Anya
My legs felt like lead from a twelve-hour shift, my brain still spinning through notes, labs, and IV lines. Closer to thirteen hours, if you added the extra time with Desmond’s laceration.
I pushed the door open to the parking garage and found him leaning against his car, prosthetic leg propped just so, arms folded. “Hey,” I said, voice catching in the gravel of exhaustion.
He didn’t answer right away. Just watched me with that calm, unreadable stare that somehow made me feel every pulse in my chest. I stopped, half a step short of the car door.
“Drive you home?” he said finally, with a teasing edge.
Like we hadn’t been riding to and from work together for a month now.
I slid into the passenger seat, fumbling with my bag. The car smelled faintly of antiseptic and leather, and him. My hands were shaking slightly, though I couldn’t tell if it was fatigue or anticipation.
He started the engine, and we rolled into the quiet night, headlights painting the asphalt in long rectangles. I stared out the window, silent, waiting.
“I’m telling you first,” Desmond said, voice low and deliberate, the type of calm that made my chest tighten. “Because I didn’t last time. Because no one else should. You should hear this from me.”
I swallowed. “Okay,” I whispered. “Tell me.”
He exhaled slowly, keeping the car between us. “Frank crossed a line. He… implied things about you. About us.”
I froze. “Us?”
“Yes,” he said evenly. “Suggested your care was less about medicine and more… personal. He implied you were angling for attention and favors. Even suggested people would start talking if you kept spending time with me.”
I blinked. My pulse spiked, and for a second I felt that familiar ache — the one I used to get when someone talked down to me. But I saw his eyes — the fire just under that terrifying calm — and the ache softened into a knot of gratitude and fear.
“And I didn’t stay quiet,” he said. His voice was still low, measured, frightening in its precision. “I told him exactly what I thought. That you’re competent, professional, and not to be spoken about like that again. That the department doesn’t get to drag your name through the mud.”
“Thank you, Des.” The car felt smaller than usual, tighter, as if the space between us carried the weight of every glance, every whisper that might come. My hands rested in my lap, twisting the strap of my bag, and I realized I was holding my breath.
“So,” I said softly, breaking the quiet. “HR… are they going to ask questions? About us? About what we… look like?”
Desmond’s hands stayed on the wheel, calm, controlled, but the faintest crease appeared between his brows. He didn’t answer immediately, just let the words hang, as if he were weighing them.
“I mean,” I continued, voice shaking a little despite myself, “to everyone else… we’re just colleagues. But now… now I guess it’s obvious we’re not. And people talk.”
“We haven’t been ‘just colleagues’ for a while now, An.”
“I know that but everyone else—”
“I’m sure they’ve picked up on it, sweetheart.
We haven’t exactly been subtle.” He exhaled slowly, and somehow, with that sound, the tension in the car thickened.
“We just need to be ready. Not just for HR, but for them. Our colleagues. The gossip. People will make their assumptions, and we can’t control that. ”
My stomach twisted. “But… what does that look like? If we’re… honest… to them? If we’re together, but professional?”
He glanced at me, just a flicker. Eyes calm. Focused. Scary in their intensity. “It looks like… us. And nothing else. We act like colleagues. We respect the chain of command. We let them draw their conclusions. But no one gets to define what we are privately.”
I swallowed, heart racing. “Even if it’s obvious? Even if it makes some people uncomfortable?”
He nodded once. “Especially then. They’ll notice subtle things — the way I defend you, the way you move in the room. But that’s all they get. I won’t let anyone use our bond as a weapon. Not Frank. Not HR. Not anyone.”
I let the weight of his words sink in, the quiet fury in his voice threading through the car, threading through me. “I guess… we’re in this together,” I said softly.
“Exactly,” he said. His hand brushed mine on the center console. “We face it together. We define it together. And if anyone wants to challenge that? They’ll have to deal with both of us.”
The streetlights flickered across the dashboard, shadows sliding over his face. I could feel the tension in his jaw, the subtle rigidity of his shoulders. He’d already told me about Frank. He’d already told me about HR. And yet… I could feel there was more he wasn’t saying.
Finally, he exhaled, slow and contemplative. “I’ve been thinking,” he said, voice low, calm, dangerous in its steadiness. “If this… if HR decides to make a fuss, I can walk away. I could find another hospital. Another city, another shift. I have the experience. I have tenure. I could make it work.”
I froze. “Wait. You’d… quit?” My voice trembled a little, disbelief and awe tangled together.
“Yes,” he said evenly. Just stating a fact, like this was another normal Thursday morning. “I wouldn’t want anyone to drag you into this. Not Frank. Not HR. Not anyone. You deserve to be judged on your skill, your decisions, not… whatever twisted interpretation he’s willing to manufacture.”
The weight of his words hit me in a way I hadn’t expected. His calm, controlled fury had been terrifying enough in the department, but this… this was self-sacrifice. And it wasn’t performative. It was real.
I shook my head, fumbling for words. “Des… you can’t just… I can’t—”
“I know what you’re thinking,” he interrupted softly, fingers lacing fully through mine. “I’m not leaving because I want to. I’m saying it’s an option because I’d rather shoulder the fallout than let you take the brunt of it. Because I can. Because I have to.”
My throat tightened. I wanted to lean over and grab him, hug him until the fear and tension seeped out of both of us, but I also knew this moment demanded something quieter — recognition, acknowledgment. “You… you don’t have to,” I said softly. “I… I don’t want you to quit for me.”
His gaze softened, just a fraction, but the fire in his eyes didn’t waver.
“I know,” he said. “I’m telling you because you need to understand how serious this is.
How much I’ll protect you. Not just in the hospital, but outside it.
I can take the risk. I can absorb it. But I’m tired of pretending that you aren’t the best thing that’s ever happened to me.
I love you, Anya. And I need you to see that. ”
I nodded slowly, letting the gravity settle. “I… see it,” I whispered, fingers tightening around his. “And… thank you. For… all of it.”
He exhaled a quiet, measured breath. “Always. That’s what it means. Always.” He pulled my hand to his lips, pressing a gentle kiss against my skin.
The rest of the drive was silent, but it wasn’t empty. Every heartbeat, every quiet breath between us carried something heavier than words: trust, fear, and the kind of love that makes you willing to move mountains — or walk away from everything you’ve built — without hesitation.