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One of my mom’s secret talents is that she can anticipate things.
When I was little, she always knew when to pack an extra sandwich at school, what day I’d want to wear my green shirt, and one time, on a camping trip, she even managed to swing an impromptu visit from the tooth fairy.
In other words, it doesn’t really come as a huge shock to me that she’s invited Juliet’s family over for dinner on Sunday.
I know my mom is just trying to smooth things over, but dinner feels like a pretty intense way to start. Might as well invite Rob’s family over too! Except when I suggest that, she just looks at me sternly and asks me to continue setting the table.
I’m all for letting the past be the past, but this feels like a bit of a stretch.
I can’t believe they even agreed to come.
There’s no use explaining to my mom how painful this will be, spending a whole night with the girl who stole Rob right out of my arms. I try to fake a project with Charlie, but somehow all six of us wind up seated around our dining room table, serving ourselves pasta primavera.
Juliet’s mom brought roses, and my mom keeps commenting on how lovely they are. I think she’s said it four times in the last five minutes, but no one is saying much of anything else, and, well, it’s getting awkward.
“So, Juliet,” my father says, “how is school going?”
“Great,” Juliet chirps. “I mean, classes are good. I got the lead in the school play. And I have a boyfriend, you know. That takes up a lot of my time.” She looks at my father and smiles. We know. We ALL know.
Juliet’s mom’s eyes dart to her husband at the word “boyfriend,” and my mom glances at my father, then takes a big gulp of water.
It’s worth noting that my dad agreed to this gathering. Which is crazy, obviously, and probably speaks more to his love for my mother than his interest in any kind of reconciliation.
Juliet has said barely two words to me, which suits me just fine. I don’t have much to say to her, either—besides, you know, “Thanks for stealing my best friend.”
“Richard has been so busy with work,” Juliet’s mom says. “You’re never home, are you, darling?”
“Shocking,” my father says, and I can practically feel my mother kicking him underneath the table, even though I’m sitting two seats away.
“He’s been back and forth to DC almost constantly.”
I look at Juliet, really look at her. I think about the rumors at school, how she’s supposed to be crazy and suicidal. But she doesn’t look like either of those things. She just looks gorgeous, and smug.
“Eat, darling,” Juliet’s mom says to her. “You haven’t touched your pasta.” She looks at my mother and smiles like, You know, kids.
My mom is twirling her spaghetti, but she stops and winks at me. The wink seems to say, It’s okay, we’re family, and this night won’t last forever. It’s like Charlie’s hand squeeze. I’m here.
Juliet is sitting across from me, next to my mom, and I see her catch the wink. She narrows her eyes at me.
“So what’s keeping you so busy, Uncle Richard?” I ask.
“Humph,” he says. He’s gruffly shoveling the bread bowl into his mouth, until he chokes, sputters, sips water, and then does it all over again. “We’re in the midst of some—” He looks at his wife. “Bullshit.”
Juliet’s mother taps him on the shoulder. “Now is not the time,” she says.
“Why not? There are no secrets here.”
My aunt pinches the bridge of her nose with two fingers.
Juliet pushes her chair out and storms off toward the kitchen. Her mom tries to reach out and stop her, but Juliet shakes her off.
“She took it hard,” my aunt says. “I think especially with Rob and all.” She looks at my mom, explaining. “But we had to tell her. We didn’t want her to find out from the news. And people have been sniffing around. We think Richard is going to have to go public about the affair.”
My mom nods. My dad says nothing. I know he’s thinking, like I am, about the Montegs. About what this is going to mean for Rob’s family. For his little brothers.
“When?” my mom asks.
“A week, tops,” Uncle Richard says. “Probably not even that.”
My mom passes Juliet’s father more pasta. He takes it noisily. My dad has gotten up to pour himself a drink in the living room. He takes a bottle out from under our television cabinet—a stash I never knew we had.
Slowly I stand up and round the corner into the kitchen.
I expect to see Juliet fuming by the refrigerator, or stampeding past me, but instead, I find her melted in a corner, her head on her knees, crying quietly.
The sight of her like this, so small and so human, makes me stop in my tracks. Not before she sees me, though.
“What do you want?” she says, her tone bitter and tinged with anger.
“Are you okay?” I bend down to where she is and am surprised that she doesn’t flinch away.
“Why do you care?” she says through her hands.
“Honestly?” I say, sliding down next to her. “I don’t know.”
“For once, honesty in this family.”
It’s so ridiculous, it almost makes me laugh. “I mean, wouldn’t you?”
“Be sitting here on the floor with you?” Juliet says. “Definitely not.”
I have to ask her. I can feel the words bubbling up and out, and I know if I don’t say it now, I never will. “Why did you do it?”
She lifts her head up, and her eyes are red, her cheeks streaked with tears. “Come on, Rose. Isn’t it obvious?”
“No,” I say, “or I wouldn’t be asking.”
She puts her hands on her temples and presses.
“You always had what I wanted,” she says.
“This great, loving family. Parents who cared about you. And Rob was always your best friend.” She shakes her head, fresh tears somersaulting down her face.
“I wanted to take something from you. I wanted to get back at you.”
“For what?” I say. “I never did anything to you.”
“Yes, you did,” she says. “You never called me after I left, not once. You didn’t come and visit until two months had gone by.”
“I was seven,” I say. “I didn’t exactly drive.” Not that I do now, but whatever.
“Your mom would have taken you,” she says. “In a second if you had asked. You didn’t. You didn’t when you got older, either. You went along with everything. Being impartial doesn’t make you innocent, Rose.”
I sit back against the cabinet. It’s not even worth telling her how wrong she is. The past is so beside the point. “It didn’t have to be like this,” I say.
“It’s been like this for a really long time. We’re only here because my dad was getting into trouble in LA. Same thing.” She gestures to the dining room. “You don’t know what it’s like to have parents who barely even talk to each other.”
“You could have asked for my help,” I say. “When you guys got here. Instead of doing what you did.”
She scoffs. “And you would have given it?”
I take a deep breath and look at her, and for a moment I see the girl I used to know.
The one who used to crawl in bed with me during sleepovers and fall asleep with her head on my shoulder, and I’m sorry that I lost her, that I was stupid enough all these years to think she was gone. “I still would.”
She holds my gaze. “Don’t tell Rob.”
“He doesn’t know?”
“I didn’t tell him anything,” she says. And then, matter-of-factly: “And neither will you.”
“We don’t talk anymore,” I say. “In case you hadn’t noticed.”
“He cares about you,” she says.
I almost feel like laughing. “That doesn’t mean a lot, coming from you.”
“Just promise me you won’t tell him.” There’s something else in her voice now. Something a little desperate. “Promise me you won’t say anything.”
“I won’t,” I say, “but from what your parents were saying out there, he might find out soon enough anyway.”
She looks down at her hands, and I see that they’re shaking. “He still thinks he has the perfect family,” she says. “I don’t want to take that away from him.”
She looks up at me, and there are new tears in her eyes, but they aren’t bitter or angry. They’re filled with something else entirely. Something like love. And I think, for the first time in ten years, that we might be alike after all.