Chapter 32 #2
I looked into his eyes, and he was staring at me in a strange way.
I don’t know what came over me because before I could stop myself, I grabbed his face and shoved my tongue in his mouth.
Shakur gripped my face and kissed me back hard. His strong, big hands then roamed all over my body, igniting something deep inside of me.
He broke our kiss, took my hand, and led me to his room. I allowed him. As soon as he unlocked the door and we stepped inside, we were tearing at each other’s clothes like animals.
Shakur practically ripped the top of my dress and dropped his head to suck on my nipples.
I closed my eyes and threw my head back. As he sucked on my breasts, I reached my hand down, unzipped his slacks, and pushed my hands into his boxers. His dick was thick, hard, and full of veins.
I immediately dropped to my knees and took him to the back of my throat.
“Sssss, fuck,” he hissed when I damn near swallowed his whole dick. Shakur caressed my head as he gently fucked my face.
I smiled around his dick, knowing that this was what Havoc was missing out on!
I knew he was going to regret letting me go.
After a few minutes, Shakur pulled me up to my feet and took me over to the bed.
I stepped out of my panties and lifted my dress over my ass before lying down. I watched as he secured a condom on his dick. He then positioned himself between my legs and pushed inside of me.
I screamed in pleasure, feeling him fill me up. Tears filled my eyes as my mind told me it was Havoc. The one person I desired more than anything.
Shakur held onto my shoulder and pounded into me.
“Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes,” I cried, feeling my orgasm building in my body. He sucked on my nipples and then lifted his head to kiss me. I kissed him hard, with all I had, because I had a point to prove. A point to prove to myself—to Havoc. That he fucked up missing out on me.
My head was spinning, euphoria taking over me, making me feel like I was coming out of my body.
Tears rolled down into my ears just as I let go of my orgasm. I released it all, I held nothing back.
“Fuck!” Shakur roared. His movements sped up until he finally came, dropping his head on my chest. I felt his dick pulsate inside of me. For a few minutes, we just lay there panting in the dimly lit room until he rolled over beside me.
As I stared up at the ceiling, the realization that this should have been Havoc hit me. The one to make me scream and orgasm. The one to touch my body in a way only he could.
A feeling of disappointment washed over me, and I rolled on my side, put my hand between my thighs, and closed my eyes with thoughts of Makari.
The next morning, I woke up with the biggest headache and remorse sitting on my chest. All night, I couldn’t keep Havoc off my mind.
All those months after breaking up with Anton, I’d abstained from sex, waiting to give myself to him, and I never got the chance.
I didn’t have the heart to face Shakur, so I snuck out of his room after he fell asleep.
Now, I just wanted to act like it didn’t happen, but most importantly, I needed to talk to Havoc.
We both made mistakes, but nothing we couldn’t figure out. He’d married Kairi, but that could get annulled easily.
Allowing the hope of fixing things to fuel me, I quickly got out of bed to get ready.
I happily swayed my hips to the breakfast area. After filling my plate with fruit, pancakes, and sausage links, I took a seat at the bar so that I could look out at the swimming pools. I breathed in the clean, cool air and smiled, knowing everything was going to be alright.
I looked up and noticed Havoc coming my way with a drink in his hand. I giggled at this big ass man holding a glass with a little umbrella in it.
“I know you ain’t laughing about my drink?” he said, making me laugh harder. He gave me a hug before sitting next to me. His scent swirled around my head, and I felt my heart race speed up.
There was just something about this man that did something different to me.
Tell him now, I thought, and pondered on how to start this much-needed conversation.
I cleared my throat and adjusted in my seat.
“You not eating?” I asked, putting a grape into my mouth, to buy some time to ease into it.
Havoc sipped on his drink and shook his head. As I looked over at him, I couldn’t help admiring his features. I’d never seen a man so beautiful in all my life.
He suddenly reached out and touched my hand.
“You mean so much to me, Trini. You’re a beautiful person, and I’m glad you’re here,” he smiled at me.
I looked down at where his hand was touching mine. The love swelling inside my body. I knew that I wasn’t wrong. He loved me and thought I was beautiful!
I looked at him and smiled. He was saying something, but I couldn’t even pay attention because I was too lost in his handsome face.
I couldn’t hide my smile. I could sit there all day just watching him, no matter what he was saying.
As he continued to talk, I leaned my elbow on the bar top and rested my chin in my palm. My eyes outlined the shape of his lips as they moved perfectly with each word he spoke.
They then moved to his Adam’s apple, watching the way it bounced in his thick neck, so perfectly. I felt a tingle in my stomach.
I noticed some people approaching, but my attention was stuck on this beautiful specimen of a man before me. I smiled at the way he took another sip of his drink.
“Baby,” he suddenly said, catching me off guard. I sat there stunned, wondering if I was dreaming about this man calling me his baby. He was looking in my direction, so I knew he had to be talking to me. I slowly stood to my feet to answer him, but someone whizzing past caught my eye.
“Hey,” Kairi appeared and walked into his waiting embrace. She sat on his knee, and the smile on his face said it all.
I stood and had to watch as they kissed and loved on each other right in my face.
“Come on, I booked a couple’s massage for us,” Havoc said, standing up and taking her hand.
But I never got to tell him what I had to say!
“Bye, Trini,” Kairi smiled and waved at me.
Havoc just gave me a head nod, too wrapped up in his new wife to even give me a proper goodbye.
That was the first time since we knew each other that he didn’t tell me bye properly, and it stung.
All I could do was stand there and watch them leave together.
I slumped back on my stool and pushed my plate away from me, no longer having an appetite.
The bartender looked at me— I could see the pity shining in his eyes.
“Make me a drink, and make sure it’s strong,” I said.
A few hours later, and I was still at the bar ordering drink after drink, hoping it would numb this pain that just wouldn’t go away.
The image of Havoc walking away from me was still etched into my mind, no matter how much liquor I drank.
What hurt me the most was that he never came back.
That was the only time I saw him and Kairi for the rest of the day.
I poured the last of my drink into my mouth, put the glass down, and staggered up to my feet.
My head was spinning as I made my way through the resort and to the elevators.
A couple was stepping off as I walked on, and I found myself cutting my eyes at them.
Just seeing them put a sour taste in my mouth.
I had to laugh at myself, knowing that Havoc really had me in my feelings like this.
When I finally made it up to my floor, I stepped off and stomped toward my room, still feeling pissed off about the situation.
On my way, I looked behind me, and my eyes landed on Shakur’s door at the end of the hallway. I suddenly stopped walking and turned back to look at it.
Havoc could hurt me, so I could hurt him back!
I knew his heart would break knowing I slept with Shakur again, but it serves him right. I was gonna make him wish he didn’t skip me.
With a smile on my face, I spun on my heels and swayed my hips to his door. My pussy started jumping at the anticipation. Shakur definitely knew how to work that thing he was walking around with.
A few hours of sex will definitely put me in a better mood, I thought as I finally made it to his door. If nothing else could take my mind off Havoc, I knew that Shakur could—even if it was for only a moment.
We were all leaving tomorrow anyway, before they went off for their own honeymoon, so tonight was all I needed.
I looked down and adjusted my breasts in my top, remembering how he couldn’t keep his hands or mouth off them last night.
I cleared my throat and knocked on the door. After a few moments, he opened it and looked at me.
“Hey Shakur,” I cooed sexily and batted my eyes at him.
He had this stone-cold look on his face for some reason and realized that he probably needed some sex just as much as I did.
“What you doing here?” he asked in a rough tone, making me freeze.
“Why are you being so cold? I came to see you,” I said and laughed nervously.
Shakur didn’t say anything and continued to look at me with a deep frown on his face before he sighed.
“I’m not about to fuck you while you’re loving another nigga you can’t have,” he said, completely knocking the wind out of me.
My jaw fell open but no words would come out because he had me so stuck with that. How did he know about my feelings for Havoc?
Before I could think of a comeback, Shakur shut the door in my face.