Chapter 7 Aspen
Aspen
My whole body is on fire with wanton desire and I can’t stop it. Can’t fight it.
Wouldn’t want to try.
My fingers move off the sheets and tangle in his dark, silky hair as his mouth moves on my core, his tongue dipping inside me. He growls as he drinks my juices and my body tightens, agonizing need roaring inside me.
“Please, Sebastian. Don’t stop,” I whimper.
“I couldn’t stop if I wanted to. You’re perfect. You’re mine. My beautiful Christmas dream.”
His breath blows on my core and I moan, my body going so taut that it feels like I’m going to rip in two. My legs are shaking. My heart is pounding.
I can’t breathe.
It’s too much.
Or not enough.
My eyes close and my core tightens. Breathless, I struggle to reach some ephemeral height. Something beckons me.
Bright, shining and perfect.
And then it crashes into me, dragging me over a fall of such wild pleasure that I scrabble wildly at Sebastian’s shoulders.
He growls and his tongue and teeth and lips fight for every last drop of my release and another shuddering, stuttering wall of pleasure hits me like a tidal wave.
Screaming, I fall over the edge of something more than I ever thought I could feel.
My whole body falls apart and then my vision goes dark.
“Hey, baby? Are you alright?”
My eyes open and the most beautiful, worried blue eyes I’ve ever seen are staring at me.
My lips curl up and I grin recklessly at him. “Yeah. I’m so good.”
He leans over and kisses the tip of my nose. “Thank god! I thought I killed you.”
“What a way to go!” I chuckle and reach up to trace his broad shoulder.
He shudders and power washes over me. I can make this big, powerful man shiver at just a touch.
Just like he can do the same thing to me.
There’s something powerful at work here. Something magical.
I reach up and pull his lips down to mine, shivering when I taste my own release on his lips.
“That was…”.
He grins. “That was so amazing that I made you faint. I can’t decide if that’s a compliment or not.”
“It is,” I sigh. “But I want more.”
“More might kill you.”
“I want you.” I reach down and my fingertips drag along the edge of his zipper and he growls and grabs my hand.
“We’ve got time. We don’t need to do more than that today. I just needed to taste you so bad.”
“I need to feel you inside me. Surely you’re not going to tell me no?”
My lip pouts out and he groans. “Oh, jeez! You’re killing me, baby girl. I’d give all my money to feel your sweet pussy wrapped around my dick.”
“Then I suggest that you take what you need.”
“I don’t want to hurt you.”
“You’ll hurt me if you stop.”
“Aspen…” he growls and his forehead touches mine. “Please, baby. You’re killing me. I shouldn’t have done that. I should have waited. That was a mistake.”
Chills run along my arms as my heart sinks. I rub my arms and pull at the sheet as he stands up.
“I wanted to spend time with you today. I wanted you to help me take care of a special gift for Charlie. I never meant to do….” His big hand waves towards me. “That.”
I curl up around myself and grab at the sheet to cover my shivering, suddenly-cold body.
“O-okay. Sure. I’ll be happy to help you.”
“Good. I’ll go downstairs and wait for you to get dressed.” And he leaves me sitting up in bed.
Closing my eyes, tears well up behind my lashes, burning to get out.
But I push them away.
Because I knew it was too good to be true. He doesn’t feel the same way about me.
He must have done that because he saw something in my eyes and felt sorry for me.
I drag my aching, hungry body out of the twisted sheets and stand up. With dragging steps, I move to the closet and pull out the first thing my hand touches.
I don’t care what the hell it is. I don’t care if I look like an idiot.
I just want to get this over with and come home to lick my wounds in peace.
I pull on a sweater and a pair of soft leggings and then boots and make my way slowly downstairs, fighting not to howl with hurt when his glorious blue eyes smile up at me.
Like nothing’s changed. Like he…like he cares for me.
Caring isn’t love though.
I should know that better than anybody. I love my mom. But I don’t care what she thinks at all.
I gave that up a long time ago.
And now I’m going to have to do the same thing with Sebastian. And make sure that he never finds out how much I love him.
I can do this.
I step up to him and smile shakily. “So what is it that you need?”