16. Sexy Silver Bells
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Sexy Silver Bells
Ember
I should feel happy, considering how the past week has unfolded. Yet, as I sit here packing the final pieces of my belongings, I can’t help but focus on the impending goodbye. After some reflection, I’ve already made my decision, but I’ve chosen to keep it to myself for now. Once I share it, I wonder how everyone will react. I must prioritize what’s best for me—am I choosing to retreat back to my mundane life, where every day is tinged with fear? Or do I stay here with the three of them, where I’ve experienced pure joy and a profound sense of safety? Only time will reveal my choice.
With a heavy sigh, I sit on my suitcase to zip it up, carefully ensuring I’ve packed the Christmas gifts from the guys—except for the whipped cream that was devoured from my body. A shiver runs through me at the thought, nostalgia washing over me as I long for the warmth of their hands and lips.
Taking a deep breath, I fan my hand in front of my face to cool myself off before standing and rolling my suitcase toward my bedroom door, ready for departure. Perhaps there’s a way for me to embrace both worlds. Maybe I can learn to feel safe in my own skin without sacrificing the thrill and happiness I’ve found here.
Stepping into the hallway, I gasp, my eyes widening in surprise at the sight before me. "What are you guys doing out here?" I ask, taking in the view of Koda, Everest, and Baine in their snug, revealing boxers, my gaze momentarily drawn away from their faces—let’s be honest, it’s hard to resist.
"We were waiting for you, doll."
"All packed?"
I nod, gesturing to my suitcase behind me. "Unfortunately, yes."
"Are you sure you don’t want to stay until the New Year’s party? You could head back after that."
The thought tempts me, but my life, my best friend, and the need for a break from the endless pleasure they’ve brought me weigh heavy on my mind. Honestly, I’m surprised I can still walk.
"I’ve considered it, but I think I’ll go back for a few days. I’ll return soon so we can ride to Mom and Dad’s together." Smiling at the three guys before me, a sense of peace envelops me as I make my decision. "I’ll be back soon, I promise," I say, excitement bubbling up at the thought of our future together.
Koda steps forward, cradling my face in his warm hands while his thumbs caress my lips. Rising onto my toes, I meet his lips in a kiss, warmth blooming in my cheeks as he draws my tongue into his mouth. The kiss is more urgent than usual, and I sense his desire to hold on just a moment longer. I’m more than okay with this. His tongue dances passionately with mine, both of us locked in a fiery duel neither wants to lose. But we do. Gazing into his eyes, I lick my lips, feeling his thumb glide across them, mingling our essence.
"I love you, my little Ember. I’ll see you soon, baby girl."
"I love you too, Koda. Count on it."
Next, Baine steps in front of me, his warm smile melting my heart. He leans down to kiss me softly, capturing my lips in a gentle embrace that makes it difficult to pull away. I clutch the band of his boxers, feeling him against me, heightening the struggle to separate. Eventually, we both break away, a glimmer of something unknown shining in his gaze.
"I’m going to miss you, doll, but I’ll never forget you."
"I’ll miss you too, Baine, but I’ll be back soon." He gives my ass a playful slap, his eyes gleaming with mischief.
"My turn?" Everest interjects, playfully pulling me against him.
I kiss him deeply, unleashing my tongue in a determined quest for dominance, but, as always, he swiftly takes control. And I surrender willingly.
When we finally part, Everest looks at me with a teasing spark in his eyes. "Just remember, Ember, I always win."
I laugh, playfully nudging his shoulder. "You wish!" I retort with a grin.
He chuckles and plants a quick peck on my lips before stepping back. As the three of them watch me leave, I know I’ll miss them dearly, but I’m also certain I’ll return soon. I glance back one last time, blowing them a kiss before turning away. The cool breeze brushes against my skin, contrasting with the lingering warmth of their kisses on my lips. As I head home, a feeling of contentment washes over me, knowing they’ll be waiting for my return.
I expected a different feeling upon returning to my apartment with Bella; I imagined I would be happier than I currently am. Waking up alone is disheartening, and I'm disappointed with myself for the way I've come to depend on a man. The moment I awaken, thoughts of Koda flood my mind. What has happened to me?
As I turn onto my side, the sight of snow gently falling outside brings a fleeting smile to my face. Finally, I muster the resolve to sit up, pulling my robe from beside the bed and wrapping it around me as a chill from the open window whispers against my skin.
The lively sounds of the streets below and the distant toll of church bells snap me back to reality. I step out of bed and approach the window, yearning for a moment of peace and quiet. I used to revel in the rhythm of the city, but now all I crave is stillness.
Had I truly been living in a bubble all week with Koda? If I were to return to that world, would anything be different, or would it merely revert to how it was before? My thoughts race, spiraling into a whirlwind of doubts and uncertainties that pound against my temples.
With a sigh, I close my eyes and take a deep breath, trying to untangle my mind. Yet, with each exhale, I feel a weight on my chest—a longing for something that remains just out of reach. A part of me itches to escape, to run back to Koda and that sanctuary of serenity, but another part knows I can't keep evading the responsibilities waiting for me here. I have Bella to think of.
Turning away from the window, I make my way to the kitchen, allowing the comforting routine of brewing coffee to center me. The rich aroma permeates the air, guiding me toward a decision. I’ll give myself a few more days to adjust to my old life before I return to see if things have indeed changed. I owe it to myself to find out.
“Up early, are we?” Bella’s sleepy voice catches me off guard, and I turn to greet her with a smile.
“I couldn’t sleep. The noise was overwhelming. ”
“True, but didn’t you always love the sound? It helped you drift off.” She moves to make her own cup of coffee, leaning back against the counter while her curious gaze pierces through my thoughts. “What’s on your mind?”
“I don’t know. This past week has felt... different. I feel different.”
“Does this have anything to do with your stepbrother?” The way she says it ignites a spark of amusement within me.
Perhaps it’s the allure of the forbidden that makes it so thrilling. When the truth comes out, will things change? Will our connection still burn with the same intensity? My head begins to ache again, overwhelmed by a surge of possible scenarios.
“It’s Koda, isn’t it?” Bella presses gently.
“What?”
“I said, It’s Koda, isn’t it? You’re hung up on Koda.”
“Bella, what do you want from me?"
"You’re a terrible liar, Ember—and you know it.” Her laughter breaks the tension, prompting me to chuckle along.
I take a moment to gather my thoughts, desperate to articulate my feelings. “You’re right. I can’t stop thinking about him. I’m at a loss for what to do.”
Bella’s reassuring smile warms me as her hand rests on my shoulder. “Whatever you decide, just remember that I’m here for you. Koda seems like a decent guy. Maybe it’s worth exploring.”
I nod, relief washing over me at her understanding. Perhaps it isn’t as convoluted as I’ve made it out to be. Sipping hot coffee on the balcony, I relish the taste of vanilla swirling through my mug. Flurries dance around me, landing in my hair, on my nose, and even in my drink, eliciting a smile.
“You’ve been unusually quiet since coming home, Ember. Is there something on your mind?”
“Well, I've been contemplating transferring. "
Her jaw drops in surprise, hanging in disbelief before I even finish explaining. “Wait, what?”
“Yeah, I think a change of scenery might be beneficial. I just haven’t felt like myself for quite some time, Bella.”
“I know, Em. It’s been hard because of Shawn.” Her expression shifts, her eyes widening in concern. “Did you hear what happened to him?”
My heart sinks as I clutch my coffee tighter. “What do you mean?”
“He was really fucked up, Ember! So many broken bones, including his hands. He was assaulted,” she whispers the last part, her gaze accusing, as if she holds me partially responsible.
“Honestly, he had it coming,” I reply coolly.
“Did you know about it?”
I shrug, knowing I can trust Bella but not wanting to delve into that dark territory. “I couldn’t tell you, girl. It wasn’t my doing.”
“No kidding,” she laughs, finally lightening the mood. “So, where’s the new school going to be?”
I inhale deeply, sorting through my thoughts before responding. “I’m considering a college out of state. A chance to escape and start fresh.”
Bella nods knowingly. “I think that sounds like a strong plan, Ember. I’ll support you regardless.”
Her words fill me with comfort and conviction; I know I’m making the right choice. “Thank you, Bella. I couldn’t navigate this without you.”
The snowflakes continue to swirl around us as we sit in a comfortable silence. “Where, though?” she prompts, sensing my hesitation.
“Where Koda is. I’d be staying with him.”
“Why am I not surprised? You’ve been in love with him since you were thirteen.”
“Bella! What the hell?” I shake my head, but I can't help but feel a weight lift from my chest.
“I’m genuinely happy for you, Ember. I just want you to make the right choice for yourself, not for anyone else.”
“I know, and that’s why I’m considering every angle—every aspect. I’m even making pros and cons lists.” I hang my head, realizing how neurotic I sound. It’s not such a monumental decision, is it? Yet, my mind insists otherwise.
“If you need help with your lists or anything else, I’m here for you,” Bella offers, placing a comforting hand on my shoulder.
“Thanks, Bella. That means a lot.” Gratitude swells within me as we continue to sit in silence, and I notice myself feeling lighter with every passing moment as I contemplate the decision ahead. Perhaps a fresh start is exactly what I need to heal and move forward.
“I’m not sure if I’m ready to take this leap,” I confess, the determination in my voice evident.
“I’ll be right there with you,” Bella assures me, her eyes brimming with unwavering support.
As snowflakes twirl gracefully around us, I begin to feel a thrill of excitement building inside me.
Koda
As the music pulses through the room and the lights dance, I find myself lost in the rhythm. I place my hand on her shoulders, swaying my hips against her, consumed by the moment. Her hands encircle me, her nails sinking into the fabric of my underwear.
My mind is a whirlpool of emotions, a chaotic storm of feelings. Focusing on the dance, I move my body against hers, hearing her soft, excited moans escape her lips. But they’re not the ones I want. They’re not hers .
The music swells and a wave of desperation crashes over me. I begin to mentally retreat, my heart pounding in my chest. She gazes at me, desire evident in her eyes, and I realize that I need to say something. I open my mouth, but the words catch in my throat. My hands explore her body, her breath coming heavy and warm. I slide down her form, straddling her lap, my fingers tangling gently in her hair. I lean in, my lips brushing against her neck as I grind my hips against hers.
But then I blink at the sensation of her hands moving over me, and disappointment seeps deep within me. How did I let this happen? A sense of regret washes over me.
Suddenly, I snap back to reality. Ember isn’t the one I’m dancing for, and the woman beneath me looks genuinely perplexed.
"Hope you enjoyed the dance," I say, rising off her lap.
She looks flushed, likely wondering why I just thrust myself against her. I thought she was Ember, but she clearly wasn’t.
I walk away, a heavy mix of shame and regret settled in my chest. I need to find Ember and make things right. It's been a struggle since she left; the atmosphere has thickened with gloom, and everything feels off-kilter. We need her back, and I’m determined to convince her. I haven’t pressed her since she vanished, but we talk every day.
"What was that about?" Baine asks as he approaches, shrugging into his coat for the night.
"What do you mean?"
"Carla filled me in on the dance... you slipped again, huh? "
"I don’t know what’s happening to me. I can’t stop imagining her everywhere." We exit the club and climb into the car, leaving the music behind as we wait for Ev to emerge.
"You’re in love, Koda."
"I know that. I wasn’t just telling her for the hell of it." He chuckles as Ev slides into the backseat.
“Get us home, bro. I need a drink and to forget about this shit.” He lights a cigarette, inhaling deeply the thick smoke swirling around us.
"Is it Ember again?"
"Yeah," Baine replies, as if this is an ongoing theme.
"I promised her I wouldn’t bother her until she was back. I owe her at least that."
They both shake their heads, glancing out at the snow tumbling from the sky as we navigate home.
"I think you know what you need to do, Koda."
My brow lifts slightly, a smirk tugging at my lips, my eyes focused on the road ahead. "I think I do too."
Ember
As I finish my third glass of wine, I catch my foot tapping to the cheerful rhythm of the Christmas music playing in the background, my heel clicking softly against the floor. Bella bounces over with a bottle of white wine in hand.
"More wine?" She beams, and I extend my glass toward her.
I watch as the liquid swirls and splashes around the rim while she pours it generously. After refilling her glass and attending to some guests in the living room, she joins me at the balcony, leaning over the railing. The silver jingle bells jingle every time the apartment door opens, and twinkle lights flicker in the night, casting a gentle glow over my apartment.
"I think the party turned out wonderfully, don’t you?"
I glance over my shoulder at the crowd gathered inside, a smile spreading across my face as I feel a sense of contentment wash over me, finally glad to be back home. "Absolutely, I'd call it a success."
"Are you enjoying yourself?" Bella asks.
"Yeah, I really am," I reply, raising my glass with a grin before taking a sip. The music, the laughter, and the twinkling lights meld into the perfect atmosphere for a night like this. I turn to Bella again, my expression warm. "Thank you for helping me with everything. I couldn't have pulled off this party without you."
She flashes me a bright smile and pulls me into a hug. "Of course! Anytime." As we stand there, I can’t help but feel a sense of longing as Bella nudges the conversation in another direction. "So, have you been thinking more about Koda? You've seemed a bit lovesick since you got back."
I sigh, the truth in her words resonating deeply. "I miss him, yeah, but I'm slowly adjusting to being home."
"Good, because I've missed you," she replies, drawing me close for another hug and clinking her glass against mine before we both take a sip.
Just then, a voice interrupts us. "Did someone say they missed me?"
I nearly choke on my wine, swallowing hastily as I wipe my mouth, and as I turn slowly, there he is: Koda, dressed sharply in a suit, his hair slicked back just the way I love it, standing with a captivating grin on his face.
"Koda, what… what are you doing here?"
"What do you think, Ember?"
Bella clears her throat, subtly edging away to give us some privacy.
"Did you miss me or something?" I ask, attempting to mask the nerves bubbling inside me.
"That's a ridiculous question. Of course I missed you."
He steps closer, wrapping his arms around me and pinning my back against the cool railing while the chill doesn’t bother me at all. Right now, with his warmth wrapping around me, all that matters is that he’s here. We stand for a heartbeat, lost in each other's gaze, until he leans in, his voice soft and sincere.
"I couldn’t stand being away from you any longer; I had to come back."
The smile that floods my face is undeniable. "I’m glad you did," I whisper, leaning in for a kiss.
The connection we share ignites a warmth that assures me everything will be alright now that he’s by my side. Our lips meet, and the world around us fades away as we lose ourselves in each other, tongues dancing a passionate waltz beneath the falling snow. With the booming music from inside and the surrounding chaos muffled, nothing matters except the fervor of Koda's kiss. He slips a hand between us, cupping my throat gently while his fingers slide beneath my dress, teasingly brushing my most intimate spot.
"I love that you’re always in a dress. It makes it so much easier to touch you where I want."
"Is that all you want? Just to touch me, Koda?" I deliberately moan, teasing him as he lavishes attention on my neck.
"Jesus, I’ve missed you." He exhales heavily against my ear, both of us oblivious to the bustling party behind us.
Outside, snowflakes drift down softly, yet the heat radiating between us is a palpable force. Koda’s hands explore my body, reviving a fire in me that I thought had long been extinguished. I surrender to the moment, the thrill of longing rekindled, the vibrant emotions stirring deep within.
"Show me just how much you’ve missed me," I breathe, just as his eager mouth finds mine again, enveloping me in a fierce, hungry kiss.
Wrapped in this passionate embrace, we succumb to the inevitable pull that has always drawn us together. He settles into the patio couch, pulling me onto his lap and draping a blanket over us.
"I'll show you how much I missed you, but you need to be a good girl and ride me right here."
I gasp at the audacity, whispering back, "There are so many people around, Koda! They can see!"
His fingers deftly slide my soaked panties aside, sending a jolt of desire through me as he slips inside me. I arch my back involuntarily, letting out a soft moan of his name, surrendering to the exquisite sensations he’s stirring within me.
"Koda," I gasp, instinctively rocking against him.
"Doesn’t it turn you on? Knowing we could be caught at any moment." His voice resonates against my skin, sending shivers down my spine.
The thrill adds to the intoxicating heat between us, making every brush of his fingers against my skin feel electric. The world around us fades into a distant hum as our bodies move in harmony, lost in the fervent desire connecting us.
"Let me in, baby," he urges, and I eagerly lift my hips, quivering with anticipation as he eases into me, filling me completely.
"God, yes!"
“Damn, you feel incredible,” he breathes, guiding my movements. “Now you’re going to ride me in front of all these people, and don’t you dare make a sound unless you want to get caught,” he warns, his hands exploring my body as I begin to move, slow and deliberate.
The thrill of being caught heightens our passion as I feel him throbbing inside me, each thrust driving me closer to the edge. As I lose myself in the rhythm, my senses heighten, and the sounds around us blur into nothingness, consumed by our connection. With every grind against him, I can feel his desire overwhelming me, drawing me deeper into our shared passion. Koda's hands roam and urge me onward, coaxing soft moans from my lips as I succumb to the fire he’s ignited within me.
"Make sure you keep it down, Ember," he whispers as he smirks, the danger of discovery only adding to my excitement.
There’s a fleeting thrill at the thought of being seen, and I wrap my hands around his waist tightly, losing myself in this moment. Despite the rest of the world, nothing matters but Koda and the waves of pleasure that roll through me. He holds my hips firmly as he finds his release inside me, and I cling to him as I feel the warmth spread, enveloping me in bliss.
I lean forward, panting softly as our activities come to a gentle halt. My heart races as I try to regain my composure, the adrenaline still pumping through my veins as I glance around, praying that no one caught a glimpse of our heated exchange. A couple passes nearby, heading back inside, and I steal a sweet kiss from Koda's lips, my own smile a mixture of satisfaction and disbelief.
"That was intense," I murmur, my voice low.
Koda pulls me closer, wrapping his arms around me protectively. "You were incredible, Ember," he murmurs, warmth flooding his voice. "I can’t believe you managed that with an audience."
I blush deeply, snuggling into his embrace, a wave of satisfaction washing over me. "I guess I just got lost in the moment," I admit, feeling exhilarated and a bit mischievous.
For a while, we sit in comfortable silence, watching the city lights twinkle in the distance, our hearts still racing from what just transpired.
"Are you excited about the party at Mom and Dad's tomorrow night?" I ask.
"More excited that you’ll be there with me," he replies with a playful glint in his eyes. "I figured I’d drive you there. Who knows? We might have a little fun on the way." His brow wiggles in mischief, and I realize, more than ever, I never want to be without him.
"You know I’m always up for some fun, Koda."
"And I wouldn’t have it any other way," he whispers, pressing a tender kiss to my forehead. "I’m so lucky to have you."
I smile softly, closing my eyes, a sense of contentment settling over me like a warm blanket. Nestling my head against his chest, I let the gentle rhythm of his heartbeat lull me into a tranquil daze.