Chapter Five
Five
He hadn’t been ready to tell her goodbye tonight. The whole time he’d cruised down the driveway he’d watched her house in the rearview mirror, fighting the urge to turn around.
If he let himself, Tony could envision the scene clearly.
He’d stop sharply, his tires spewing dirt and gravel as he spun around and gunned his engine.
When he pulled up at her back porch, she’d be there throwing open the door, and she’d run to him just as he stepped out of the truck.
He’d pick her up in his arms and carry her back into her house, right up to her bedroom.
They wouldn’t say a word to each other; they wouldn’t need to.
They’d simply make love. And it would be amazing.
A nice image, he had to admit. But one that wouldn’t happen.
Instead, he drove the pickup onto the county road toward his own ranch.
He couldn’t help but feel tense, and not just sexually. He’d been looking forward to this night with Lindsay, and to say it hadn’t ended the way he’d hoped would be an understatement. But she was right. They had no future. And Lindsay wasn’t the type of woman to have an affair without a future.
And she was too serious, just as she said.
Not to mention the whole business with her wanting to see his water pumps. Damn, she still didn’t believe that he hadn’t installed bigger pumps to steal her water. She wanted to see it with her own two eyes. Because he was a Milan, no doubt, and Milans never told the truth!
He banged the palm of his hand on the steering wheel. He needed to forget her.
As he drove along the darkened road, he turned on the radio, but the guy who sang—some guy who’d won one of those ubiquitous TV reality shows—strummed a soulful guitar and sang about the cute filly he was pining for.
Tony didn’t want to hear it. He shut it off.
He had enough of his own problems with his own cute filly. A spirited one, at that.
He had to let out a laugh at the thought of Lindsay knowing he had referred to her as a filly. She’d probably take out her shotgun and fill him with buckshot.
The drive home seemed endless, but by the time he pulled onto the long driveway up to his ranch house, he knew what he had to do.
He had to forget everything about Lindsay Calhoun, starting with last Saturday night.
From the moment he’d seen her in that red dress all the way to tonight.
As sexy, as enticing, as appealing as Lindsay was, she wasn’t the woman for him.
They could never be together. She was commitment with a capital C, and that was one thing he couldn’t—wouldn’t—ever be willing to give.
He entered the house and went up to bed, not even bothering to turn on a light.
She hadn’t bothered to turn on the light.
For some reason, that thought struck her as she woke up. She remembered running up to her room, in the dark, after Tony left, and throwing herself on the bed, sad and uncharacteristically near tears. She thought she’d never sleep tonight, but apparently she had.
She felt beside her and at her feet, but the dogs weren’t in their usual position. Then she remembered. She’d let them out when she got home and then forgotten about them. They’d probably gone over to the bunkhouse for the night.
She sat up, glancing at the clock on her bedside table to see it was after three in the morning. A long, sad howl sent chills down her spine and she ran to the window to look out. Another sad howl filled the night.
Moonlight splashed over open spaces and something moved. Chills ran down her spine again as she saw the wolf standing at the edge of a grove of trees. As she watched, it threw back its head and howled again.
She shivered. For the first time since being on the ranch, she felt alone and didn’t like it.
She wished she had kept the dogs with her and hoped no one at the bunkhouse turned them out, because she didn’t want them tangling with a wolf.
She also hoped no one at the bunkhouse got his gun.
The men were good shots. If they wanted to kill the wolf, they would surely succeed.
She grabbed her phone to call her foreman, thought about it and decided it would be ridiculous to wake him.
When morning came, she would talk to Abe about the four-legged intruder.
Another lonely howl caused a fresh batch of shivers to crawl up her spine. Impulsively, telling herself she shouldn’t, she called the one person she thought of.
She felt silly when Tony answered, and she suddenly wished she hadn’t called him. But she’d awakened him and she had to explain why.
“Sorry, Tony. I know I woke you.”
“Lindsay? Are you okay?” he asked, in a surprisingly clear, alert voice.
“I’m fine, Tony.” Now that she had him on the phone she couldn’t seem to tell him about the wolf. What did she expect him to do about it?
“Okay then, darlin’, what’s on your mind at...3:17 a.m.?”
“I feel really silly now.”
“Lindsay, you didn’t call me in the middle of the night to tell me you feel silly.”
“The wolf/coyote/dog—except it looks like a wolf—is howling near my bedroom. I can see it and the animal sounds hurt.”
“All animals sound hurt when they howl. So? I know you’re a crack shot even with that big .45 you own. Take him out and go back to sleep.”
“A gunshot would wake everyone on the ranch and create an uproar. Anyway, I can’t kill him. Or her. He or she sounds pitiful and eerie, and for the first time since I’ve owned the ranch I don’t like being here alone.”
“I’m coming over.”
“No, Tony. I just wanted to hear your voice. Don’t get up and come over.”
“I can be there in a few minutes.”
“Stay in bed,” she said, hearing another long howl and looking at the animal standing half in the moonlight and half in shadow. “I feel sorry for it. It sounds hurt and lonesome.”
“I’ll be over in a flash. I can really take your mind off the wolf, howls or no howls.”
She smiled and sat back in the chair by the window. “You’re succeeding right now and you just stay home. We’ll both be better off.”
She didn’t want a repeat of the scene they’d endured only hours ago at her back door. Watching him walk away was hard enough then; she couldn’t go through seeing him—and losing him—again.
“That may be true for you, but if I come over, I would definitely be better off.”
Despite herself, she laughed softly. “You make me feel so much better. But I still think you should stay home.”
“Lindsay, I’m already pulling on my jeans.”
“Don’t. I really mean it. I feel better now and I can go back to sleep, and I know you can roll over and go to sleep the minute your head is on the pillow.” She refused to picture him taking off his jeans and getting back into bed, shirtless and sexy.
“Fine,” he said. “The guys will take care of the animal for you and, hereafter, you won’t have to listen to it howl again.”
“I don’t know why, but I feel sorry for it. Unless it kills some of the livestock, I’d hate for them to shoot it.”
“Well, this is a change. You’re usually pretty damn tough and I know you’ve shot plenty of wildlife.”
“Now how would you know that?”
“The guys talk. And I remember a few marksmanship competitions over the years. Come to think of it, you haven’t participated in any in a long time.”
“Nope. It doesn’t seem to matter any longer. When I first got the ranch, I felt I had to prove that I could handle running the place and a few other things. I don’t feel that way any longer.”
“I would think not. Half the ranchers around here call you about their animals.”
“Not really half, but a few have,” she said.
She settled back in the chair to talk, forgetting about everything but the sound of his voice, soothing and smooth as it settled around her in the darkness.
It was an hour later when they finally said goodbye and she went to bed.
That’s when she realized the howls had stopped long ago, but she hadn’t actually noticed when, thanks to Tony.
As the next week passed, Lindsay tried to keep busy and struggled to stop thinking about Tony, but that was impossible.
She heard nothing from him for eight more days, but, instead of forgetting about him—something she once could easily do—she thought about him constantly, to the point where she had been distracted at work.
It was Thursday, in the middle of a hot, dry afternoon, after she’d helped move steers to another pasture, when her phone rang and she saw it was Tony. She pulled her truck off the road into the shade of an oak and opened the windows.
“It’s Tony. I thought it was time to see if you want to come look at the pumps on my water wells.”
She was surprised, to say the least. Even though he’d offered, she’d never really expected him to have her over to his ranch—because she still figured he had installed new and bigger pumps.
She glanced at her watch. “Give me about two hours and I’ll be there.
Tell everyone I’m coming so they don’t send me away if they see me. ”
“Nobody’s going to send you away and my foreman knows I was going to call you. Come on over. See you in two hours,” he said, and ended the connection.
She looked at her phone for seconds, as if she could see Tony. Was he up to some trickery to convince her that he still had his old pumps and had just dug deeper?
She would never tell Tony, but she had already started checking into having her wells dug deeper, and Tony had been right. If she went deeper, there was still water in the aquifer, and when the rains finally came, that depleted water would be replenished and everything would be like it was.
She had already told the men she was headed home, so she started her truck and drove back to her house to shower.
She changed into washed jeans, boots and a short-sleeved blue cotton shirt.
She knew Tony liked her hair down and not fastened, but she was back at home and she didn’t care to change her appearance, so she braided her hair and got her wide-brimmed black hat.