Chapter Thirty-Two
Mitch
Hiding away in the stables, I struggled to come to terms with what the information I’d received meant to me and my life. The text confirming the bridge would soon be open should have been good news, and it was what I’d originally wanted. However, the message had turned everything upside down, and I was clueless as to what to do.
Come tomorrow, Leo and Gabe would get in their vehicle and drive home. I’d have to stand there and watch them go, watch them leave me on my own again.
My life had changed beyond recognition in the last week, and I’d never even noticed. I’d gone from being alone and expecting to stay that way, to having not one, but two men in my life. Two men I’d fallen in love with in the space of few days. A few fucking days!
How on earth had that happened?
The horses snickered their greeting when I entered the stables. At least they’d be sticking around. “It’s you and me from now on,” I murmured to them.
Doesn’t have to be .
The damned voice in my head I thought I’d managed to silence spoke up loud and clear. Leo had told me he loved me and Gabe, and I loved both of them. Gabe had told Leo he loved him but hadn’t said the words to me, so where did I stand in this scenario?
They might easily go home and continue their relationship without me, but would Gabe actually do that after what had happened to him? I hoped not. I didn’t want to lose either of them but didn’t know how to keep them either. I’d grown used to their company, used to having them around all the time, and after my self-imposed solitude, it was quite the revelation.
My surroundings were a constant reminder of how much work I still had to do to get the place anywhere close to being ready for paying customers. I’d been slowly sinking in the quicksand of my grief for far too long, and now Leo and Gabe had thrown me a lifeline, offered me a chance at a possible future, a happier future.
Was it so wrong of me not to want to let them go?
Perhaps it would better if I let the sand suck me under, give up struggling, and let this place and the shell of my half-life fall down around me. They probably wouldn’t even notice. Gabe would return to New York, Leo following behind, likely getting a job at Gabe’s company. But me? I was tied here so couldn’t up and leave to tag along behind them like a lovesick puppy. What the hell would I do when I got there anyway?
Working all my life with livestock, the land, nature, I’d be totally out of my depth surrounded by all those buildings. There’d be too many people, too much noise. I’d go crazy within days if I had to live there all the time.
I grabbed the bag of organic feed and busied myself filling the horse troughs, ensuring they had enough to eat along with adequate water and hay. We were in for another cold night, so I put their horse blankets on to give them extra protection from the freezing air. A final check and I made my way to the cabin, my feet getting heavier with every step closer to home and the two men inside.
We needed to speak about what would happen once they were free to leave, but I didn’t have the mental strength to do so tonight. We still had until first thing tomorrow to make any decisions, so I’d push the notion of them leaving out of my mind and try to enjoy my last night with them. I wasn’t sure how I’d manage to do so with the way my heart ached and my stomach filled with lead, but I’d give it my best shot.
Shrugging out of my coat and boots on entering through the front door, my eyes automatically focused on the Christmas tree in the corner, the string lights twinkling brightly, the baubles reflecting a kaleidoscope of color. This time last week I’d have walked in to a dark and empty house, the place eerily quiet, and I wouldn’t have talked to a soul all day.
Tonight, the lamps were on, making the place glow with a cozy warmth. One of them had lit the fire, the flames dancing merrily in the hearth, the heat welcome after being outside. Classic Christmas songs floated out from the kitchen, where the radio played, and I heard Gabe and Leo’s low murmurs coming from the bedroom. Their presence filling the once cold and empty space created a new energy, a new lease on life after years of death and loneliness permeating every room. The cabin had become a home again, and dear Lord, I wanted so badly for it to remain one, rather than return to the bleak environment it had been since Katie’s death.
Leo stepped out of the bedroom in my dressing gown, drying his hair with a towel. “Hey.” His shy smile made instant butterflies swirl in my stomach, while his eyes ran all over my body, searing me with his gaze.
“Hey,” I croaked back, walking over to him, needing to touch and taste. Taking him in my arms, he melted against me, the heat from his body warming my own. I took his mouth with mine, hungrily eating at his lips, biting the full lower one, teasing him with my tongue. His answering moan spurred me on as I speared my tongue into his eager mouth, his own tangling with mine, sucking hard.
My hands ran down his front, finding his cock already hard under the thin material of my robe. Undoing the tie, I parted the fabric, slid my hands up his firm chest, and pushed the garment completely off. I needed to see all of him. He was magnificent, the golden hairs on his chest glinting in the warmth of the lamps, and the low level of light showing off every nuance of his powerful body.
Taking one of his nipples between my fingers, I rolled the nub around the pads until the flesh firmed under my ministrations. Leo shivered as he gave himself over to me, his sexy groan making my cock pulse with desire.
“I need you,” I breathed, then licked up his neck, along his jaw, taking his mouth with mine once more. “Need to be inside you.”
His answering shudder gave me all the approval I needed. Taking his hand, I led him to the bedroom. Movement in the attached bathroom pinpointed Gabe’s location, and for a moment, I wondered what they’d been doing together while I’d been outside.
“We were waiting for you,” Leo said, reading my mind.
Gabe appeared in the doorway, his hair, roughly pushed back off his forehead, was still wet from his shower, making him look dark and dangerous and exotic. Beads of water dripped off the thick strands to slide down his neck and chest in tiny rivulets, making me lick my lips in anticipation of tasting his hot, damp skin.
With his smoldering gaze fixed on mine, he slowly and deliberately loosened the towel tied low on his hips, letting it fall to the floor, his semi-hard cock springing up, growing thicker and longer with every passing second.
How could I not want this? Want them all the time? I’d have it all if I gave in, gave up my past for them. The idea of handing myself over to their safekeeping was the main reason I’d refrained from doing so. Losing the person I loved had hurt so much, the pain would kill me if I lost either of them now or in the future.
Gabe sauntered over, standing to my left as Leo moved into position on my right, his hand reaching up to grip my jaw, turning my head to him and raising his mouth to mine. Leo’s kiss teased my lips, grazing lightly over them making me lean into him. Sliding my hand around his waist, pulling him against me, I plundered his mouth, needing his taste in mine, his tongue to coax me, make we want him until he was all I focused on.
When he eased away, I released a needy whimper. I hadn’t had enough, would never have enough. The hand on my jaw turned my head toward Gabe, who instantly sealed his mouth over mine, devouring me the way I’d devoured Leo. His tongue fought with mine, his sleek body aligned along my side, the heat from his hot, bare skin burning through my clothes.
“Need you too,” I panted. “Need you both.”
They worked in tandem, one unbuttoning my thick winter shirt, the other unzipping my jeans. Crouching in front of me, Gabe pulled my jeans frantically down, letting me lean on him as he removed them from around my ankles. Leo pushed at my shirt, forcing it down my arms, growling in frustration when the buttoned cuffs got stuck on my wrists. He yanked the sleeves hard enough to rip them off completely as his mouth crashed down on mine.
Gabe’s fingers wrapped around my leaking cock, his tongue licking the dripping head before he opened wide and swallowed me down to the root.
“Aah.” Leo captured my moan as Gabe continued to work me over with his mouth. I was lost to them, utterly lost. My hands slid around Leo’s waist, dropping to fill my palms with his tight globes, squeezing them, making him groan, his mouth grinding harder on mine. Sliding my fingers along his crease, I found his hole and massaged his sphincter, releasing my own deep groan when I breached him, the slickness of the lube making my glide so much easier.
“Fuck,” I moaned when my brain finally registered he’d already prepared himself, had worked his ass open, or more likely, Gabe would have done it for him to make him ready for me.
Leo pulled his mouth off mine and moved away from me over to the bed. Settling himself on his back he lifted his legs, hooked his arms behind his knees to hold them in place, and spread himself wide open for me.
I stared at him for a second, taking in the miles and miles of smooth skin covering his body, awed at the perfection of the man. Loving how the golden hair dusting his torso and legs caught the light whenever he moved. But, ultimately, my eyes were drawn to his ass and his exposed hole, glistening with lube.
He turned his head to me, the sexy grin on his face so carnal, so seductive. “What are you waiting for?” he asked, voice like velvet.
I didn’t need to be told twice. Easing my cock from Gabe’s mouth, I stepped up to Leo, took hold of his ankles, and readied myself. He probably expected me to thrust hard into him, but that’s not what I wanted. Tonight was about taking my time, savoring him, savoring them both. I wanted our lovemaking to last as long as I could since who knew when I’d get the chance to have them again.
Rocking my hips forward, I eased my way inside his body, his muscles wrapping around me as I sank in deep. Keeping my movement smooth, unhurried, I maintained a forward momentum until I was completely buried in his ass.
“Aah,” Leo’s long moan went right through me, his deep rumble teasing my senses as he pushed back to meet my determined thrust. Pulling out to the edge of his hole, he squeezed around me, not wanting to let me go, the simple action confirming exactly how much he wanted me there, with him, inside him.
Thrusting deep into his constricted heat, his muscles clamped down hard, making the glide tighter. I closed my eyes and reveled in the heavenly feel of him surrounding me, sucking me back in.
My eyes popped open when Gabe’s long fingers slid down my back to my ass, the heat from his body right there behind me. Fingers dipping into my crease teased the puckered skin in lazy circles before slick digits entered me. Pushing my ass onto him, letting him know I could take more, he added another finger and another, stretching me wide. He twisted his fingers down, and when he hit my most sensitive area, he kept working the same spot over and over, until I shuddered uncontrollably, my legs shaking at the onslaught of desire sparking in my veins.
A few more deft strokes, then he removed his fingers completely, replacing them with the head of his cock. As it slid past my ring, filling me up, the feeling of being crowded out of my own body by his solid length was completely overwhelming and yet not enough.
“Gabe,” I choked, engulfed by the sensations flooding my system as I resumed fucking Leo while Gabe fucked me, his thick cock stretching me, his movements in sync with mine. Everything I did to Leo was being done to me.
“Love being inside you,” Gabe whispered in my ear. His warm breath fluttering over my skin had me faltering. “We’re not going anywhere,” he continued. “Remember that.” His hands slid around my body, one on my abdomen, the other resting over my heart as he picked up his speed and panted against my neck. He sank in swiftly and deeply while I kept an even pace with Leo, the differences of fast and slow making me groan as electricity sizzled along my skin.
With a change of angle, Gabe’s hefty cock dragging over my prostate left me shaking with desire and with a desperate need to come. Gritting my teeth, I tried to hold in my release, determined to give Leo his pleasure, but Gabe’s relentless grinding into my gland sent me crashing over the finish line. My balls drew up tight, goose bumps erupted along my skin as, punching into Leo, I came hard and pumped him full of my seed.
Gabe growled behind me and gave one final hard thrust, making me moan and quake. He went so deep, his wet release filled my ass, spurting, spraying, while he continued to thrust a few more times. When he eventually pulled out, some of his warm semen dripped out of my asshole and down my leg.
“Fuck, that’s so hot,” he groaned and dropped to his haunches. Then his mouth sucked at my hole, his tongue swirling around the rim, before dipping inside to taste himself. Moments later, he stood and, grabbing my face, ground his mouth on mine, transferring his seed onto my tongue and sending tremors racing under my skin at the rawness and forbidden nature of what we were doing.
My hard cock, still embedded in Leo’s body, felt him shaking, and I could see his eyes were fixed on our mouths while he furiously jerked his cock. I leaned over and kissed him, transferring whatever I had left of Gabe’s spunk into his mouth.
“Fuck,” he groaned against my lips before he tensed and shot his load between our slick bodies. Hot, sticky ribbons of cum coated our bellies and his chest. I pulled out, collapsing beside Leo on the mattress, and Gabe swiftly followed, as one on either side of Leo and utterly sated, we tried to catch our breaths.
“Man,” I said, overwhelmed at the feelings currently coursing through me. Making love to these men was equivalent to an out-of-body experience, transcending anything I’d ever known.
“Yeah, that,” Gabe added, his body wet, though now sweat instead of water covered his glistening skin. We lay quietly together for a while, basking in the post-sex afterglow, totally relaxed with one another. Eventually, after the cum had dried and started to itch, Gabe hauled himself off the bed and into the bathroom, returning with a couple of wet washcloths, first cleaning himself before gently washing over my ass and down my legs, then handing the other to Leo to clean himself up.
“Bed,” Leo stated once he’d finished his ministrations. “I need to snuggle.”
I took the middle spot this time as we all climbed under the blankets, both of them wrapped tightly around me, arms and legs entwined, their weight comforting, and cocooning me in their warmth. I felt safe and secure and loved, and I wanted the feeling to last for all eternity.