Chapter 18 #2
“Nikolai.” I kept repeating his name, my hand moving along his jaw, his cheek, the only places I could reach with how tightly he held me.
“We’re close,” I promised, pointing toward my house.
I knew he would smell Leon the moment we walked inside. In fact, he’d smell him in my bed.
I wasn’t sure how he would take that.
Hopefully… well.
Nikolai’s growl deepened as he shoved the door open, not even bothering to close it behind him.
I tried to speak, but he was gone. Only the alpha remained.
He didn’t look for a bed. There was no hesitation as he dropped me to the floor and reached for my shirt.
“Nikolai… shouldn’t we talk first?” I asked.
He just growled again.
I guess that was a no.
It was like he couldn’t hear me anymore. His mind had switched off and only instincts were driving him now.
Every word and growl was deep and unhinged, his pupils blown wide and his pheromones flooding the air around us.
My head was spinning worse now, my own scent perfuming to meet his.
Despite the tears running down my cheeks, I was so damn happy to have my alpha back. It was like he knew I was struggling to find him, so he took matters into his own hands.
I needed that.
“After,” he choked out, his voice was distorted and his alpha was far too close to the edge. “Mine. Bite.”
That startled me out of my haze. I wasn’t even sure I wanted that. We were practically strangers now.
But as I gazed up into the man’s face that I’d missed for far too long, I knew my answer.
“You can claim me,” I said. He let out another satisfied rumble before he started to shred my clothes, fabric tearing under his hands until I was bare before him.
“Mine,” he growled again. Apparently, we were still in the caveman stage. Even knowing he would be rough with me as he claimed me, I wasn’t afraid. This was my alpha. The only alpha in my life that never hurt me.
My alpha’s growl intensified as my slick dripped down my thighs. It was responding to his pheromones, preparing my body for what was to come.
Nik shoved his own pants down, stripping out of his clothes, growling in frustration at the barriers between us.
As soon as he was free, he picked me up again, laying me out on the couch and spreading my legs. He buried his face between my thighs without warning. I yelped but he just held me still as he devoured me with a desperation I’ve never experienced.
His hands were bruising as he gripped at my inner thighs, spreading me wider, his tongue plunging into my core before sucking hard on my clit.
All I could do was cling to my alpha and ride out the pleasure he was pulling effortlessly from my body.
This wasn’t the sweet, gentle first time I imagined all those years ago, but it was still perfect. My Nikolai was back and claiming me.
He was purring now, the sound jagged and deep. It rumbled through me as he tongue fucked my slick pussy like a deranged alpha.
My orgasm hit me so hard and fast I couldn’t breathe, my vision wavering as it pulsed through me.
Thank god for the slick my body was producing because the moment I came, he was on his knees and slamming into me, his body pressing mine into the cushions of the couch as he furiously fucked me.
His growling purr intensified, the rumble vibrating through his chest, and I swear it hit me straight in the core. The amount of pleasure this man pulled from my body, a body that he shouldn’t know this well, was almost too much to comprehend.
My fingers dug into his skin, marking him as I held on tight. My omega was rejoicing, letting out my own soft purr as he rutted into me.
His eyes were locked on me, teeth bared, ready to strike.
“Alpha.” It was truly the name that mattered because this wasn’t my Nikolai fucking me. It was his alpha rutting me, so desperate to mark me that he was feral.
My teeth nipped at his throat, hips meeting his for each thrust. Every sense was overwhelmed by my alpha.
This felt like a dream, and I was terrified that at any moment it could slip away from us. That I’d wake up and realize he never actually found me and my mind was finding new, creative ways to torment me.
As if he knew I needed out of my head Nikolai’s teeth were at my scent gland, pressing in but not claiming yet.
“Please,” I whimpered as his hands gripped my hips, pressing me down with each thrust so shockwaves went straight to my clit.
My orgasm hit me like a freight train. There was no buildup or way to brace myself. There was so much longing and pleasure pulsing through me my mind was completely silent now.
There was nothing else but this.
I gave into my instincts, my omega still riding the high as she sank her teeth into our alpha’s throat.
His growl was louder now, a rumbling sound that sounded almost smug.
The depth of emotion that struck me as the bond snapped into place stole my breath more than the back-to-back orgasms ever could. This was the moment that we both needed, that we were desperate for.
Our designations were in control now and this was the way we were always meant to be.
Even as the alpha was fucking me furiously and demanding more pleasure from my body, the emotions underneath were just as overwhelming.
He was also terrified this was a dream.
And below that, was a bottomless pit of tumultuous emotions I could barely make sense of.
“My omega,” he breathed out. Pure pain cut through my chest like a fissure. It was a physical thing that had to have broken my ribs right here and now with the depth of longing and grief that lingered under the surface.
The alpha was barely holding on. He was trying to fight through it, trying to be present for me, but I could feel everything else he couldn’t simply turn off now that he was holding me.
“Bite me, alpha,” I demanded.
I tilted my neck to the side and he struck without hesitation, teeth tearing at the flesh in a vicious bite that I knew was going to brand my flesh forever.
He soothed his tongue over it, a shudder rocking through me as his knot locked us in place.
The storm of emotions settled now that we were bonded. I whimpered as his knot pushed my body to its limits. He fucked me through it, fucking me in shallow thrusts as if he wanted our bodies to meld together into one.
He needed to know, like I did, that we were a part of each other now, that we’d always have this connection.
His alpha still rumbled as he held me. My body was exhausted between the raw pleasure and emotional depth that I was trying to adjust to.
It was almost too much to handle, my consciousness slipping away before I could utter a word.
I wasn’t sure how much time passed, but when I blinked open my eyes Nikolai was back to himself. Those gorgeous, hazel eyes were watching me, as if waiting for my reaction.
The bond told me everything he wasn’t putting into words. He was elated, still in shock, and definitely waiting for me to lose it.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to go into a rut the moment I saw you. I didn’t even know if you’d actually be here,” he breathed out. My alpha was close to tears, and that was something I wasn’t sure I could handle. He was my strong protector, but now he was so broken.
“We’re fine,” I promised, voice husky and tired.
“Aries, I have so many questions,” he whispered, hand stroking up and down my back.
I smiled sadly and shook my head. “You don’t want those answers right now, Nik. Let this be enough,” I pleaded.
He let out a sigh and nuzzled into my cheek before sitting up so he could see me better.
“Tell me this is real.”
“It’s real,” I said. “I can’t believe you’re here.”
“I’ve been looking for you for a long fucking time,” he said in a broken whisper. That grief flared stronger, bringing tears to my eyes.
We’d both suffered so much that I pushed my own questions aside and simply clung to the alpha that I never thought I’d see again.