chest burned like the aesthetically pleasing fire in the picturesque fireplace across from us.