10. Soulful Hurtz #2
Yea, that’s what I was on from now on. I listened to her talk and when she got ready to announce the new lieutenant everyone seemed like they were on the edge of their seats.
“Teddy, is a young ambitious nigga, he keeps his nose clean and I can trust him with my life. I will be back out of town for a couple of weeks rearranging some things. He will lead the meetings and count the dough. If respect is not given, then he will also handle that accordingly too.” I made sure to lock eyes with every nigga and female that sat around in folding chairs.
Although my heart was thumping hard, I dared a muthafucka to step up and get bold.
Clapback had a look on her face like she wanted to protest but knew it wasn’t in her best interest.
“Bundy will be the second Lieutenant, when I leave to go back to Mexico, I expect for shit to run the same but better.” Queen gave Clapback a stern eye as she mumbled some shit under her breath.
“So, what we gone do about the syndicate shit. We just gone sit here and act like that nigga didn’t kidnap you. Are we getting down with them niggas? Falling in line or what?” Clapback sounded like she was pissed off.
“It’s more to it, deeper than what the naked eye can see, when I’m ready to explain that I will.” Bundy handed her an already lit blunt. He looked like he was just happy to be right next to her.
“Everybody here is gang. You leaving us in the dark now Queen?” Clapback didn’t know when to shut up and that was a major flaw of hers. Something about her didn’t sit well with me, so I kept my distance from her. I never wanted to disrespect Queen’s sister.
“I’m keeping you out of my personal business.
If it pertains to the gang then I will make that shit known.
Right now, its personal, its not F.Y.F business.
So, drop it… or you can figure out a way to stop dealing with that nigga Killa.
It’s bad for business.” Clapback shut her mouth as we all sat in silence.
I was thinking about the new position along with all the responsibilities it came with.
I was ready for the challenge, ready to get this money by all means necessary.
“Let me make it clear, we don’t bow down.
If I see a big opportunity for us all, I will take it.
We are small right now, very close knit.
I love that for us, I just want you all to be prepared for something far greater.
If I come back from Mexico and call an emergency meeting, then just know we have expanded.
Longer sleepless nights will occur. If I also decide to get down with the Syndicate, nigga then best believe it will involve more money for us. ”
“It won’t Queen, them niggas extorting people out of their dividends,” Murk’um spoke up.
“That won’t be the case with us if or when I do make my final decision.
Now if any of you feel like I’m not making good decisions for us as a whole then any of you are free to walk away.
Walk away before you attempt to do some shady shit.
No matter how many years we got together, I won’t hesitate to kill you. ”
I tuned out the conversation and start thinking of ways to step my own shit up. I had to move smarter. I definitely had more on me now and had to figure out just where I could relocate my stash.
Once the meeting was over, I walked out to the parking lot forgetting that I even had a car.
Usually, I’d catch the bus back home or one of them would take me home.
Instead, I was holding the keys to my own shit.
Excitement flowed through me the closer I got to my Impala.
Hopping in my car felt surreal as fuck, I turned up the radio and cruised all the way home.
I wouldn’t bitch up in front of Queen. I let the tears of joy fall from my eyes and didn’t wipe them away until I pulled up in front of the projects.
Looking at the time it was only about seven, deciding to detour from in front of my house, I drove past Jocelyn house and blew the horn.
I didn’t care about her being outside with her trout mouth homegirls.
Jocelyn brought peace into my life, and I wanted her bad.
She rocked baggy gray sweats with a spaghetti strapped shirt.
She had on some purple UGG sandals. When she noticed it was me, she smiled widely making me smile.
I was so excited, I just wanted to show her my car first.
I got out the car and leaned on the hood waiting for her to approach me. I loved when Jocelyn wore contacts it gave me the perfect view of those big innocent eyes. Her caramel skin held a permanent glow.
“You got a car, Soulful.” She smiled hard and hugged me tightly before I could confirm that it was indeed my car.
I hesitated at first. This was the first time I felt her in my arms. She smelled good as fuck and felt like cotton in my arms. I slowly put my arms around her waist and pulled her in close.
She was tall like me, just a little shorter so her head stopped at my chin.
The wind blew making her sweet smell drift up my nose.
I let her go when I felt my dick bricking up.
I didn’t want to disrespect her in that way.
“Shit looking up for a nigga.” I smiled.
“I see, this is really dope as heck Soul. I guess I’m riding with you in the mornings and when we get out of school.
” I just nodded my head. With the way things was looking, I didn’t know if school would be on my agenda.
Then again, I didn’t have a choice because Queen still paid my tuition and wanted me to keep going.
I looked at Queen like a big sister, I didn’t want to disappoint her, I actually liked making her proud.
“You got that Jah.” An awkward silence passed, and we just stared at one another.
Today, I really stepped out my shell, I never really approached Jocelyn, she always came to me and made it a point to talk to me.
I liked that she didn’t diss me like all the other broads did at school.
I knew I was a dusty nigga and didn’t have much, so I never defended myself.
The goal was to take care of my family, I didn’t give a fuck what others thought of me.
“I went to your class and got you the missing assignments, so it won’t affect your grade.” She smirked as I nodded and just stared at her getting lost in her beauty.
“Why you staring at me like that.” She blushed.
“I like you Jah and I think…” What the fuck was I on? I was about to tell her that I thought I was in love with her. Nah, I’m tripping hard as fuck. I licked my lips and kept my mouth shut.
“You think what Soul?” Feeling nervous, I tucked my hands in my pockets.
I didn’t feel like it was the time to step to her.
Jocelyn deserved a nigga that was paid, and I wasn’t that.
I could barely buy myself a meal and provide.
I didn’t know shit about relationships, but I know if I had it like that, I would treat Jocelyn right.
I wasn’t some horny teenage nigga. I wasn’t a virgin either.
I fucked a couple of older homegirls from from around the way.
What was crazy about it was they was all grown as fuck in they mid twenties.
All the girls my age wasn’t really feeling me like that.
They were superficial and cared about what all a nigga had.
“I just think you beautiful as fuck when I get on and have more money. I want to make you mine.” I was serious as fuck; I couldn’t hold back any longer.
“So, you can have fun with that nigga you claim as a boyfriend. Don’t fuck that nigga Jocelyn, I want to be your first and last.” I didn’t give a fuck what her response was.
I expected her to pop off, but I was willing to take that to the chin.
“How you know I’m a virgin.” Her eyes went into slits and suddenly my mouth went dry.
I couldn’t feel no type of way but damn I could’ve sworn that she was.
No rumors went around about her fucking on none of these project niggas.
Niggas loved being in her face but that’s as far as it went.
Around here, if a nigga fucked on a bitch, they bragged and boasted about it.
Jocelyn was pretty as fuck and she hung with other pretty popular girls.
“I’m just messing with you, Soul. To be honest, I think we soulmates.
” She giggled shyly and tucked some hair behind her ear.
“I’ve liked you for a long time, but I’m not thirsty.
I was waiting for you to say something. I’m ready to be yours now.
” She looked me directly in the eyes and I fell in love with her instantly.
“Come here.” I talked lowly. I looked at her friends who was now staring and shooting daggers our way.
I sat on the hood of the car and let her walk between my legs.
I grabbed her by the ass and pulled her close, I tongued her ass down with my heart beating fast as hell.
I got a car and the girl of my dreams. Jocelyn felt perfect in my arms. Some would try to judge and say some stupid shit like “Oh its young love.” In my eyes it could be whatever kind of love because I stood there a hundred percent sure that Jocelyn was the one for me.
I promised Jocelyn that I would pick her up early in the morning for school. When I left from in front of her house it felt like a young nigga was floating.