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Date: February 17, 2006 11:45pm
From: [email protected]
Subject: re: I also have some news…
Sam,
I have read and reread your email about a thousand times and I am so freaking proud of you! And I deserve no credit for your success. I just nudged you and you flew. Have you found any work yet? I’m sure any practice would be happy to have you. I can see you doing so much good for your patients and I can’t wait to hear all about it.
So how is Mikey doing? He has to be what like 10 months now? Isn’t it crazy how fast time flies when you have little ones. My Brielle is growing like a weed and attached to my hip. Which bothers Nate to no end. She’s also very close to my parents but not to his. It’s a whole thing. Maybe if Nate and his family weren’t so cold and frigid, Brielle would warm up to them more. We fight about it all the time and I am so tired of being stressed.
And if you’re ready for another little bit of good news … I am a mom again! Mason was born the beginning of this month and he’s perfect.
My pregnancy went well enough. But full disclosure … after he was born, I had a hard time bonding with him. And it’s not because I don’t love him, I do. I’ve never felt depressed before and I don’t know what is bringing this on. I don’t feel like myself. Nate is oblivious, as usual. You are the only one I can confide in about this. I’ll be okay … it’s just hard. It’s just that … well, I won’t say. There’s no sense in dreaming or thinking about what might have been.
There’s no point.
Love, Maria