Chapter 34
Bonus
Archie
Opening the bookstore with Hayleigh has hands down been one of the best decisions of my life. I get to come to work with one of my best friends, talk about books and read as much as I want in between. Plus, the fact that she’s happy makes Nate happy.
Later on, they’re having a get-together at Hayleigh’s house, and while I’m looking forward to seeing my family and friends, I’m not looking forward to the inevitable.
Nate and Hayleigh are moving in together.
Don't get me wrong, I want them to, I really do, but I’m also terrified. I don’t know how to be alone, and even though I have my whole family, it’s always been Nate and me against everything.
I want what Cas, Cole and Nate have. I want to find my missing piece and live happily ever after, as I read so much about.
But what if I don’t find her? What if I end up alone? I scrub my hands down my face as the familiar feeling of dread courses through me.
Maybe I’m not good enough. The rest of my family tells me I am, and they’ve shown me what true love should look like, but sometimes I still feel like an outsider, like I don’t belong. It isn’t their fault; they’ve done nothing but support me and make me feel like I’m one of them.
But they don’t know that I remember everything about that night. No one does, not even Nate. I think that if my mum knew what really happened to my biological parents, she’d be horrified.
Horrified and devastated that she couldn’t shield me from it.
Maybe that’s why I haven’t found my true love.
Maybe it’s my punishment for not saving them.