Chapter 6 #2
He wants me to trust gravity and steel. To let go and fly down this line into whatever's waiting for me at Station Two.
And I'm going to do it.
Not because I'm brave—I'm definitely not brave—but because he's watching. Because he's waiting for me. Because every single thing I do here is proof that I trust him.
And maybe he'll reward me for it.
Maybe he'll finally let me come.
I walk to the edge of the platform, the harness clips jangling with each step. The zip line stretches out through the canopy, disappearing into the jungle below. I can't see where it ends.
I grab the overhead cable with both hands, feeling the solid steel beneath my palms.
My heart pounds so hard I can hear it in my ears.
"Okay," I whisper. "Exceed his expectations."
Then I jump.
The world drops away and I'm flying.
Actually flying. Wind rushing past my naked body, my hair whipping behind me, the cable singing above my head as the pulley races down the line.
A bird explodes out of the canopy right in front of me and I scream, half terror and half laughter, because what the hell else can I do? My feet dangle beneath me, completely useless, and the harness digs into my thighs in a way that's almost sexual, the pressure right where my legs meet my body.
I crash through a spider web and feel the sticky threads catch across my face and chest. I'm laughing now, really laughing, wiping frantically at my skin because, Jesus Christ there better not be a spider on me, but I can't stop grinning like an idiot.
This is insane.
This is completely fucking insane and I'm doing it.
Me. Scarletta Desmond, who hasn't left her apartment for anything except groceries and eviction notices in two years. Who ate Lucky Charms for dinner standing at her kitchen counter because sitting at a table felt too much like admitting she was alone.
I tilt my head back and look up at the canopy rushing past above me. Sunlight filters through the leaves in scattered patches, dappled gold and green, the kind of light photographers chase and I've only ever seen in screensavers.
It's beautiful.
God, it's so beautiful I could cry.
A lizard skitters across a branch as I zoom past, its tail flicking in annoyance at being disturbed. More birds scatter, their squawks echoing through the trees like they're gossiping about the naked girl flying through their neighborhood.
I wonder if this is what freedom feels like.
Not the idea of freedom I write about in my stories where my heroines are free because they've surrendered to someone stronger.
But actual freedom. The kind where you're moving through space with nothing holding you back except physics and good engineering.
Except I'm not free, am I? I'm strapped into a harness, following instructions on a card, performing for cameras I can't see and a man who's probably watching every second of this.
And I don't care.
I actually don't care because this feels too good to ruin with overthinking.
The cable starts to angle differently and I realize I'm slowing down. The trees thin out slightly, opening into a clearing I can see approaching. My speed drops from exhilarating, to manageable, to gentle, and then I'm gliding the last few feet like I've done this a thousand times before.
My feet touch ground and I stumble slightly, catching myself with a hand on the cable above me.
Perfect landing.
I did it. I actually did it, and I didn't die, and it was incredible.
I'm breathing hard, my chest heaving, and I can feel the adrenaline coursing through my entire body. My hands shake as I start unclipping the harness, fumbling with the carabiners because my fingers won't cooperate.
Then I hear it.
Voices. Soft. Distant. Maybe twenty feet away?
I freeze with one leg still in the harness, listening.
"...stunning, isn't she?"
Male voice. Cultured accent, maybe British?
"Absolutely exquisite." Different voice, also male. American, deeper.
My heart stops beating for a full second.
People. There are people here. Watching me.
I yank my leg free from the harness and spin around, scanning the trees, but I can't see anyone. The jungle is too thick, too layered with ferns, and vines, and shadows.
But they're there.
They can see me and I can't see them, and they just called me stunning.
My pussy clenches so hard I gasp.
Oh God.
Oh God, this is actually happening. This is real. There are strangers watching me right now, looking at my naked body, and they think I'm exquisite.
Heat floods through me, starting low in my belly and spreading outward until my skin feels like it's burning. My nipples are so hard they ache and the wetness between my legs intensifies to the point where I can feel it starting to slide down my inner thighs.
I should be mortified. I should be covering myself, hiding, demanding to know who they are and what they're doing here.
Instead I'm standing here with my thighs pressed together, trying desperately not to touch myself because I'm so close to coming I might actually do it without any stimulation at all.
This is what I wrote about. All those stories where my heroines are displayed, examined, watched by men they can't see. Where their bodies are evaluated and discussed like they're objects on display.
I'm living it right now.
And it's so much more intense than I ever imagined it would be.
Another voice murmurs something I can't quite hear and someone laughs softly.
They're talking about me. Commenting on me. Probably noting every detail of my body, every imperfection I've spent years hiding under baggy clothes and blanket forts.
My breathing comes faster, shallower. My clit throbs with every heartbeat.
I need to move. I need to follow the instructions, do whatever comes next, or I'm going to stand here and come in front of these invisible strangers just from knowing they're watching.
The cross.
He said there'd be a cross at Station Two.
I force my legs to work and take a shaky step forward. Then another. My whole body feels hypersensitive, like every nerve ending is firing at once. The air moving across my skin feels obscene. The way my thighs brush together with each step sends sparks straight to my pussy.
And then I see it.
A large wooden cross mounted vertically in a cleared area about fifteen feet ahead. Dark wood, smooth and polished, with leather restraints attached at four points. Wrist height. Ankle height.
Spread wide upon the cross you'll wait, exposed for all to see.
Jesus Christ, he meant it literally.
A small white card rests on the ground at the base of the cross, propped against the wood.
I walk toward it on legs that barely support my weight, feeling eyes tracking my every movement. Wondering if they can see how wet I am. If they can tell from the way I'm walking that I'm desperate, aching, ready to break.
I pick up the card with shaking fingers.
Whatever it says, I'll do it.
All of it.
Every single thing.
Because I'm in.
I'm completely, irrevocably in, and there's no part of me that wants to be anywhere else.