12. Chapter 12
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Chapter 12
Violet
I didn’t have to turn around to know that it was Sebastian. I could see the shadows lingering out of the corner of my eye.
“I was just leaving,” I said as I tried to walk around him without having to look at him.
“Violet, stop,” he said and grabbed my wrist. I froze at the realization of how close he was behind me. I had forgotten how cool his touch was, and it made the hair on the back of my neck stand.
I knew by the tone in his voice that he was serious. I stood there facing the door. I didn’t want to look into his eyes. I didn’t want any reason to forgive what happened yesterday. To get pulled back into the trance his dusty-blue eyes seemed to put me in.
“Turn around, please, ” Sebastian pleaded with a strain in his voice. Like he needed so badly for me to turn around.
I turned around but kept my eyes on the ground.
“You’re going to make this difficult, aren’t you?” he said, letting out a sigh.
“You were going to kill me,” I said quietly.
“You knew something that no one should know about me.” There was a bite to those words that had me turning around, trying to make my escape again.
But to no avail, he was in front of me again.
“Bronwen told you she told me,” I said as I focused on a small crack in the stone floor beneath my feet, which proved to be no use as the shadows crept into sight.
“Look me in my eyes and tell me that, love .”
A mix of butterflies from the choice of his words and the urge to vomit from the fact that he knew I was lying formed in my stomach. I couldn’t avoid him. I was trapped. In his library. In his castle. In his realm.
I looked up, meeting his enchanting gaze as I said, “I don’t know who or what is doing this to you. Is that enough?”
He studied me for a moment, but I never broke my stare. I wanted to make sure he knew I was telling the truth, but I also didn’t want to look away. His eyes were the most beautiful eyes I had ever seen.
“I wasn’t going to hurt you,” Sebastian said, breaking the daze I was in. His eyebrows had furrowed, and his eyes pleaded as if he was trying hard to make me believe him.
“Really? I’m pretty sure your shadows were waiting for your command to consume me,” I said.
“Consume you?” Sebastian looked at me, confused by my choice of word, before a smirk formed on his lips. “My shadows don’t eat people. You read too many Mountain Realm history books .”
I disregarded the “Mountain Realm history books” part of his response. I was too concerned with knowing. Knowing what the shadow king was. “Then what do they do?” I asked.
“They’re an extension of me. My sight. My ears. My touch.” As he said those last two words, I felt something rub from my shoulder to my neck. But Sebastian’s hands were in his pockets.
Dear gods. This is why I didn’t want to be around him again. This feeling. This bad-but-feels-so-good feeling.
“I-I need to go back to my room now,” I said as I pushed past him.
No matter the feeling Sebastian was giving me, my mind told me to stop talking to him. I couldn’t let it go any further.
I quickly made my way back to my room. I knew I shouldn’t have left my room in the first place but the thought of what I would find in the library was too intriguing. And what I ended up finding had made me feel a way a book never had.
I took a few turns down some halls before I realized I had no idea where I was again. I needed to pay more attention to where I was going.
“Fuck,” I mumbled quietly. I feared that if I stayed still too long that Sebastian would be back in front of me to play his little game again. That must be a part of his evilness: saying things to make others uncomfortable. Saying inappropriate things to me to watch me squirm.
An idea popped into my head. It probably wouldn’t work and would leave me feeling stupid, but I had no other choice than to try it.
“Yara?” I called.
A cool breeze rustled my hair, and I turned around to see the ghostly faerie standing behind me.
I couldn’t believe that worked.
“Can you take me back to my room?” I asked.
She nodded and started walking the opposite way I had been heading. I blindly followed her, not paying attention to the specific turns and steps she was taking because my mind was still in the library. Still imagining Sebastian and his shadows touching me.
I thanked her once we reached the familiar hall, and she disappeared before my eyes.
As I closed the door to my room and turned around to rest my back on the door, Calum was suddenly standing in front of me. I’m not sure why he was here in the middle of the day, but I didn’t care.
“Where—” Calum began to speak but stopped when I immediately pushed him on the bed.
I needed him. I needed a release of everything I was feeling.
“Violet, what—” He stopped mid-sentence when he saw my dress fall to the floor. I climbed on top of him and pulled his shirt off.
“Violet, I can’t stay long. I just needed to tell you something,” he said as his eyes looked down at my naked body.
“This won’t take long,” I said as I unbuttoned his pants.
He nodded and lay back to let me continue what I had started. I didn’t even attempt to take my panties off. Instead, I moved them to the side before grabbing and inserting his length in me. I didn’t even give myself a chance to adjust to his size before I rode him. Hard. All I could see in my head was Sebastian. I tried so hard to focus on Calum, as I didn’t want to see Sebastian, but it was like I had no control over my thoughts.
And with the picture of Sebastian in my head, and the thought of how one touch from his shadows could make me feel, it didn’t take long for me to finish.
I fell over in exhaustion after my release, and Calum flipped us over so he was on top of me. I watched as he pumped into release. My eyes were on him, but my mind was still somewhere else.
“What has gotten into you, Violet?” Calum said while putting his clothes back on.
Sebastian. Sebastian had gotten into my head. If I didn’t know any better, I would think he had broken through the walls in my mind and was controlling my thoughts. That seemed better than the truth.
“Just trying to make up for lost time,” I said as I reached down to pick up my dress off of the floor.
“Well, I came to tell you that I will be gone for a few days.”
“Again? Weren’t the two of you just on a trip together?” I asked as I pulled my dress over my shoulders.
“Nathara wants to visit possible honeymoon spots,” he said while fumbling with the button on his pants.
I just looked at him. I didn’t know what to say to that.
“Please be careful while I’m gone. It feels like I’m leaving you in hell with no one to protect you,” he said as he walked to me and grabbed my hands in his.
“I’ll be fine. I don’t think anyone here has intentions to hurt me.”
Someone seemed to have other intentions, but it was probably best that Calum didn’t know that.
“I don’t think you understand the evil that is here. Every fae you’ve been around has killed more than you can imagine. They have no rules. They have no morals. I don’t think they would hurt you because they don’t want to risk the engagement, but I wouldn’t do anything to provoke them.”
“What do you want me to do? Stay in my room until you return?” I asked. Honestly staying in my room might be best for everyone.
“No, I wouldn’t ask you to do that.” He brought my hands to his lips and gently kissed them. “Just be careful.”