14. Lyra
E li carried me over to his sedan, then sat my ass down on the closed trunk. He boxed me in with his body as he placed his hands on either side of my hips. It was hard to feel worried about what might happen when I was so distracted by Eli’s spicy and refined scent. I leaned in like a moth drawn to a flame until our lips met, but Eli pulled back before either of us got swept up in our lust for each other.
“I think we need to set some rules before we start this experiment,” Eli decided.
Not feeling all that interested in worrying about something so boring, I nodded as I fisted his shirt, trying to draw him to me.
“The first rule is, you can end this at any time for any reason, just tell me you’re done. Second, none of this is about me, I’m here to help you feel safe and confident. Third, nothing is off-limits. Whatever you need, I’ll find a way to make it happen,” Eli said, lifting a finger for each rule he was putting into place. “Is there anything else you want to add?”
Finally, the reality of what we were going to do settled into the forefront of my mind. Fawn had warned me the other day I could get drunk off our Alphas scents alone while unbonded. Once I had a mark from my Alpha, his scent wouldn’t affect me… as much. It was fascinating to find out just how vital bonding with our scent matches was for Omegas.
“Um,” I said, then took a deep breath, trying to ground myself and not let my instinct run the show. “It might help if I wasn’t the only one half-naked,” I mentioned, tugging at my shirt so it covered the tops of my thighs.
Eli smiled and, without a second thought, ripped open his shirt, scattering buttons everywhere, then yanked his undershirt off, leaving him bare-chested. My pussy clenched, seeing his muscles shifting as he lifted me off the trunk and set me on my feet. “Better?”
Unable to speak, I nodded as my hands fisted so I didn’t reach out and run my hand down his chest. The sound of the car chirping as it unlocked caused me to jump a little, but it reminded me why we were in the garage in the first place.
“Move at your own pace, petal,” Eli reminded me as he tucked some hair behind my ear.
I turned to face the car and felt better, knowing I wasn’t scared of the vehicle itself. Slowly, my hand reached out and clasped the door handle, feeling the cool metal in my grasp. With a firm tug, I pulled the door open and took a deep breath. All I could smell was Eli’s scent, which helped to settle my nerves. The light in the car had a soft, warm glow, which made the space feel intimate. Unsure how to move forward, knowing I didn’t want to simply sit in the car right away, I bent down and placed my hands on the back seat.
Memories flooded my mind as I felt the bodyguards grabbing my waist and shoving me into the front seat. I’d done everything I could to fight against being forced into that spot, but I wasn’t strong enough to fight off two men. The fear caused my heart to thunder in my chest, my skin to feel hot, and my vision to blur.
“Lyra, tell me five things you see,” Eli directed.
It was getting harder to breathe, but I did as he asked. “I see a blanket folded on the seat, a tissue box in the center console, garage door opener on the visor, knobs for the radio, and a disposable coffee cup.”
“Good girl,” Eli purred as a hand rested on my lower back right before the swell of my ass. “Now four things you can feel.”
“My hands are resting on the smooth leather, the air in the garage is cool, my hair is brushing my cheek, and my fe?—”
Whatever I was about to say was forgotten as I gasped at the feel of Eli’s fingers as they slid into my pussy. “Holy shit, ” I cursed as my nails dug into the leather.
Eli’s fingers didn’t move, as if he was waiting to see what I would do next. All the panic I’d felt had dissipated, which I’m sure was his whole intent. Since I was already halfway into the car, I decided to try to simply lie down in the backseat. This wasn’t something I’d done, and it might help to prevent triggering myself further. Gingerly, I placed a knee on the seat and let my hands slide across the shiny black leather.
As my hands stretched above my head, I could feel my shirt rise higher. Not that it mattered at this point, but it kept my mind from fixating on being in the car. In a pose I would consider close to downward dog, I was faced with the choice to continue forward, ending up on my stomach, or roll over onto my back.
“Eli,” I said as I looked over my shoulder. “I’m going to lay on my back.”
Understanding, Eli removed his fingers only to place them right in his mouth and sucked them clean with a hum. Free to move forward with my plan, I wriggled until I was on my back with my head resting on the blanket. The shirt I still had on was doing nothing for me, so I decided it was better to take the damn thing off, as well as my bra. No one who hadn’t already seen me naked would be around, so why bother feeling shy?
A strangled noise came from Eli, drawing my attention. The sight of him shirtless with his hands gripping the roof of the car as he watched me with such hunger sent a ripple of excitement over my skin. Before I realized what I was doing, I’d dropped one leg to the floor of the car, exposing my pussy to him.
“Petal,” Eli said with a warning in his tone. “I’m doing everything in my power to be on my best behavior.”
In a daring move, I grasped my breasts, bit my lip, and moaned as I tugged on my nipples. “What if I don’t want you to behave? You’re the one who suggested how helpful making new memories might be.”
“I did say that. However, this wasn’t quite what I had pictured,” Eli pointed out.
Every cell in my body hummed with need for my broody Alpha. I wasn’t sure I’d be able to make it much longer without him crawling up my body and shoving his knot deep inside me.
“ Please, Alpha,” I begged as I slid my hand down my stomach until my fingers reached my pussy. “I need you to knot my needy pussy.”
With a snarl, Eli yanked his pants open and kicked them off before practically diving into the back of the car. I cried out as his mouth latched onto one of my nipples and sucked it sharply, causing my back to bow. There wasn’t much room in the back seat, but I didn’t care since it forced our bodies to be pressed together, never knowing where one began or ended.
Eli was gentle, yet he had this feral edge in the way he feasted on my body. It was then I realized it had been some time since we’d been intimate. Sure, he’d been able to fuck Fawn whenever his need became too great, but it didn’t help the tension which had been building between the two of us. In a strange way, Eli was starved, and the only thing that would help was to let him take his fill of me.
Our mouths met, only for him to swallow my scream of pleasure as he thrust into me. Instantly, I wrapped my arms around Eli as I tried to keep my head from hitting the door as he slammed his cock deep into my pussy. It wasn’t enough to combat the snap of his hips, so I stretched my arms above my head to brace against the door. Eli paused mid-thrust as he realized what I was trying to do. He growled with a displeased expression before curling his body around mine and bringing us both into a seated position. Now we were face to face with my legs straddling his.
Eli’s hands cupped my face so I couldn’t look anywhere but into his icy blue eyes. “Is this okay?”
“Yes,” I answered in a breathy voice.
The desperation I had to be even closer to my Alpha had my hips rocking, urging Eli to resume fucking me. “Please, Alpha, whatever you do, don’t stop until I’m screaming from your knot.”
“Anything for you, my precious petal,” Eli whispered as his arms wrapped around my waist, and our lips crashed together.
At this angle, Eli’s cock stroked over the perfect spot to have me moaning his name as I tossed my head back. The trust I had in Eli as my Alpha allowed me to let my body go slack, offering my breasts up for him to do with as he pleased. In this relaxed state, I felt his cock drive deeper into my core, bumping against the end of the road. Each time it happened, there was a beautiful blend of pain and pleasure which had my nipples hard enough to cut glass.
“God, Lyra, you feel so good on my cock,” Eli praised. “Just look how deep you’re taking your Alpha.”
His praise had my heart soaring as I came, my whole body tensing to the point I caused Eli to grunt as I gripped his cock. “Holy fuck.”
Eli pulled me close and buried his face in my neck. In a teasing fashion, his lips and tongue worked their way up until he reached my ear. “Is my Omega trying to milk my cock? Are you that desperate for my knot?”
“Yes, Alpha,” I answered, my nails digging into his back. “It’s not enough, I need more. No, I want everything.”
With a roar, Eli placed one hand on my hip and the other on my shoulder, locking me in place as he pounded into me. All I could do was hang on for dear life as I spoke gibberish, begging for something I couldn’t put into words but knew I had to have. When another orgasm barreled into me, I acted on instinct and bit down hard on Eli’s shoulder. A sensation unlike anything I’d experienced before seemed to implode within my brain. Just as I thought the feeling was beginning to ease a second implosion rocketed through my body from just under my ear.
Unable to do anything more than figure out how to take my next breath, I melted against Eli. His chest rumbled as he purred, but when his tongue ran over some tender skin under my ear, I screamed in ecstasy. Trembling, I clung to Eli, but shifting only caused us both to hiss as Eli’s knot stroked over a sensitive spot causing my pussy to squeeze even tighter.
After a moment, I felt as if someone had placed the world’s softest blanket around me. Wrapped up in this feeling, I knew I’d never feel more protected, loved, or precious. As long as I remained in Eli’s arms, nothing in this world or any other would dare to cause me harm. I felt like a flower that had been forgotten in the corner without water or sunlight had been discovered and brought into a room flooded with light.
For so long, I’d been searching for this feeling, but I never had the words to describe what it felt like. Now I knew why— only a bond with my scent matched Alphas could fill this void I’d had in my soul. Tears rolled down my face, but I didn’t bother to wipe them away, I knew Eli understood they were tears of joy mixed with tears of regret. It would take time to learn to forgive myself for running from the one thing I needed most—a pack. How I wished my mother had the chance to tell me how powerful this bond was before she’d lost my fathers. Maybe, just maybe, then I wouldn’t have run for so long.
“Lyra,” Eli murmured before he hugged me tight and pressed a kiss to my temple. “Is this what the pain you’ve been carrying around all these years feels like?”
I didn’t want to answer him and face the pity I might find now he’d discovered the truth. Instead, I tucked my head under his chin and curled up the best I could while still knotted. Eli nuzzled his nose into my hair and purred again as he draped the blanket around us. His large hand stroked my back, and I realized he’d sensed my trepidation and shame without me having to say a damn word.
“There is nothing that can change the fact you are mine forever, Lyra,” Eli said, his voice soft and void of judgment. “You fear now that you can’t hide your true feelings, I’ll be ashamed of you. Nothing could be further from the truth, my petal. All I see is a warrior, a woman who refused to give up on life even though the pain you carried would crush so many others. How could any Alpha who’d seen the truth of what you survived view you as weak or pitiful?”
Stunned, I lifted my head and met Eli’s gaze. “You think I’m a warrior?”
Eli rested his forehead against mine and took a deep breath before speaking. “Oh, my perfect petal, you are a fucking gladiator, and even more importantly… you’re mine.”
Now officially bonded and no longer caring about my issues with the car, Eli carried me to his room, where he spent most of the night testing out how sensitive my mark truly was. Then, at some point, Fawn joined us and wrapped himself around me as I was snuggled against Eli. Having them both so close, I could see how my bond with Fawn was slightly different, but both were a warm, comforting presence I now carried with me.