Chapter 34
His hands on my hips tightened, and I leaned back, making enough room to reach between us and cup Shade’s large erection through his pants.
I squeezed, drawing a strangled groan from his lips as he thrust into my hand.
He placed open-mouthed kisses on my neck, emboldening me, and I rubbed my hand along his length, squeezing again.
It wasn’t enough. I wanted to feel his skin. I was dying to touch him. Taste him.
“Shade. Please,” I begged on a whimper.
Hunger-filled eyes searched mine, and I knew he was checking for doubt. He wouldn’t find any. It was him—Shade—everything else was background noise. “We’re still going slow. Do you want to touch me?”
I nodded eagerly, quietly pleading with him. I hadn’t touched him yet, and I craved to feel the velvety smoothness of his skin. To take the next step, even if it wasn’t full sex. Not yet. He shook his head, not satisfied with my response. He wouldn’t be until I said it aloud.
“I need to hear your words, Solis.” His voice was husky and strained, as if holding on by a thread.
“I want to touch you. I need to. Please.”
The low growl he released sent the best kind of shiver through me. He turned us, laying me onto the smooth sheets, then hovered above me with his large body. Just touching.
My breathing increased at the position. He hadn’t done this before. Smoke twirled and shimmered along his skin, his floral and woodsy scent invading my next breath and calming my heart.
“Are you okay?” The question rumbled from his chest, and I stared at the concern reflected at me in his gaze.
“Yes.”
He sat back on his feet, giving me space, and the flickering lamp casted a shadow over his face. I whimpered at the loss of him, but before I could assure him again, he asked the questions that had become routine every time we were together, as we worked through my triggers. “Nipples?”
“Yes.”
“Fingers?”
“Gods, yes!” He raised a brow at my exclamation. It was a recent development that fingers no longer triggered me, and after so long without him, I needed it all.
“Take it off.” He only used that commanding tone when we were like this.
Alone.
As he did incredible things to my body.
I was impatient before, but now I moved slowly, inching the nightdress down and exposing my skin. Molten silver followed each movement, eyes darkening as more of my body was revealed, and when I finally threw the clothes to the floor, they were practically feral with need.
With obsession.
It was intoxicating, filling me with brazen courage.
“Now you,” I said, my voice surprisingly demure, something only he could pull from me.
Shade gripped his shirt and whipped it over his head in one clean sweep. Then his chest was bare, dark swirls and shapes curling along every inch of his torso and contrasting against pale skin free from the scars.
Underneath, his muscles rippled, bunching with each movement in a way that had me salivating. He moved closer, his pants still on, and I let out a small whine of protest.
I wanted all of him. I wanted to see what he had kept from me before now.
Shade chuckled. “Patience, my Solis, I intend to take my time with you.”
He towered over me, and at his instruction, I lay back against the smooth sheets. He followed me down, intense silver staring at me with pure hunger. “Are you sure?”
“Yes,” I breathed. Then his mouth was on mine. Gentle at first, licking the seam of my lips. When I opened for him, he devoured me with devastating obsession. His tongue teased mine until I was breathless and wanton. I whined into his mouth.
More.
He traveled down my neck, placing open-mouthed kisses along my skin until he reached my exposed breasts. He lapped at my peaked nipples, then took one into his mouth and sucked gently. I clenched my thighs and let out a low moan.
He repeated the process on my other breast, not stopping until I was writhing beneath him. Only then did he move farther south, kissing as he made his way to my aching pussy, then he blew softly against the wetness there.
“Shade,” I whimpered, tangling my hands in his hair. I tried to position his mouth to where I needed him most, but he was immoveable as he blew again.
He tsked lightly before licking me once, tongue dragging from slit to clit in a single tantalizing touch. I bucked my hips, seeking the warmth of his mouth. He smirked up at me, those silver orbs burning with hunger. “The way you taste, Adelia. I could eat you for every meal and never grow bored.”
“Please,” I begged, almost hysterical now. He couldn’t say those things and not give me what I needed.
“Shh, be quiet for me, my Solis, we don’t want any visitors,” he growled against my skin, and then he dove.
Finally.
He consumed me with his mouth, tongue swirling and licking, and I could do nothing but hold on for dear life. My legs clamped around him until I was sure he would suffocate, but he didn’t let up.
Then a finger joined the torment on my throbbing pussy, entering me in an instant firm rhythm, and I cried out in pleasure despite his order to be silent.
He watched me come undone at his touch, his eyes swirling with devotion. Then his movements quickened and a second finger joined the first.
I bit my hand to stop myself from crying out again; we couldn’t let anyone find us like this—with him destroying me until I couldn’t take it anymore.
Heat built. My pussy throbbed. My body curled tighter.
“Give it to me.” His growled words vibrated my clit, sending me over the edge. Waves of pleasure consumed me as I detonated under his touch, clenching around his fingers, and my legs clamped his ears.
He licked me gently until I came down, not letting up until I tugged on his hair. I needed to feel him, to touch him, give him the same indescribable pleasure he’d given me countless times before.
He crawled up my body. His mouth, wet with my release, trailing along my skin until he hovered over me.
I ran my hands across his chest and down his stomach, muscles bunching under my touch. “Please Shade, I want to touch you.”
He kissed me again, invading my mouth, and the taste of my arousal on his tongue was decidedly erotic. Despite my orgasm, the dominating kiss only excited me further, and I ground my hips against his still-clothed erection.
He kissed me until I was breathless once more, only pulling away when I was panting with need. Then, taking a page out of my book, Shade slowly unlaced his pants. He pushed them down until his cock finally sprang free, giving me a look at it for the first time.
He was long and thick, tip already glistening with arousal.
I gulped at the mere sight, and his patterned fingers stroked his length.
I reached for him, and he removed his hand, then covered mine as I gripped him.
Hard and velvety smooth. I stroked him, and he sucked in a sharp breath, guiding me up and down.
Once I was confident in my movements, Shade released me, leaning back and watching my hand take him.
“You’re doing so well, my Solis.”
His praise emboldened me, and I licked my lips. My body was on fire, pleasing him sent a pulse of desire so strong my skin shivered in pleasure.
I wanted more.
Acting on impulse, I dove forward and took him into my hot mouth. A surprised groan left his throat, and his fingers tangled in my hair, not tight or rough, just there.
“Adelia, you don’t—” His strangled words cut off when I hollowed my cheeks and sucked. There were a few things the ladies from the brothel had taught me, and despite never using their methods before, I remembered what they’d said.
Gripping the base with one hand, I took him as deep as I could, my eyes watering. I wanted to go deeper, to take his entire length, but I’d need to work my way up to it. This was only the first time of many.
I moved my mouth and hand in tandem, slowly at first and getting a feel for him, then I quickened the pace.
“That feels … Gods, Adelia.” My name was a prayer on his lips, feeding my own desire.
“Look at me.” His voice was soft and low, and I was a slave to his commands, unable to resist meeting his silvery depths.
They were dark with lust, with obsession, with …
love. My hand found his balls, tugging them gently, and he tensed beneath me.
“Fuck. I’m—”
I took him deeper, and spurts of hot cum flooded my mouth. I swallowed it down, not releasing him until I was sure I’d taken every drop. The moment I did, Shade pulled me close, his mouth invading mine with just as much heat as before. More.
It took no time at all for him to lower me back to the bed, then his face was between my thighs and his tongue was on my pussy. Urgent. Insistent.
A man possessed.
I relished it.
Already worked up, it took no time at all to find my second release, his fingers drawing it from me when they hooked at that sweet spot deep inside. Soft kisses trailed back up my body, my muscles still quivering from the intense pleasure he’d elicited.
Shade hovered over me, his expression one of awe and the same indescribable fascination that filled me at every moment in his presence.
“Are you okay? I sort of lost control there.” His voice was husky and thick with emotion.
A satisfied smile spread across my face at the burst of warmth spreading through my chest. He had given me everything I wanted, everything I craved. “More than okay.”
His answering grin was everything and more. He placed a brief but tender kiss on my lips again.
“I’ve never wanted anything as much as I want you, Adelia. My Solis. I don’t think I’ll ever get enough.”
Then he kissed me properly, languidly moving his lips over mine.
Soft but somehow still as dominating as ever.
Once he’d had his fill, he leaned back to stare at me again.
The way he did, memorizing every inch of my face, sent the warmth bubbling over, my heart pumping as if it would beat right out of my chest. For him.
I already knew I could never live without him, but in that moment, I realized if forced to choose between my responsibilities to my sister or keeping him, I didn’t know what I would do.
After a few seconds of silence, he got to his feet, then returned to me with a warm washcloth in hand. He gently cleaned me up, then helped me back into my nightdress.
“What happens now?” I asked when he joined me back on the bed, tucking me under his chin and placing a small kiss on my head. His arm was a solid and secure weight over my stomach, wrapping me in his protection. “I don’t want to lose this.”
I heard the insecurity in my own voice. The fear.
“We won’t. We’ll get away from Terym, and I’ll protect you. You and Eleanor.”
“Promise?” I don’t know what made me say it. This wasn’t something he could guarantee. No one could. The future was an unknown. We were surrounded by enemies and obligations, but I didn’t want this feeling in my chest to ever end.
Shade didn’t answer and that warmth turned into a sinking deep in my gut. Moisture filled my eyes before he spoke again.
“I’ll do whatever it takes, my Solis, to keep you forever.”