Chapter 3
Chapter
Three
The compound wakes at dusk. I’ve been up with the daylight, and I spend the first ten minutes of everyone else’s morning deciding I’m not afraid, which is how I always know I am.
Maximus is already up, already dressed, already still. He watches me lace my boots and does not ask if I’m sure. He stopped asking. Smart man.
“The four today,” I say. “Then Simone. Then we move.”
The drag is quiet this evening. Under my navel, where the two of them live, there’s nothing but the ordinary weight I’ve been calling the pregnancy and now know to call something else. Behave. The drag doesn’t answer.
Marcellus, Julian, and Mira are already in the conference room when we come in. Maximus told them to be here.
I don’t sit. I put my hands flat on the back of a chair, and I say it plain, how I’d want it told to me.
“I’m pregnant. Twins.”
Nobody moves. Nobody says anything. The warmer hums somewhere down the hall.
The conference room is cold. It’s always cold, the ventilation running too hard for a room that was never designed for conversations like this one, and the overhead lights are the flat institutional white, and under them three people who have risked their lives on my word are staring at me, and for once none of them has anything to say.
Mira opens her mouth and closes it without a word. Her hand finds the back of the chair in front of her.
Marcellus’s eyes drop to my middle and come back up. Julian doesn’t move at all. Nobody asks if I’m sure. Nobody asks how. All three of them are looking at me with the same look. I wore it myself, in Elena’s exam room.
It’s Julian who finds words first.
“Vampires don’t conceive.” Flat. “The species isn’t alive. There is no mechanism. There has never once been a…”
“I know,” I say. “I’ve been an anomaly since Konstantin’s table.
Maximus and I have both been one since the bond.
No other vampire on earth has a heartbeat, Julian.
You’ve heard ours. You’ve felt the heat coming off me.
You rewrote our defense models when he started walking in daylight. This is just the newest rule to go.”
He doesn’t argue.
Then I give them the rest.
“Last night something went through me that wasn’t mine.
It reached into Maximus while he was lying next to me and started mapping how to take him apart, and I hauled it back.
Barely.” My hands stay flat on the chair.
“The twins have telekinesis of their own. It isn’t mine and it doesn’t need mine.
It’s stronger than mine, and the only road it has into the world is through me, up the same channels my gift uses.
It moves when it wants to. If it surges in the field, it grabs whatever’s nearest before I’ve chosen anything, and in a live assault, whatever’s nearest could be any of you standing three feet from me. ”
The second silence is longer than the first.
Marcellus breaks it. His jaw tightens, a fraction, gone before it finishes.
“You’re carrying the only children our kind has ever made into a live assault.”
“I am.”
“I’d pull any other asset off the roster for less.” He holds my eyes while he says it, level, no apology in it. He owes me the objection, and I’d think less of him without it.
“Any other asset doesn’t open the north entrance.
And any other asset doesn’t carry this wherever she sleeps.
” I keep my voice even. It costs. “This doesn’t stay home when I do, Marcellus.
It’s in the room with whoever’s near me, tonight and every night, until we learn it.
At least in the field it’s pointed at the enemy.
At least in the field, you’re running the floor. ”
He looks at me a moment longer. Then he nods once, and the objection is over.
“How long do you have between the warning and the event.”
“There isn’t a warning. It just happens.”
“Then I plan for it happening with no warning.” His eyes leave me for the middle distance, the look he gets over maps.
“If you lose it mid-assault, the floor moves away from you, not toward you. Nobody runs to help. They clear the blast and let you pull it back. You’re the only one who can.
I’ll brief it as a containment protocol without naming you. The team will think it’s standard.”
He looks at me again, and the field goes out of his face, and for one second what’s left is the man who turned Elena rather than lose her. “You should have told us the night it happened.”
“I’m telling you now.”
“You’re telling us now.” He takes the answer and doesn’t spend another second on it.
Julian hasn’t said anything since the rule broke.
He’s leaning against the map table, arms crossed, the black patch over his left eye, the skin at his temple pink where vampire healing never finished burning the witch-magic out, the strike he took standing between it and me.
His good eye is on me the whole time, steady.
Then his arms uncross.
“Twins,” he says finally. The accent goes soft on it.
“Twins.” He scrubs a hand down his face, and when he drops it the wariness is gone, and what’s underneath is the fierce thing beneath all that caution, the one I’ve only seen a handful of times.
“I’m pleased for you. I’m terrified for you.
With me it’s the same feeling, you’ll have noticed by now.
” A beat. “And the wee monsters are already trying to take their father apart. No question whose they are.”
“Julian.”
“I route the assault so a misfire from you doesn’t take the team with it.
Marcellus has the contingency, I’ll have the geometry.
” He points a finger at Maximus without looking at him.
“And you’ll tell me the next time there’s a thing I’m not being told.
You’re both bad about that. It’s the one flaw in the pair of you. ”
Maximus says nothing. Julian’s eye stays on him a half second longer than the joke needs, and then he moves on. I mark the silence too, a small wrongness I don’t have time to chase.
Mira has been watching without moving. She taught me to handle this power one freezing morning at a time until I could live with what Konstantin put in me. So when I get to where it comes from, below the navel, her whole face sharpens into a look I’ve rarely seen on her.
“From them,” she says. “Not routed through your training. Originating below it.”
“That’s the guess.”
“It’s the right guess.” Her focus shifts past me, somewhere I can’t follow.
“What I trained sits where I can reach it. This doesn’t.
This is older than your modifications, older than anything Konstantin built.
It wasn’t built at all. It grew. And grown things don’t take a lesson.
” She comes back to me, and the intensity in her face breaks into a grin that is almost frightening.
“A pair of them. Doing this. Months before they’re even born.
” The grin wins. “They’re going to be a nightmare. I cannot wait.”
“That’s not the comfort you think it is.”
“You married into this family. Comfort is my uncle’s job.” But her hand comes to my arm, and the touch is gentle, which the rest of her rarely is. “We’ll learn them. Same as we learned you. One cold morning at a time.”
Three of them now, and every one took the news like I needed them to. That’s the whole trick of these people. Give them a thing that should break them and they hand you back a plan.
Earned every one of them. Don’t forget that.
Seraphina I go to alone, in the room at the east end of the residence, where what she does needs quiet and where I want her read more than I want anyone’s.
She’s sitting when I come in. The room is bare except for a low table, two chairs, and the scent of something herbal that Seraphina burns when she works.
The window faces east. She chose this room because the light comes in clean in the morning and magic reads easier in clean light, and I’ve never asked how she knows that and she’s never explained.
She doesn’t get up. She watches me cross the room with those deep silver eyes that look like they’re reading the thing under the thing you’re saying, and the soft, unsurprised look she gives me should have warned me how this was going to go.
“Last night there was a surge,” I say. “Something reached for Maximus through me. It mapped him. It nearly pulled. It wasn’t my gift. It came from lower, and the reason it came from lower is that I’m…”
She lifts one hand, palm out, gentle.
“Celeste,” she says. “I know.”
The two words land and the air shifts, the ward-reading on this room settling around a fact instead of a question. She watches me absorb it, and she doesn’t rush me.
“I’ve had my magic on you every twelve hours since Elena asked me to read what her instruments couldn’t.
” Her voice is low and even and warm in a register she keeps for almost no one.
“I’ve felt them since nearly the start. Two hearts, folded inside yours, hidden in the frequency so close that anyone listening hears one rhythm and never thinks to count again.
I knew what I was feeling the third time I felt it.
” She tips her head. “I have been waiting for you to tell me. Some things a person has to hand you. They don’t count if you reach in and take them. ”
There’s a pressure behind my eyes I do not have time for tonight.
“You never said anything,” I manage.
“It wasn’t mine to say. It was yours to keep until you set it down.
” She rises then, and crosses to me, and takes both my hands in hers.
“I’m glad you set it down tonight. Now I can stop pretending the anomaly is a mystery and start being useful.
A pair of them, this strong, this early.
There’s old magic moving through you, and I have theories, and we’ll test every one of them when you come home.
” A pause, and the warmth deepens until it nearly takes the legs out from under me.
“Congratulations. I’ve wanted to say it for weeks. ”
Not tonight. You can fall apart after we win.