Chapter 3
Tabby
As I am driving home, I feel the sting of my weekly guilt and remorse about fucking other men behind Jack’s back. But what else can I do? I am almost certain that if I brought up Hotwifing to Jack, he would have a fit and forbid me to do that.
Maybe Jewel has the right idea. Maybe I can interest him in swinging. If he is getting laid by other women on a regular basis, maybe he would turn his head when I go to fuck other men on my own. After that, it would be just one more step forward to have an open marriage.
I told Jack I was staying with Andrew and Jewel tonight.
But nothing could be further from the truth.
Although she is my best friend, she does not trust me around her husband.
As it turns out that her distrust is well founded.
She knows that Andrew films online porno every Tuesday night.
She has no clue that most of that is with me.
Jewel is not a Hotwife. She goes along with the swinger lifestyle just because she gets to fuck some younger studs on a regular basis. But I am pretty sure she would hit the roof if she found that I am fucking Andrew every Tuesday night.
Jack knew that I had been a party girl in college. A very popular party girl. I was widely known to take on all comers. I did many frat parties where I took on the whole frat house occupants.
When Jack asked me to marry him, not only did I say yes, I also said I would give up my partying ways for him. I truly meant it. Holding true was a bitch.
I stayed true for four years although I sometimes went to the local adult arcade and gave out blow jobs through the glory holes.
Okay, so there a few times I bent over and let the man in the next booth fuck me through the glory hole. But that was not cheating in my mind. That was just a little play time that made me horny for Jack when I got home. There was no harm in that.
It was Andrew’s idea that I become a Hotwife. When I pointed out that Jack would never go for that, he said it could just be our secret. When I asked what Jewel would think about it, he repeated that it would be our secret.
I should have seen immediately that he had an agenda. I was at a swinger party at his house that night. He led me up to the master bedroom and fucked me senseless that night. Afterward, he told me that it would be better that I didn’t say anything to Jewel about it.
Now, 40 weeks later, it has come to my attention that he is the only one I have fucked every week. Some of the fellas I have done 5 or 6 times. But I have had sex with Andrew all 40 weeks.
Sometimes he fucks me like a cheap whore he picked up on a street corner. Other times, he makes love to me like a lover would. There are times now that he blurts out how in love with me he is.
I think it’s time to pull the plug on this Hotwife thing with Andrew. He acts like I’m his wife and that he gets off on seeing me fucked by others. Afterward, it feels like he is reclaiming me when he fucks me.
It is definitely time that I sit down with Jack and bring up swinging. I’ll need to reassure him of how deeply I love him. That there is no one I could ever love the way I do him. That he is the one I want to grow old with.
Then I will discuss with him the deep desire I have to be wanted by other men. To have sex with them but always come home to him. I will point out that he will be able to have sex with other women just like I do with the men.
Yeah, I really need to sit down with Jack. I really do love him and I really do want to grow old with him. This way, we could have lots of hot memories to think of when we are old and gray. Yeah, that’s how I’ll approach this.