Chapter 11
I leave him sitting there, even though I wish with everything I have that my heart was whole. That it hadn’t been shattered into a million tiny pieces and left me broken.
I hate being broken.
I would love more than anything to be carefree like Sadie and take this guy up on his offer. To leave the hotel for a few hours and find out what it feels like … to kiss his perfect mouth.
I thought he was handsome before he smiled and then when he did smile … I felt like I’d been given a reprieve from my brokenness. I fell wildly in lust with the man.
That dark smile changed me. It made me wonder about things I’ve never wondered about before. What a bigger life would feel like. What it would feel like to fall in love.
I’ve never seen such a beautiful human being before.
He could have been a movie star or one of those perfectly-built people you see on magazine covers.
His eyes were blue with green around the rims. You could see the colors of them even in the dimly lit bar.
He’s tan. His dark hair flicked out from under his baseball cap against his neck sort of romantically.
He had tattoos on his muscular chest where it was open at the front. He even had some on his hands.
His hands.
Who knew a man’s hands could be so appealing?
I found myself wondering how strong their grip is. What it would feel like to have those tanned, strong-looking hands … touching me.
My broken heart is beating faster now. I’m sneaking down the back hallway, to my secret room.
God. He’s following me.
He touches everything with his dark magic. The rooms aren’t so dimly lit now, there are lamps casting a sultry golden glow. The old furniture is back and things are shiny again. Glittering more brightly, like they did before the dusty veneer of sadness coated the hotel and everything in it.
Including me.
But I’m not sad now.
He’s here, in my room with me.
He’s touching me with those strong, tattooed hands.
There.
Oh.
Oh.
His magic feels more beautiful than anything ever has. Licks of wild pleasure build and grow and bloom and overflow, until the rapture overwhelms me and I fall fall fall.