Chapter Eleven #3
“Well,” Alastir drew out the word as he picked up a fork. “That is something that can be easily fixed upon returning. Our Queen has just what you need in safekeeping.”
His mother had a diamond ring? For Casteel? For when he married? My spine couldn’t be more rigid. Why had I brought up the stupid jewelry? I didn’t even care about it since I…well, I’d never been allowed to wear any beyond the golden chains of the veil.
“Casteel hasn’t exactly been forthcoming with information on how you two met.
” Alastir bit into his sausage, not taking the time to slice and dice it as Kieran had.
“I wanted to ask when we last spoke. How did you end up in the incorrigible hands of our Prince, Penellaphe? I imagined someone of your…status would’ve been hard to reach, especially by someone like him. ”
Casteel let out a low laugh. “You should have more faith in my abilities to achieve what I want.”
I tensed, feeling like those words were meant more for me than Alastir.
“Be that as it may,” Alastir said with a wry grin, “how did he find a way to you?”
Wondering how honest I was expected to be and precisely what kind of rumors he’d heard, I decided to be as truthful as possible. In the past, I’d learned that most lies were successful when the little information given was the truth. “He became my guard.”
“Well, that’s not how we met initially.” Casteel’s hand that rested on the curve of my hip moved, causing me to nearly jump out of my skin. “It was actually at a brothel.”
Someone at the table sounded as if they choked on their food. I was betting it was Emil.
A fair brow rose as Alastir chewed slowly. “That was…unexpected.”
“The Red Pearl isn’t just a brothel,” I corrected, turning a narrow-eyed glare on Casteel.
He grinned. “It’s not?”
“Card games are played there.”
“That wasn’t the only games being played there, Princess.” His thumb moved along the inside of my hip, causing my stomach to whoosh. “Penellaphe had a habit of sneaking out and exploring the city at night.”
I nibbled on the inside of my lip as I tore my gaze from Casteel. Had he known how often I did that? He had said that he’d been watching me for longer than I realized.
“What I know of the Maiden—and, yes, Casteel, I know she’s no longer the Maiden, but that was what she was,” he added before Casteel could correct him.
“The Ascensions of the others were tied to yours, weren’t they?
And again, I am sorry that you were raised in such a web of lies told by the Ascended. ”
Several at the table cursed at the mention of the Ascended.
“Thank you. And yes, you’re right.” I frowned slightly. “Or they were. I don’t know if their Ascensions will be carried out now.”
“Hopefully, they won’t,” Delano remarked.
“I agree,” I said quietly, thinking of Ian.
“Do you?” Alastir asked. “Truly?”
“I do,” I admitted. “I didn’t know who or what the Ascended really were. I, like most people within the Kingdom of Solis, only knew what I was shown.”
“Then I expect many are blind to what is right in front of them,” someone commented, a younger man with rich brown hair toward the end of the table.
“Many live in fear of being ripped apart by the Craven or displeasing the Ascended and angering the gods,” I replied.
Casteel’s arm tightened around my waist, his hand squeezing my hip gently.
Was that some sort of message? I had no idea, nor did I care.
The people of Solis were victims just as much as the Atlantians were.
“Many are also more worried about providing for their families and keeping them safe than they are about questioning what the Ascended tell them.”
“Are they so distracted by their daily struggles that they don’t question handing over their children to the Court or to gods they’ve never seen?” Alastir asked. “Or are they just that submissive?”
“I wouldn’t confuse submission for distraction, and I wouldn’t mistake obedience for stupidity when it’s apparent that you know very little about the people of Solis,” I stated coolly.
Alastir’s gaze swung to mine.
“What they have been told about the Atlantians, about the gods and the Craven, is all they know. Generation after generation, they’re taught to believe in the Rite and how much of an honor it is for their third sons and daughters to serve the gods.
Raised to believe that only the Ascended and the gods stand between them and the Craven.
I was raised the same way.” I leaned forward, a little surprised to find that Casteel didn’t stop me.
“The gods belong to the people of Atlantia, do they not? Do your people believe in them even though they’ve never seen them? ”
Silence fell around the table.
It was Kieran who answered. “The gods have slept for hundreds of years, and only the oldest among the Atlantians can remember seeing them. But we believe in them nonetheless.”
I smiled tightly. “Just as the people of Solis believe in them.”
“But not everyone within Solis follows King Jalara and Queen Ileana,” Alastir pointed out. “There are many who have seen the truth, who support Atlantia.”
“You’re right. The Descenters.” I exhaled slowly.
“I know I’ve had my suspicions throughout my life.
I’m sure many others have, as well, but for whatever reason, their eyes haven’t been fully opened.
I imagine a lot of that has to do with the stability of what one knows, even if it isn’t comfortable.
And I suppose a lot has to do with fear of acknowledging what is truly around us, what it means for us and those we care for. ”
Alastir leaned back, eyeing me. “It’s admirable.”
“What is?”
“Your utter lack of fear when speaking to me—talking to any of us—when you know what we are,” he said. “What we are capable of.”
I met his stare. “I’m not foolish enough to not feel fear when I know that any of you could kill me before I even have a chance to take my last breath. But fearing what you’re capable of doesn’t mean I fear you.”
Casteel leaned in, his voice in my ear. “Still so incredibly brave,” he murmured, and that inexplicable warming returned to my chest.
“I like her,” Alastir said to Casteel after a heartbeat, and I thought he might actually mean that.
Then, I did what Kieran had suggested. I used my abilities once more.
My senses stretched out, connecting to Alastir.
I didn’t sense anger from him, but there was the tanginess I often associated with sadness.
I wasn’t sure what could’ve evoked that response, but I thought he was being honest.
“But back to how you and the Prince met at this…unique establishment. How was that possible?” Alastir’s fingers tapped idly on the table, and I swore there was a collective sigh of relief that the topic had moved on.
“With the Ascensions being tied to you, I was under the impression that you were well guarded and kept…” He trailed off as if he searched for the right word to use.
“Sheltered?” I suggested. “Caged? I was. For the most part,” I added. “I wasn’t permitted to travel freely, only allowed to leave my room with one of my guards or my companion, and that was only to attend classes with the Priestess or to walk the castle grounds during certain times.”
Emil stopped, his cup halfway to his mouth, his brows knitting together. His eyes were a vibrant gold. “And the rest of the time, you were expected to remain in your room? Even for meals?”
I nodded.
The Atlantian looked stunned, and someone murmured under their breath.
“But you found a way to sneak out. I imagine that’s extremely risky behavior. Someone could’ve taken you at any time during those explorations,” Alastir pointed out.
What I felt from him was…more guarded than a few moments before, but I still didn’t detect the acidic burn of anger or hatred. If anything, he was more reserved then the last time we’d spoken, as was I.
“Someone did take her. Obviously,” Casteel spoke up then, his thumb now tracing a distractingly slow, steady circle.
“Ah, yes, you did take her.” Alastir inclined his chin. “But do you really intend to keep her?”