Chapter 56 Spread Your Wings
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Spread Your Wings
*GWENDOLYN*
Idecided to allow Faye to spread her wings and fly.
I knew it was the right decision the moment Celine and Marius asked her if she wanted to move in with them, and if she was okay with them adopting her.
Faye burst into tears, holding onto Marius’ leg and not letting go of him or Celine for the remainder of the day.
Once the initial shock and surprise left, she was so happy, in a way I haven’t seen for a long time. She had me promise that I would visit her a lot, but she didn’t even shed a tear when she said goodbye to us.
“Are you okay?” Felix asks.
“Yeah, I am.” I snuggle against him. “This feels right.”
They are going to adopt Faye and be the best possible parents to her, and I know that whatever the future brings for them, may it be more kids or not, they will always love her. It feels right, but I can’t help the tears welling in my eyes.
Felix wordlessly pulls me into his arms. I don’t know how often I have cried on him by now.
I feel like since I came here, I’ve been like a dam with open gates.
But Felix doesn’t seem to mind that he has a crybaby as his mate.
He keeps rocking me in his arms while holding me tight.
I bury my face in his chest, inhaling his scent that calms me down no matter what.
After a while, I feel like my mind has cleared up a little.
I move my head back slightly without loosening our hug.
“I am happy for Faye, you know? Just feels weird to say goodbye to her.”
“It’s not a real goodbye,” Felix reminds me. “We will make sure she visits often.”
“Marina’s grave is here. I know that Celine and Marius will not let her memory die.”
Felix smiles. “And don’t forget the pets.”
“Obviously, they are the biggest attraction.”
“Faye loves you,” Felix tells me. “You are her best friend and her big sister. You protected her for so long. She knows it. You will always be special. A bond like that cannot be broken easily.”
“She will flourish in Celine and Marius’ pack,” I say quietly. “She can have a fresh start there, away from all the bad memories that are holding her back.”
“Mari will set her up with a good therapist. That’s his line of work, you know? He works with a lot of victims of abusive relationships and traumatic upbringings.”
“I didn’t know that,” I admit. I had a good feeling about this before, but now more relief settles in. “Faye is truly in good hands. It will take a bit of time for me to adapt to this, but I am going to be fine.”
I finally let go of my gorilla grip on him and let him take my hand.
Together we walk to the cemetery. Most shifters get burned on a pyre after they die, but there will still be a gravestone put up for them to keep the memory and provide a place for loved ones to visit.
Marina is buried in Silverlake. I think it’s perfect that way, because it was the pack that saved all three of us and did everything to help her as well as her daughter.
Fresh flowers are planted around it, a toy – probably from Faye – and several bouquets. I don’t know who put those flowers there, maybe it was pack members, maybe it was someone from the alpha family, but it warms my heart that someone came out there to think of her.
“Marina,” I whisper. “I fulfilled my promise. Thomas will never hurt anyone again, and all his goons and allies will be revealed. Alpha Jacob will face his punishment.” I pause. “And Faye, she will be happy.”
I am not a particularly spiritual person, but I could swear that when I put my hand on her gravestone, it feels warm.
Felix and I spend half an hour here. Before we return to our house, we make a detour to the construction site that will later become stables.
I decided I am ready to give it a try. My pony deserves its own little herd.
If it works out well, I might even put our alpaca with them.
These are herd animals, and while the funny mix I have at home is its own little pack, I guess it’s different for animals like horses and alpacas.
They might need more of their own kind around them.
“When are you starting your classes?” I ask Felix.
“Next week. I am actually super-pumped!” he says. “It’s not too time-intensive, which means I can still work as a warrior here and spend time with my beautiful mate.” He pulls me closer, peppering me with kisses. “And you? When do you start your job with Auri?”
“Also next week,” I say, wrapping my arms around him. “Perfect timing, huh?”
“Exactly.”
“Felix, I have a favor to ask of you. I don’t think I can do it alone.”
“Whatever it is, I will help you,” he assures me.
“Tomorrow, Liam and Dante are driving to my old pack, right?”
“Yes, Maddox and Charlie will be going with them.”
“Can we join them, too?” I ask. “I feel like I want that closure.”
“Of course,” he says promptly. “I was wondering if I should ask you, but then I didn’t know… You know… old wounds and such.”
“I faced Thomas,” I say. “My old pack is nothing in comparison. If you are with me, I’ll be fine. Plus, I want to support Charlie.”
“Your wish is my every command,” Felix says with a smirk.
“Really?” I mirror his expression. “Because there is something else I want to do now.”
“Oh!” He raises his brows. “Now you got me curious.”
I grab him by his sleeve, dragging him back home, past the capybara and otter who are chilling in a small pond that Dario and Felix built for them, and past Grumpy, who is sleeping next to them, lying on his back, his belly warmed by the sun.
Once in our bedroom, I close the door behind us – now that I know that Tiger is a demon pet, I don’t need any prying eyes.
Who knows what she is able to understand when she sees something?
Then I begin peeling Felix’s clothes off his body.
He lets me do so willingly. I love how he is never embarrassed when he is naked in front of me.
It’s not because he is cocky or thinks he is the greatest guy out there, but because he is so comfortable with me.
He is confident when he is with me, and somehow this is such a fucking turn-on, because he makes me confident, too. I take my own clothes off, not even minding that it’s bright daylight, before pushing him to sit down on the bed.
I don’t waste any time, kneeling between his legs and wrapping my lips around his cock. I can feel it grow in my mouth. I hated giving head before, mainly because Brandon used to grab the back of my head and fucked my mouth. It triggered my fear of suffocating.
Now I know that Brandon was just an incredibly selfish lover.
None of my demands was in any way ridiculous. I just wanted respect and love, and my boundaries to be accepted. To Felix, it comes naturally.
Felix looks down at me through half-lidded, dark eyes, and it just spurs me on.
I let my tongue swirl around his tip, tightening the pressure of my lips before taking as much of him into my mouth as I can.
When I can go at my own pace, it’s much easier for me to build up to take more and more in.
When the tip of his cock hits the back of my throat, Felix lets out a strangled sound. “Fuck, Gwen!”
I loosen my lips, letting his cock slip out of my mouth. Before I can continue to blow him, he pulls me up. “You are making me come.”
I blink at him innocently. “And?”
“I want to come inside of you.” He pushes my hair to the side, kissing my marking spot. “Tell me you want me inside of you.”
The nerves in my stomach tighten feeling his tongue on my sensitive spot. The feeling goes right to my core, and my walls tighten at how much I want him. “I want you inside me,” I moan, pushing him to his back and straddling his hips.
Felix grabs my middle, helping me balance as I lower myself on his cock in one go. He fills me up completely. His hands move to my ass cheeks, pulling them apart while I start circling my hips. “Is it okay?” he asks me.
Again, he asks for consent.
“Yes.”
Felix sucks one of his fingers until it’s glistening, before moving it between my ass cheeks and into my back hole. It’s an awkward feeling for a moment, but not uncomfortable, just new. With his other hand, he moves to my chest, squeezing one of my breasts.
I rest my weight on my palms, giving me more strength and better momentum to move up and down on his cock. Felix pushes himself up to a half-sitting position, his lips around one of my nipples, sucking at it first, before his teeth graze over it.
“Felix,” I beg, not even sure what I am asking of him.
But it seems he understands. His hand moves from my chest down between our bodies, his thumb circling my clit.
It sends shivers down my spine, making me clench around his cock.
Felix pulls his finger out of my ass and grabs my hips, setting our rhythm, as his thrusts push up against me and meet mine.
I don’t know the sounds that leave my lips, but I am not embarrassed anymore.
Felix takes advantage of the moment and moves up, skillfully flips me over, until my back meets his chest. Then he pushes me forward onto hands and knees, so I am resting on my forearms. His hips snap forward, his cock so deep inside me that I swear it makes me see stars. “Felix,” I moan. “Faster.”
“Fuck, Gwen,” he groans. “You are so hot.”
The sound of flesh hitting flesh fills the room, the tension inside of me growing until I feel my core tightening around his cock, my body twitching.
So close to release. Felix bends forward, one of his arms around my waist, his hand moving down to my clit again, while his other hand is suddenly resting against my ass.
He squeezes my ass cheek before moving his thumb over my cleft and into my back entrance again.
With him stimulating every part of my body, I can’t hold back anymore. My orgasm rushes through me, causing me to see white for a moment while my body trembles. Felix’s body tenses before I feel his hot seed filling me inside.
Then we both drop down exhausted. Felix takes a moment to come down before he carefully pulls out of me. “Gwen,” he pulls me into his arms. “You are the hottest woman on the planet.”
“I am sure that is an exaggeration,” I grin. “I know plenty of women who are hotter or more beautiful than I am. I am a good mediocre.”
“You are not.”
I turn towards him, before telling him a couple of actresses or models I’ve always had a little girl crush on for different reasons, but he just shakes his head.
I can’t help but giggle. “You are so silly! You know they are beautiful.”
“Maybe,” he says through half-lidded eyes, pulling me closer. “But they aren’t you.”
His words make my heartbeat stutter. I didn’t expect it; I didn’t expect anyone ever saying something like that to me.
The reason why I am the most beautiful to him is that he loves me, and that realization just makes me want to burst into tears of joy.
Figuring it would just worry Felix, I instead bury my head in his chest and snuggle against him.
“You are also the hottest man for me,” I tell him. “Because you are you.”