Chapter Six #3
My phone rings and I jolt, expecting to be told Nicholas surrenders and is never coming back, but it’s Mrs. Howard.
I steel myself before answering. I love Mrs. Howard, but she has the voice of two bricks grating against each other from fifty years of chain-smoking Virginia Slims.
“Hi, this is Naomi.”
I say that specifically because she always asks—and then she still does, anyway: “Is this Naomi?”
“Yes.”
“Hon, this is Goldie Howard.”
I smile. “Hello. How are you?”
“Dear, I’m great. Actually, not so great. You got a minute?”
My heart sinks into my stomach. Last hired, first fired. It’s curtains for me. “Uhh, yes. Just, uhh . . .” I reach for a notepad and pen for some reason. My brain buzzes. Paranoia, anxiety, and nausea pull me into their familiar huddle and squeeze. “Yeah, what’s up?”
She launches right in. “I’m sure you know that business at the Junk Yard isn’t what it was twenty years ago.”
“It’s . . . not that bad,” I squeak.
“Hon, it’s that bad. Melvin and I have been going over the books, and it looks like we’ve got no choice but to clean house.”
I can’t cry. Mrs. Howard has been so good to me, and I won’t make her feel any guiltier for doing what she has to do. “You’re letting me go.”
“I’m letting everybody go. We’ll move some stuff around, relocating what’s left on the shelves to our other businesses, but we’ll be closed down by mid-November. I’d sell the Junk Yard the way it is to a new owner, but Morris real estate is in a slump.”
She’s right. After she closes the store, it’ll probably sit there empty for ages before some optimistic sucker turns it into a bakery that won’t last six months. All of our small businesses are closing and Morris will be a ghost town in ten years.
“We’re trying to see what else we can do for you kids,” Mrs. Howard says kindly.
“We’ve always got a few different irons in the fire.
I do burlesque, Melvin’s an ordained minister.
We go to a bunch of Midwestern fairs in the summer and do the carnie thing.
And then there’s Eaten Alive and House of Screams.” She clears her throat, making me think of brick dust drifting loosely down a chimney.
“I know Tenmouth is out of the way for that boyfriend of yours, but if you want to move here, we’ll line something up for you. ”
I envision myself with a mask and chainsaw, jumping out at patrons in a haunted house. Or with a mask and chainsaw at Eaten Alive, gutting gelatin desserts inspired by The Blob. I think about my decision not to get a college degree and Nicholas telling me I don’t need to work.
This is what my life has come to.
“Thanks, Mrs. Howard. That’s a really generous offer.”
“Think about it, okay? You don’t have to let me know yet. Take your time, talk to your boyfriend. If you decide no but you eventually change your mind, give me a call. I think Melissa’s interested in being a line cook at Eaten Alive, so there’ll be somebody there you know.”
The diner option dissolves before my eyes. House of Screams it is.
“I’m so sorry,” she says. Her voice is even thicker than usual, and I think she might be crying.
“We did everything we could. It’s hard out there.
There aren’t many steady, decent-paying jobs available, and I know we couldn’t offer you kids any benefits or overtime, but at least there was something.
You should’ve seen us twenty years ago. Full parking lot, every day. ”
I try to picture that, and I can’t. I’ve never seen the second row of parking spaces occupied. The four or five employee vehicles taking up room lends the illusion that we’re semibusy.
“It’s all right, I understand,” I rush to say. “I’m grateful you hired me in the first place. I’ve had a lot of fun there.” Nostalgia sweeps over me and my voice crumbles like Mrs. Howard’s. “Thanks for the notice.”
“Take care, hon.”
We disconnect the call, and I have no idea what I’m going to do now.
I’ve got one, maybe two paychecks coming that will need to be stretched out to invisible fibers.
I know what I would do if there were no Nicholas in this scenario: I’d start packing for Tenmouth and dedicate myself to a career of fake gore and screaming soundtracks, strobe lights in the darkness.
Mopping up vomit and scrubbing graffiti.
It’s a depressing prospect, but I can’t afford to be picky.
Even if I manage to get Nicholas to dump me and I end up with the house, I’ll have no way of paying rent. I desperately need to find a job close to Morris. I’ll get a roommate. Two roommates—we’ll become best friends and everything will be fine, just fine. That’s my plan A.
Uprooting to Tenmouth is plan B. Plan C is impossible with the noxious state of my relationship with Nicholas, so I don’t even consider it. I throw it out. Plan C is identity theft. I’ll enjoy a few relaxing weeks as Deborah Rose in my Malibu beach house before the feds track me down.
I’m still fretting over my quarter-life crisis when Nicholas barges in, big smile on his face. If I didn’t hate him already, that smile would be enough to seal the deal.
“Hello, Naomi,” he says gloatingly. Maybe he’s already heard about the Junk Yard.
I turn away. He walks to the fridge and opens it, whistling.
I think about shoving him inside. He closes the fridge without pulling anything from it and stares in my direction; I know this because I can see him in my periphery, a smudge of browns and tan.
He waits until I look at him, then starts laughing.
“What,” I snap.
My attitude thrills him. He angles a smirk at me, and it’s insufferable. He knows something I don’t. I know something he doesn’t, too. I’ve put a squirt of Sriracha in his shaving cream.
“What,” I repeat, this time in a growl. He laughs louder, bracing a hand on the door frame like I’m so funny, he can barely hold himself up. This man is a lunatic. How did I wind up here?
The thought is so loud in my head, it ends up coming out of my mouth. Nicholas takes a moment to consider it thoughtfully. “If memory serves, I asked a question and you said yes.”
And thus began my tale of woe. At least memory only serves one of us—thankfully, mine has been inked out with amnesia.
“How’d we even meet?” I marvel.
He wipes one eye with a knuckle, grinning crookedly. “I picked you up at a farmers’ market. From the top of the pile you looked nice. Wasn’t until I brought you home that I found out you were completely rotten on the inside.”
My mouth is shaped like a kiss, which sends the wrong message. I arrange it into a frown and say, “I’m telling your mother you say the F word. She’ll make you go to church.”
He throws his head back and laughs some more.
“Where were you all day?”
He winks. “Miss me?”
“Not even.” My glance slides to the window, where I notice a Jeep Grand Cherokee parked in his spot. “The neighbors’ visitors blocked you out again. Too bad.” I don’t see his car, so he must be parked way down the street. Poor Dr. Rose had to walk in the rain.
He steps into my personal space to check outside. His hair is a little bit damp and smells fruity, like my conditioner. I’m going to start hiding my toiletries.
“Nope,” he says.
“Huh?”
He tucks a finger under my chin and lifts so that my mouth closes. “So beautiful,” he murmurs, eyes glittering. They’re the color of morning frost, and they’re having a laugh at my expense.
My heart starts thumping erratically from the way he’s looking at me.
I’ve been tuning out my attraction to him and suddenly it comes pounding back with a vengeance, until all I notice is the adorable curl of his hair, the sensual curve of his smile, the delicious notes of his cologne.
He’s gorgeous and I hate him for spoiling it with his personality.
He follows up with, “Just as beautiful as the moment we first saw each other from across the room. On visitor’s day, at the prison.”
I swallow. “I’ll be headed back to prison soon, I’m sure.”
“I hear they offer classes. You could finally learn what the word regardless means.”
“It’ll be worth it, sleeping in the same room that holds my toilet, knowing you’re not around to ruin anyone’s life. Regardless.” I pause. I want to let this go, but I can’t. “Tell me where you were all day.”
“Take a guess.”
“Cheating, I hope. Make sure you leave evidence for me to find.”
His smile bends. Dries that way. I pick up a stack of junk mail and flip through Super Saver coupons, hmm-ing approvingly over discount items. My favorite soap is two for one this week. Frozen pizzas are five for ten dollars. Nicholas is going to strangle me with his Toothless tie.
“What are you making for dinner?” he asks. Not What are we having. It’s What are you making. The laugh is gone from his voice.
I don’t glance up. “It’s in the oven.”
I hear him pivot. There’s no timer on. No red light. He pulls down the oven door and it’s just as he suspected. “There’s nothing in here.”
I allow myself a tiny smile. I deserve it, after the day I’ve had. Not knowing what my fiancé is up to. Being let go from the best job I’ve ever had. The dreadful bangs that don’t look anything like Amélie’s. “That’s what I made. A whole feast of nothing, just for you.”
He grumbles all the way into his study. The lock clicks. Thirty minutes later, he emerges and stands at the front door.
“What are you doing?”
Nicholas casts me a disdainful look, like I’ve just asked the nosiest question. I hear a car door shut and seconds later, he’s got a box of pizza in his hands. Pizza for one. Well played, Nick.
He kicks the door shut and goes back to the study. I hurry to hide all the paper plates, hoping to inconvenience him, but he doesn’t care. He takes one of the good plates down from the cabinet and smiles at me as he rolls up a slice of pizza and eats half in one bite.
When he’s finished, he leaves his unused plate in the sink for me to wash.