23. Henley
HENLEY
Reality came back slowly and for a moment the familiar weight pinning me down on the bed had me imagining my more interesting murder kitty lying on me. It wasn’t until I tried to move and he did that wonderful rumbling purr that my brain caught up with the situation.
Blaine.
My mate was shifted and stretched diagonally out over me with the front of his body on my bare chest and the rest of him down my legs and on the bed. He looked perfectly content, eyes closed and his nose almost twitching to take in my scent.
My scents…because there seemed to be a variety of them based on what he’d said.
To me that meant there was no way he didn’t understand how much I liked his current position, so I ignored it and focused on snuggling with my mate.
Yep. We were just going to call it snuggling, so I closed my eyes again and started petting his back paw with my hand since it was the only part I could move.
Just snuggling with my mate.
Blaine must’ve realized I wasn’t going to put up a fuss or be ridiculous because his purr got deeper and sent something like pleasure vibrating through me. It was the most peaceful I’d felt in days and not just because my mate had given me an amazing orgasm.
I was hoping I could return the favor soon, but for the time being, I just let his weight and the low vibrations settle something in me.
“I didn’t realize how stressed I felt until it was gone.” I probably should have but it snuck up on me and kept getting worse. “It started out small like just a bit of anxiety about the future.”
Blaine lifted his head and licked my cheek before settling back on top of me. The familiar gesture made me smile and made me realize how long it’d been since he’d shifted. “This was a good idea.”
For a variety of reasons.
“The negative feelings just kept getting stronger. I wasn’t consciously trying to hide it from you.
I think…it just felt unreasonable and like it would be stupid to complain about.
Then just the idea of leaving the trailer felt terrible.
” There was no rational way to tell a new partner that hiding in the house and never leaving sounded like a wonderful plan.
His huff said he wouldn’t agree with that, so keeping it to myself felt like the best idea.
“I promise if I start feeling unreasonable again I will tell you first thing. I’m also going to tell you when I start getting upset or nervous even if it feels like there is a perfectly good reason for the emotion. ”
The low grumbling sound he let out made me sigh. “Fine. There is nothing wrong with having emotions about something or a situation. They’re all reasonable.”
We’d listened to too many podcasts.
How he made a huff sound self-satisfied I’d never know.
“I didn’t think mate stuff would affect me like that because…well…human.” That was clearly an incorrect assumption on both our parts. “I would’ve put the feelings in the reasonable category if I’d thought it would alter my emotions somehow.
Another lick.
That time it was softer and came with a low whine…clearly an apology.
“You didn’t do anything wrong either. This was a learning experience and we’ll both make changes going forward.” He grumbled again, low with more of a frustrated quality to it. “You’d have said something earlier if I was honest about how I was feeling.”
The way he turned his head away from me said he wasn’t satisfied with that response, and in this form, Blaine seemed more inclined to show it.
My sexy murder kitty was slightly dramatic with his emotions more on the surface, so I kept stroking the part of his leg that I could reach and made a quiet pleased sound.
“I also didn’t give you much to go on because I kept putting off some stuff. ”
I hadn’t made it easy for him, so he couldn’t take the blame for this. “You were trying to figure out the balance of when to push and when to let me process. That’s hard for a Dom in a new relationship, which I’m sure you saw someone mention online.”
With some monster groups I might’ve been able to say my mate was psychic, but for the moment, mine could only read my emotions and scent changes.
“You’re adapting to a new mate, a new type of relationship, and a new reality.
I think you’re going to give my sexy murder kitty a break and be nice to him.
” That got a laugh from him, the chuffing sound making me smile.
“Him being too patient with his slightly neurotic mate was not a bad decision.”
It’d been more reasonable than mine, that was for sure.
I stopped lecturing him when he turned back to me and nuzzled his face against mine. “You did a good job. I’m feeling much better.”
That didn’t mean I wouldn’t make more ridiculous decisions but they’d be new and different ones.
“I do still like the idea of traveling even if I’m not being slightly manic about it.” Being able to look at it more rationally made that feel like that was the best description I could give. “And I will understand completely if I give off weird energy and you question how I’m feeling.”
Hmm.
“The first few times you do it. Once we get past five in the next month, then I might roll my eyes.” That got another laugh out of him and earned me another happy lick, but based on the way he settled back over me, he wasn’t going anywhere.
“And as you learned earlier…I, um…I like spankings, so I don’t want us to use that as a punishment or consequence. ”
He wouldn’t like that either.
As he grumbled, I stretched up and kissed the side of his head. “That means I’m going to do my best to make good choices, so I get rewards and don’t stress us both out.”
When that got me another lick, I smiled and closed my eyes, letting the heavy feeling of his body trapping mine soak into me. All it took was for me to stop fighting the happy feelings it was giving me to have them rushing back, and Blaine’s rumbling exhale said he’d noticed.
“I don’t know why I like being trapped but I do.
” My childhood was a mess, so I wasn’t going to try to pin it down.
“I can give myself a lighter version of the feeling by restraining myself in some way, but that’s not always safe, so I don’t try to do it deliberately.
The net thing was honestly an accident.”
Somehow.
“I just haven’t been able to safely explore it enough to be completely comfortable talking about it with someone in person.
” I’d tried but everyone’s first question was always why, and I wasn’t going to analyze myself like that.
“I’m better online because of that distance and not having to face someone.
I’m also better at talking about it when my own emotions aren’t involved. ”
And as new as everything was with Blaine, my emotions were very involved and hard to sort through.
His lick said he probably understood that.
“I also wasn’t sure how to talk about it without the BDSM stuff possibly being confusing.
I didn’t want you to think there was anything wrong with me.
It doesn’t always come across right to people who’ve never heard of it before.
” I didn’t think anything I was into fell into the deeper end of BDSM but telling someone I was looking for a guy who would tie me up and dominate me didn’t always go over well.
Rumbling low, Blaine shifted to lay more of his body down mine, showing me that he didn’t have an issue with restraining me. I couldn’t decide if I wanted to laugh or tell him how sweet he was, but either way, he turned off my brain a little more.
I loved the floaty feeling it could give me, but having Blaine be the one to do it made it even better.
This form just came with less naughty fantasies associated with it.
I’d figure out how to bring that up eventually, but for the moment, I closed my eyes and focused on just being with him, completely restrained.
He was heavy enough in this form that I wasn’t going to move until he let me.
It was an amazing, all-encompassing control that had the rest of the world going fuzzy again. I found myself letting out a slow breath and wrapping myself in the wonderful feelings in a way I hadn’t been able to do for a very long time.
“I’m…” Yes. I was something. “I think the word is relaxed, but better. I’m not…I’m not sure if I can explain it.”
Ha.
Got it out.
Blaine’s wonderful rumbling made it even better as the sensations washed through me.
With the mix of wearing pants but being held down, my cock really didn’t know what we were doing.
But he stayed half-interested as my mate snuggled with me, though, because he liked butting into all kinds of things.
I just ignored him because he didn’t need attention at the moment, but I couldn’t help imagining Blaine in his other form. This one liked the attention petting him was getting, but my mind kept filling in other ways that I could please his human form.
That definitely had my cock back to wondering what we were doing, and Blaine’s chuffing laugh said he could tell what direction my thoughts had taken. But nothing in his reactions said he had an issue with it, so I just let my imagination play as he kept me snuggled against him.
Besides, it was his fault I could bring up such a clear picture of his naked body, so I wasn’t going to worry about getting turned on by it.
Especially since he’d done his best to give me a variety of material to work from. Yeah, all that posing in the shower hadn’t gone unnoticed, but it’d taken me a little while to realize my vanilla-looking mate thoroughly enjoyed teasing me.
He also enjoyed making sure I was completely relaxed because my live weighted blanket didn’t budge even as I alternated between dozing and fantasizing.
Part of me wondered what it would’ve been like to have joined him in the shower, but a bigger piece kept coming back to being restrained and controlled.
My sexy mate liked studying and had taken to internet research like he’d been born with access to it.
Sure, he had a lot of questions and had a hard time wrapping his mind around how crazy the world had gotten, but he was fascinated with stories of gay couples being together for years and slightly confused by pictures of Pride.
And possibly horrified.
It was hard to tell because he’d stopped talking at that point and had gone back to researching other things on his curious list.
Everything from recent history to the DC comic universe was on it, but as far as I could tell, the one thing it didn’t contain was anything about his own family.
But that wasn’t what either of us wanted to think about now, so I pushed it to the back of my mind again and focused on his weight and the way his rumbling purr had started back up. It chased every other thought away until I was back to relaxed and telling my dick to behave.
It didn’t…or maybe couldn’t.
I’d just spent too many days without having the privacy to play with myself and it’d all led up to my small breakdown and fabulous orgasm. It was so good I couldn’t help wondering how it would’ve been if I hadn’t been mid-meltdown.
There was no way to tell how long we spent napping and cuddling, but as my mind wandered back to him in the shower, my mate finally stood up on all fours and braced himself over me. “Hey.”
Suddenly being able to move felt weird, but I reached up and ran my hands over his head and neck. “Thank you for taking care of me.”
Something in the air started to tingle but I didn’t look away this time as I rested my hands on the bed.
Magic was still weird but this time there was a faint glow that wasn’t as overwhelming and magic almost seemed to whirl around him as Blaine was just suddenly human-looking.
Naked and human-looking.
Naked, human-looking, and hard…braced over me.
What had I been saying?
“You really are magic.” Hmm, maybe that hadn’t been what I was saying. “Part of my brain wants to just classify you as another species like we would for regular science stuff, but that’s not it at all. Well, maybe that’s part of it.”
Oh.
As I opened my mouth to apologize, because that might’ve been rude, Blaine lowered his body until I was stuck under my naked mate.
It was very different than his shifted mate form and it made my cock even more confused than it had been before. Human form mate meant I could ogle him but my dick still had to behave because he’d already gotten lots of attention.
I was hoping it was Blaine’s turn because his smirk said he was feeling very confident about something…possibly his growing dominant side. “You’ve mated to a shifter, so I’m pretty sure that makes you magic too.”
Oh.
That was a topic I’d have to think about later.
“I’m glad you’re feeling better.” Bracing himself on one forearm, he ran his other hand over my head making me think about purring that time. “I’m sorry I didn’t think about how the mating could affect you.”
Wrapping my arms around his neck, I shook my head. “No one is at fault. We’re just going to learn from it.”
I was serious about that and didn’t want it hanging over us forever.
Blaine must’ve seen that on my face because his smile peeked out again. “Alright.”
Keeping my hands from wandering too much, I ran my fingers through his hair and down his neck. “I just want to think about how good you made me feel and how nice it was to wake up with my mate as a very interesting blanket.”
That smirk was dangerous.
“I don’t know…with how you react, I don’t think blanket is the right word.
” He chuckled as my face heated, but I didn’t hide from the discussion that time.
I just hid my face against his arm so I didn’t have to look at him as he teased me about it.
“We’re going to have to think of a more appropriate word for something that makes my mate so turned on. ”
Ugh.
Laughing quietly, Blaine kissed my forehead. “It makes you smell so good and all I want to do is rub myself over you when you get that relaxed and aroused.”
Well, at least it was an activity we both enjoyed.
“Um, I think…I need to think about this actually…but we don’t…I mean…do you…”
Oh, this was more awkward out loud than it’d sounded in my head.
“Never mind.” I sighed as he snickered.
“Did you have a question, my curious mate?” He was thoroughly enjoying torturing me. “I’ll answer anything you want to know.”
That was part of the problem.
“Nope. No questions. I’m good.” Changing my mind meant I wasn’t lying to him. “I’m going to get distracted, though, if you stay…like this.”
Something about the rumbling sound felt sexy this time and almost like a warning. It went right to my dick and had him asking again what the fuck was going on.
He was getting harder to ignore, mostly because he had a friend who wanted to play as well.
Yeah, I wanted to know what was going on too.