Chapter 25
Chapter Twenty-Five
When Danica had kissed him, she hadn’t been thinking. In fact, she’d been making her best effort not to think.
Not think about that nightmare of men chasing her, faceless and relentless.
Not think about the secrets and lies and people out there who wanted to hurt her… The things that threatened to make her cry.
Not thinking was working just fine.
She and Noah had wasted so much of their time together resisting. Both when they were younger, and now. Wasn’t it better just to let go? To give in?
The jolts of pleasure roaring through her body were screaming, Yes. Please.
But giving in was intense. It was vulnerable. And some part of her was still holding back. Needed to hold back in order to protect herself.
Suddenly, Noah sat back on his heels. “I need my tongue in you.” He reached for her pajama shorts and yanked them past her hips and off.
Shit. The thought of his mouth between her legs, of opening herself up to Noah in such an intimate way, was a little more than she could handle right now. Even with long-term boyfriends, she’d rarely let them go down on her.
Danica needed to retake control.
When Noah dropped forward again, she grabbed his arm, wrapping her legs around his hips. She had him in closed guard. Danica used a scissor sweep to knock Noah off balance and onto his back.
Now she was straddling his chest, pushing his shoulders down into the floor. This was better. Desire crowded out the fear again.
Noah’s eyes were wide, his mouth open. “That was, by far, the sexiest thing I’ve ever seen.”
“I’ve never done it half naked before.”
“Glad I was your first.”
She crawled off of him, wriggling her shirt past her head and tossing it aside. In her suitcase, Danica dug around in the pockets.
“What’re you doing?” he asked.
“Finding a condom.” A few seconds later, she was back, kneeling in front of Noah.
He’d already kicked off his pants, and he was gripping his erection.
Danica swallowed. Noah was naked on her bedroom floor, dick in hand, eager and ready for her. It still felt like she was dreaming, but this was a far nicer dream than her last one.
Noah took the condom. “You’re ready? I thought we’d keep going with the foreplay.”
“I think twelve years is enough foreplay.”
He opened the wrapper and rolled the condom on. Immediately, she swung her leg over him, thinking of the way she’d straddled his motorcycle. The power she’d felt beneath her.
His hands went to her hips, and they both gasped as she sank down, filling herself with his cock.
Noah’s thick shaft was inside of her, stretching her, something she’d fantasized about a thousand times before.
And even in the dark, on the cold floor, the reality was so much better.
He squeezed her ass, then reached up to cup her breasts. Her hands landed on his pecs. Noah’s hips moved as she started to rock. She was so wet, sliding against him.
“Kiss me,” he whispered. But instead of waiting, Noah put a hand to her neck and pulled her mouth to his.
She was on top, but Noah was still trying to direct this, and she actually didn’t mind. She liked seeing the aggressive side of him. Just so long as she felt like she had the upper hand.
Her legs opened wider as she leaned forward, searching for just the right angle. Danica scratched her nails through his chest hair and along the ridges of his abs. She looked down at their bodies, but they were all shadows and faint lines, like a charcoal sketch.
The feeling of him inside her, though. It was bright color and heat. Vivid. She’d never felt so alive.
His hips thrust upwards, harder and faster.
She tipped her head back and let out a feral groan.
Noah’s hands were everywhere. On her stomach and gripping her neck and in her hair.
She was sweating and panting and so close to tipping over the edge.
“Dani,” he moaned, and that was all it took. She cried out as her body convulsed. She felt when he started to come, too, the pulsing of his cock adding to the moment and the sensation.
They rode out their orgasms together, foreheads touching, sharing each other’s air.
His eyes were shining in the faint light. It was so dark she couldn’t see the green of his irises, and she missed that.
“Hi,” he said.
“Hi.”
“I swear I usually last longer. Next time I want to worship you with my tongue. I didn’t get to taste you nearly enough.”
Next time.
He sat up to kiss her shoulder. “You tasted so fucking good I could bottle you and drink it.”
Her skin flushed and prickled. She loved when he talked like that, and it also made her feel like she was falling down that hillside again. Careening toward something she couldn’t see.
And now, the thinking was starting.
Of course, she’d been thinking enough to get a condom. Thinking enough to stay in charge. So maybe she’d known exactly what she was doing and had figured she could still keep her heart out of it. Flirting with danger but staying just on this side of safety.
But she hadn’t been thinking about after.
She’d wanted Noah for so long, but now what? What was she supposed to do with the ache in her chest that had, somehow, only gotten worse?
Noah lay back against the floor, resting his hands against her thighs. His teeth were pale in the low light as he smiled.
“I should probably…move,” she said.
“I’m not rushing you. Except, at some point I need to take care of the condom.”
“Um. Yeah, of course.” She crawled off of him, feeling impossibly awkward.
Noah went to the bathroom, then came back. “You’re freaking out.”
“I’m not.”
“You don’t regret it, do you?”
“Of course I don’t.” Danica pushed back the covers and lay down in the bed. It seemed strange to put her pajamas back on at this point.
“Can I sleep in there with you? Or am I still relegated to the floor. Should I go down to the staff wing?”
“Stop. You can sleep here.” She scooted over to make room on the mattress.
Still naked, Noah lay down next to her and pulled her to him. His skin was smooth and warm, his body firm. She wanted to spread herself over him, kissing him and caressing him until he was hard again. So they could get tangled up together for a second time, and a third, as if this never had to end.
Which was exactly the reason that tonight had been a mistake.