Chapter 21 #2
Once the condom is on, I run lube down his thick length, sliding my fingers along the heat of his cock before trailing back up to the head.
He pushes my shirt up, making me realize that I still have it on, and tosses it.
And then once he’s satisfied, I wrap my legs around his hips and tug him toward me.
His cock rubs against mine as I pull him forward and draw him down for another kiss.
The head of his cock nudges against my hole, teasing me with it before I feel it settle against me. He presses just a little until I start to open up for him. He pushes past the tight muscle, making me moan.
“Fuck…”
“Am I going too fast?”
“No, it feels so good. I’ve never had anyone as big as you. It feels amazing.”
“Tell me if I’m going too fast.”
“You could definitely go faster,” I say because he seems to be far too careful, and my interest lies in him fucking me.
He sinks in deeper until he’s all the way inside me, and I moan when he rocks his hips.
Grayson’s hands slide down to my hips as he thrusts inside of me.
My body arches while he moves, filling me up and then withdrawing until he’s almost pulled free before plunging back in.
His hand grips my cock, stroking me and pushing blissful sensation through me.
My fingers dig into his back, and I feel like I’m melting in his arms. Heat is rising through me. His fingers are teasing and stroking me just right.
“Feels so good,” I whisper as he kisses my neck.
My cock aches for release, and every stroke of his hand and plunge of his cock draws me closer to it. How can something feel so fucking good? Is this what sex with someone I care deeply about is like? Someone who cares how I feel and isn’t just in it for themselves?
I can feel myself reaching my limit and know he’s not far behind.
His hips rock and his cock hits me just right as my balls draw up, and I moan while pleasure tears through my body.
I can feel myself tightening on his cock.
It makes it all that much more sensitive as I come.
My nails dig into his back, holding him tightly when he drives deep, coming inside of me.
Grayson goes to move, but I hold him for a moment, not yet wanting him to pull out. Instead, I gently urge him down for a kiss.
Only then do I permit him to withdraw.
He sits up to deal with the condom, and I pull myself up with him.
“Do you want a shower?” he asks.
“Yes, but not yet,” I say as I climb onto his lap, draping my arms around him while he kisses my neck. His hand grips my ass before his fingers dip down between my ass cheeks, rubbing over my sensitive hole.
“I feel like I’m… in a dream and I’m… going to wake up and…”
His arms tighten around me. “Even when you wake up, I’m going to be right here. I’m not going to leave you. I promise, okay? I’m here. I’m not going anywhere.”
I nod as my fingers tighten, digging into his back before I realize that maybe I’m hurting him, so I loosen my grip.
“I hate this place,” I admit. “Because when I’m here, the only company I have are my thoughts, and they are smothering.
I hate this place. I hate being alone. I hate that I have to have constant noise or I spiral. ”
“Felix told me you’re seeing a professional.”
“It does nothing.”
“You told me that I’m the first person you ever told what happened. How can they help you if you keep what hurts you so much hidden?”
I bury my head against his chest. “I don’t know.”
“You can’t carry this alone, Cal. You have wonderful friends who would do anything for you. And I hope you realize that you have me now. Carrying this does nothing but hurt you. I’m here. I’m not leaving. If you want me to move in today so you never have to be alone again, I’m here.”
“That’s so selfish and ridiculous of me.”
“My rental agreement is almost up. The landlord was like, ‘I’m kicking you out at the end of the month,’ so I have absolutely nowhere to go. I’ll probably have to live in those like… sketchy motels for a while.”
I pull back and raise an eyebrow. “Yeah?”
“I just… I wish I had somewhere to go.”
“Felix has a nice couch for you.”
“You going to be there?”
“Hmm…” I grin at the ridiculous man. “You… I mean, you really want to commit this much so soon?”
“So soon? In my eyes, it’s not soon enough. I’m only like… a year and a half behind. But if you think it’s too soon?—”
“No… I mean… I just… you know…”
“I don’t,” Grayson says.
“You do!”
“Hmm, nope. I love you.”
My face heats up as I tuck it against his neck and whisper, “I love you too… It’s been a long day. We should sleep, yeah? Sleep…”
He smiles as he pulls me in for a kiss. “Fuck, I love you so much.”
“Am I supposed to just say it again? I love you too.”
Grayson’s smile widens. “I really love you.”
“We going to do this all night?” I ask, positive my face is on fire. “I love you so much. Now let’s get some sleep.”
“Fine, fine. Let me clean you up first.”
“I suppose that could be a thing. We could take a quick shower or something like that,” I say as I hold my arms out to him. He pulls me up to my feet and hauls me off toward the bathroom where I immediately get lost in his touches again.