Chapter 18
Ace
“Please, brother, just let me in. You’ve barely been to the club unless it has something to do with club business or dropping the kids off.
Dad is pissed because you won’t explain why Mama was crying,” Dirty sighs in my ear, “and I get it, I said I’d give you time yesterday, but fuck, even I’m getting annoyed now with him complaining in my ear and by complaining I mean interrupting sex with my fucking wife! ”
I swallow hard as I look out towards the door that I know Pidge will walk out of it in about five minutes.
I woke up to Shaun knocking on my office door in the early hours this morning, and even without opening my eyes, I knew Pidge was gone. Yeah, she took my shirt, which made me kind of relax, but she was still gone, which made me angry.
She ran after the four times we fucked, her blood was still on my cock, some on the floor, and she left.
She gave me her virginity and left before I woke up.
We need to get some things fucking straight because despite the fear running through me, we’re not leaving this unfinished, I fucking can’t. I told her last night she was mine, and I meant it. I just have to see if she’ll be okay with keeping us on the downlow.
I won’t keep her a secret, if she kisses me in the diner or if she sees me in the street or I pick her up from college, my lips will be on hers.
I just want us to focus on us and see if we can work, to see if I can sort out my fucked up trust issues with women and be the man she deserves because when that fucker tried touching her, it cemented things for me, I can’t have another man touch her.
She’s fucking mine.
“Look, I don’t want you to stop talking to me as well,” Dirty grunts and I snort as women walk past me, eyeing me up, biting their bottom lips, but I ignore them and reply to my brother, “That would never happen because of the kids, and Hol would castrate me, then you.”
He grunts again, and I raise a brow.
“Someone’s growly today and not just because of the lack of sex,” I mention, and he sighs.
“Holly had another panic attack,” he admits, and I mutter, “Shit!”
“Yeah, shit,” he says, “it was the school dance last night and Lyra went to the bathroom without telling Hol, and fuck, she had a full-blown meltdown, and I had to try and calm her down.”
“How is she now?” I ask quietly, and he clears his throat.
“Not good, she feels like she’s failing. Ashley is with her at the school today, she volunteered to go, which obviously pissed off Trigger because he can’t go a few hours without seeing his wife, scared she’ll wake up and leave him,” he replies, and I wince.
“He’ll learn to trust her love for him,” I say softly.
“Before or after Ash decides she can’t put up with his shit?” he asks, and I shake my head as I look towards the doors again as a few people come out.
“She’s not going to leave him, she’s committed to try with him again, and as long as he keeps his dick in his pants, his hands to himself, and doesn’t look at another woman who wants him, they’ll be fine.
She’s hurting, but she’s trying, and he needs to let her do this, let her be there for other old ladies and see she’s trying,” I state, and I hear, “Fucker,” in the background, and I chuckle.
“I’m guessing Trigger is at the garage?” I confirm, and Dirty chuckles, “Yeah,” before Trigger demands, “When are you moving back to the club?”
“I’m not,” I say, and both men growl, making me huff as the woman, Gabby, walks out the door Pidge did last time I was here, and her eyes zone in on me, and I roll my eyes.
Fucking patch chasers.
“Look, I need this right now, I need to, I guess I need to find my own two feet,” I mumble.
“Brother, you’re the most stable one out of all of us,” Trigger says firmly, and I swallow hard.
“I did cocaine to hide from the pain, knowing my mother was spiteful enough to threaten my life to keep my father.”
She didn’t judge me, she didn’t look at me with disgust, she was understanding…
Maybe…
I clear my throat, and I confess, “So stable that I took cocaine from the club, putting a little extra in the accounts each time, and snorting it like candy for four months to try and run from my pain before I decided fucking was the better option?”
“Fuck no!” my brother snaps, but I ignore him and continue, “So stable that even now, if my anger gets too much, I still have that need to do a line?”
“Shit,” Trigger mutters, and I look down.
“I need to stay where I’m at, I need this,” I say strongly, and both men are quiet for a moment before I hear, “Hi Ace…” and I wince.
Fuck’s sake.
“Really, brother?” Trigger sighs, “You better not hang up for some fucking whore after that confession.”
I snort before I look at Gabby, who is fluttering her fake eyelashes, and I state, “I’m on the phone, fuck off!”
Her jaw goes slack before her eyes narrow, and she takes a few steps back, and I sigh, knowing she won’t leave, but I soon tense when Dirty demands, “Where are you? I want this conversation in person,” just as the door to the building opens again and my girl walks out.
My heart fucking pounds as pride like no other fills me seeing she’s wearing my shirt from last night with a skirt that just covers her ass.
Damn that is a sight.
My cock perks up and my body hums, and as if she can sense me, her head swings my way, and I tilt my head at her sensing the hesitation.
Come on, Pidge, don’t make me run after you because I will.
“I can’t, I have something I need to do,” I admit to my brothers as Pidge takes a deep breath and descends the steps, walking my way.
That’s my brave fucking girl.
“No, I’m not fucking taking that for an answer. You’ve just admitted to doing fucking coke, we need to speak in person!” Dirty snaps and Trigger sighs, “Brother, maybe give him space?”
“No!” Dirty growls, “He’s my baby brother and Mama’s shit hurt him that much he turned to drugs, we need to fucking talk!”
Damn, he really is in a bad mood today.
“Hi,” my girl whispers as she stops before me and we lock eyes.
I tilt my lips as Gabby snaps, “He’s on the phone, Molly!”
I ignore her, and I rasp, “Hey, Pidge…”
“Pidge? As in Molly?” Dirty asks with confusion, but again, I ignore him, but I also don’t hang up.
I don’t want to admit shit out loud until I’ve spoken to this girl before me, but with my words, I know he’ll understand, him and Trigger both. I know they won’t say anything because I’m more fucking closed off than all the brothers were put together, so this right now is hard for me.
“Wait, why haven’t you –”
Pidge cuts Gabby’s heated words off and asks, “What are you doing here, Luca?” and both my brother and Trigger suck in breaths.
I let my eyes roam over her, swallowing her body, before we lock eyes again, and her cheeks redden with a cute blush, making me grin.
Fuck she’s perfect.
“Come for a ride with me,” I say gently, and Gabby gasps dramatically so and Trigger mutters, “Fucking shit, he’s fallen, meaning this is difficult as it is for him, brother!”
“I’m in a skirt,” Pidge tries, and I hum but still nod to the seat behind me, and I say, “My shirt is already like a dress on you, Pidge. Pull it down, and when you climb on, sit on it.”
Her eyes race between mine before she whispers, “I thought it was a one-night stand…”
“Well, you thought wrong, I told you that you were mine, now get on,” I command lowly, and she takes a deep breath as I hold out my arm for her.
Swallowing, she maneuvers her bag so it's over her shoulder, then grabs my arm before climbing on.
“What?!” Gabby screeches, but we both ignore her as I state, “Wrap your arms around me, Pidge, hold on tight, and keep your fucking legs away from the pipes. You’ve already wrecked my bike once, I don’t want to do it myself.”
“Prick,” she mutters, and I chuckle lightly as she does as she’s told before I remember I’m still on the phone, and my brother has gone awfully quiet.
“Dirty,” I say firmly, and he clears his throat after a few seconds and mutters, “We know nothing but don’t think this is getting you out of our chat.”
With that, he hangs up, and I sigh as I put my phone in my cut and I reach behind me and grip Pidge’s thigh before pulling her closer to me and she settles her head on my shoulder, settling me.
“Hold on tight, Pidge,” I rasp as I start my bike and rev it before pulling away from the curb, ignoring everyone’s eyes on us, including a seething Gabby, who I’m guessing hates my girl because the guy she fucked last time also wants Pidge.
That guy can go fuck himself if he thinks he can lay a finger on Molly.
***
An hour later, I pull into a clearing and slow as I drive down a dirt track towards the lake, which the club owns, before I pull up near it, the sun shining down, making the light bounce off it.
I turn my bike off and put the stand down before I rub Pidge’s death grip on my waist. I pry her hands off me, before climbing off and turning towards my girl, looking fucking spectacular on my bike.
I grab her left thigh, lift it and twist her on my bike, making her gasp as her hands go to my forearms.
As soon as she’s sat facing me, her legs spread, I step between them and grab her bag, taking it off her and placing it in my side bags before giving Pidge my whole attention, my palms going straight to her thighs.
Fuck, she looks hot.
I can’t help my reaction. I bend forward and take her lips with mine, making her gasp, giving me the perfect opportunity to shove my tongue down her throat, and I growl at the taste of her, which hits me as our tongues tangle.
Pidge grips my cut and holds me close as we make out like a couple of teenager. My cock grows so uncomfortably that the piercings tighten, and I quickly break the kiss before I fuck her on my bike.
Soon…
We need to talk first.
Breathing heavy, I place my forehead against hers, and I whisper, “Hi,” making her smile bashfully.
Fucking adorable.
“Hi,” she whispers in return and I press a chaste kiss on her lips before I get right to it and state, “I want to date you, Pidge,” and her eyes widen in shock but I continue, “I want to get to know you, to find your likes and dislikes without the anger and tension between us that we’ve had because I didn’t want to open my eyes and see what was right in front of me,” I press another gentle kiss on her lips and I rasp, “I want to see if we can do this, you and me, becoming an item and I’m not saying it’s going to be easy because it isn’t.
I have trust issues, I’m not denying that, I told you what happened last year and I know you probably struggle with trust as well with what you’ve gone through but I need you like I need air to breathe, Pidge.
You’ve, fuck, you’ve buried yourself under my skin.
You’re all I can think about and when your pranks stopped, I actually fucking missed them. ”
She smiles slightly at that and offers, “I can do more if you want?” but I shake my head instantly.
Her pranks may have stopped but I’ve got her, or I will have her, one way or another.
“I’ve already got a kitten because of your pranks, so no thanks,” I murmur with softness.
“You kept a kitten?” she gasps with a wide grin that just fucking blows me away, and I chuckle.
“Yeah, Pidge, her name is Chloe,” I admit, and she melts into me.
“That is amazing,” she whispers, and I hum as I look her over.
“I’m in love with you, Pidge,” I admit quietly, my fear rushing through me, telling me to fucking run and grab a line of coke but I squash it down as unshed tears shine in her beautiful eyes, “You own me, heart and soul, fuck, I haven’t even touched another woman since that day a few months ago when we met.
I don’t think I can live without you but I just, fuck, if we do this we keep this between us,” her mouth parts and I quickly say, “I’m not saying we act like we’re a secret, I just mean, we don’t let any outside interference get involved.
We keep our relationship between us, until we can see this is going to work, that we can trust each other and that this can go somewhere. ”
I press my lips against hers, and I murmur, “I don’t want to regret not trying, Pidge, because slowly, since we met, you have consumed me.” I run my lip ring along her bottom lip, “So what do you say?”
Her eyes race between mine as her grip on my cut tightens, and she admits, “I’m scared, I don’t want to be hurt.”
I smile slightly, and I admit, “I’m scared too, but maybe we can be scared together and fall madly, deeply in love with each other.”
“But I already love you, Luca,” she whispers and I swear my heart fucking soars and I return, “I love you too, but we could fall deeper,” and she nods hesitantly making my fucking year and I press my lips harder against hers.
She moves her hands from my cut and up and over my shoulders, holding me close to her and our tongues tangle as electric sparks fly between us and my dick leaks, wanting his tight heat as I slow the kiss.
I need her.
“Are you sore?” I ask against her lips as I run my hands up her thighs, gently pushing her skirt up, and she shakes her head as I do before my thumb brushes against her panties, and I swallow my groan at how soaked they are.
Fuck.
“Are you wet for me, Pidge?” I ask with husk and run my thumb over her panties again, ensuring to nudge her clit, and she gasps, “Yes,” and I grunt, “So fucking responsive to me…” and I slam my lips against hers, needing her taste.
Pidge moans into my mouth, and I grip her panties before pulling hard, yanking them from her body as my need for her overwhelms me.
Our kiss heats up, and I quickly pull my cock out and place it at her entrance before thrusting in, sliding in nice and deep, her walls instantly sucking me in, and I groan into her moan as she wraps her legs around my waist and holds me close as her nails dig into my shoulders.
I don’t think about our surroundings, all I can see before me is this amazing girl and I fuck her hard and raw on my bike, allowing our feelings to take over, and I promise against her lips, “I’ll never let you go and I’ll never let anyone fucking hurt you, you’re mine, Pidge,” and she throws her head back as her walls squeeze so fucking tightly I’m afraid my dick will drop off before she, fuck, me…
“Fuck, you just squirted baby,” I grunt as I latch onto her neck, the same spot as last night and I bite down hard as I rut into her and she cries out in pleasure as her orgasm spreads between us and I know right here and now, I’m never going to let her go and if anyone touches a hair on her head, then I’ll fucking kill them.
Molly Wright is fucking mine, and I’m done hiding from my feelings for her. I just hope I don’t hurt her like all the other brothers hurt their women.