Chapter 25
The next few months of my pregnancy past by like the blink of an eye. Physically I didn't see much a difference because I just started to have a belly and I was only 4 months pregnant. I still felt the same as before. Luckily I vomited less but I was a lot more tired whenever I came home.
One time Xander was working late and I waited for him to come home which he insisted before that I should go to bed instead of waiting up for him.
Being stubborn as I am, I stayed on the couch until I passed out and the next morning I woke up in bed with Xander.
When he got up he told me I must have fallen asleep and made me promise that I shouldn't wait for him but I told him he would do the same if it were me coming home late. That ended the conversation that day.
Today I'm about 20 weeks along and it's the morning of another doctor's appointment but this one is much more important than any other appointment.
This is the visit where we get to know the gender of our baby.
Xander says he doesn't care whether it's a boy or a girl just as long as it's a healthy baby.
I for one think he would secretly want a boy just because he would have someone to look up to.
As for me, I don't have any preference for the gender of the baby. I'm just happy to carry Xander's child.
Inside the check-up room, we're anxiously waiting for the doctor for what seems like forever.
The morning of this appointment Xander was more anxious than I.
He woke up earlier than me and kept bugging me to hurry up while I was getting dressed.
I told him to be patient but after he kept asking if I was ready I was starting to lose my patience with him.
I knew he was anxious about this appointment.
If I remember correctly Xander's first child was carried up to 3 months until Olivia's addiction took over.
I knew Xander never got to know the gender because of what happened with Olivia so I don't blame him for pestering me.
When I finished getting ready I quickly ate something before Xander asks if I'm ready for like the 15th time this morning.
Back in the check-up room, the doctor enters and begins apologizing for being late before checking up on me.
"Well everything seems well but I do suggest you get more sleep." Xander and I look at each other.
"Thank you, I told her that she should be getting more rest," Xanders says and I roll my eyes in annoyance.
Lately, Xander has been a little controlling with me.
First, he's been putting me on a diet even though I'm kind of already on one because of the restrictions I was given by the doctor.
He also keeps pestering me to get more sleep since I started working on another deal.
It has been annoying but Dr. Blanchard smiles at my annoyance.
"Let's get started on your ultrasound." She says shaking my thoughts.
I get up on the bed and lift my shirt so she can squirt the gel over my stomach before she begins placing the medical instrument.
She keeps moving it over my stomach until she notices on the screen a small grey looking figure. The doctor takes down some notes.
"Over here is the head and here is the body," She says while pointing at the screen. Xander looks at the monitor and I can see a small smile play on his lips. "Would you two like to know the gender?" Dr. Blanchard asks.
"Yes," We say in unison. Xander and I have discussed whether we wanted to know if the baby were a boy or a girl. We kept going back and forth but in the end, we decided that we wanted to know.
"Okay," The doctor says. ", You two are having a girl." Xander and I look at each other for a moment. I smile at him as Xander kisses my forehead and continues to look at the screen.
After the doctor is done cleaning me up from the gel and has everything she needs on my checkup, we both schedule our following appointment. On the drive back to the apartment I noticed that Xander was quiet when we were told the gender of our baby. It's starting to make me worried.
"Are you disappointed that it was a girl?" Before my mind can catch up with what I am saying I blurt out my question.
"No, I'm not." He says while driving, "I'm happy that I'll be having another girl in my life." He says.
"Then why were you so quiet at the end of our appointment?" I want him to explain before I assume anything.
"I was quiet because everything seems to be real now." He says.
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"You and the baby. I never thought I would ever be where I am with you."
This has always been on my mind. The fact that I'm going to be carrying Xander's child and loving him is something that I'm proud of.
I guess I'm selfish for thinking that Olivia doesn't get to be the one to carry Xander's child or for any reason have true feelings for Xander.
"It's starting to get real for me as it is for you. I never thought I would be with you and be pregnant." He and I both chuckle at my disbelief. "No really, I mean it." After everything we have been through, I'm still trying to wrap my head around being pregnant.
The next day Alizah and Trina both visit me at Xander's place while he is at Nick's office.
Lately, the three of us have been seeing each other more often.
I introduced Trina to Alizah a couple of months ago.
When the two met they instantly became friends which I was thankful for because I had hoped they would.
This Saturday afternoon we're having our usual lunch inside the dining room of Xander's penthouse.
"So how was your doctor's visit?" Alizah asks.
"It went well, we also got to know the gender of the baby," I say.
"What is it?" Trina asks while dipping into her dessert. I envy that she gets to eat her dessert, unlike some people. I shake the thought and continue to answer Trina.
"It's a girl," I say with a smile.
"No wonder! My mother told me once that if you're having morning sickness all the time then you must be carrying a girl." Alizah says as we all burst into laughter.
"Do you have any ideas for names now that you know?" Trina asks after we catch our breaths from laughing earlier. I shake my head.
"No, Xander and I haven't decided on a name yet. I don't have any ideas but I'm open to suggestions." I should discuss this with Xander when he and I get the chance.
"Well whatever you'll name her will be a wonderful name," Alizah says.
"Have you thought about having a baby shower?" Trina asks while changing the subject.
"No, I haven't thought about having one." I really haven't because I want to keep this pregnancy a secret from the public and most importantly from Olivia.
"You should have one, Trina and I can plan it here or at my place," Alizah suggests.
"I don't know," I'm unsure of the suggestion.
"Come on Nat, we can plan it and all you have to do is show up," Trina says.
"Fine, if I say yes, then can I have it as a private party?" I request.
"Of course, we'll keep it as private as possible. You don't have to worry about anything." Alizah promises. I'm thankful for having two friends that understand.
When the girls leave it's still early so I decided to take a shower and get some reading done for work.
This week I have a large deal and a presentation that I need to put all of my energy into.
Just as I'm finishing I hear the front door open.
I close my laptop and walk out of the library to meet Xander.
"Hey," I say as I approach him.
"Hey, how are you?" Xander asks after he pulls me into a quick kiss.
"Good now that you're here. I'm just getting some work done." I confess.
"You know you shouldn't be working so hard especially on a Saturday." He says.
"I've told you this is a big deal I might be landing." I remind him.
"I know but just don't worry so much after all you're carrying our child." He says with a smile.
"That reminds me that Alizah and Trina were here earlier. They decide that they wanted to organize a baby shower for me." I say.
"That sounds like something my sister would do," Xander says.
"Also they plan on keeping it private for our benefit," I say.
"Good, the final divorce settlement should be ready this week." He explains. I'm thankful for Nick's help with Xander's divorce settlement. I just hope Olivia signs as soon as the papers are present. The sooner the divorce is done the sooner Xander will be free from his marriage.
"Well, I hope it all goes well." I really do hope it does. I can't imagine how he is feeling when he'll give the papers to her and keep all of this away from his parents.
"Me too, why don't we get something to eat? I've been at Nicks's office for too long."
He says and I agree. That evening I feel a sense of hope.
It's been some time since Xander and Nick have been working on the divorce settlement.
I'm trying to stay patient but inside I'm not.
Part of me is growing impatient because our child is growing more and more each day.
I just hope that this is all over soon after I give birth to our baby girl.