Bottoms Up

Prologue

Honestly? Fuck Luke Shaw

If you would have told me three months ago that I’d be sitting here experiencing the worst pain of my life because of a fucking boy, I would have laughed in your face, straight-up called you an idiot, and maybe kicked your ass for good measure.

You couldn’t have paid me to believe that Luke-Fucking-Shaw and I would ever end up together—let alone that I would want us to—or that we’d have one of the messiest breakups in the history of breakups. But here we are.

Despite how wrong it all went in the end, I’ll be damned if those three months weren’t some of the best days of my thirty-five years on this earth.

I was doomed from the moment he walked into the shop, even if I was too stupid to see it.

But when I finally figured it out, it was like a bombshell went off.

Suddenly, my world was so much brighter.

I knew it in the way he always made me laugh when I was with him and the conversations that were always so easy between us.

I knew it in the quiet moments when he looked at me as if I was the sun that banished the clouds, and his smile would light up every time he saw me.

I knew it because I couldn’t stop smiling every damn time I thought of him.

Now that it’s ending so tragically, I don’t even know how I’m still breathing. God, I didn’t know this could hurt so much. Is it possible for a heart to break from misery? Because it sure as shit feels like that’s what’s happening.

But you know, I wouldn’t trade it for the fucking world. Any of it. Not a damn thing. Not even this.

I love this fucking idiot, and I can’t help but laugh to myself to think that it might be too late for me to tell him.

How tragic is that? This is the part where he’d laugh in my face, and his lips would curl up into that adorable little half-smile that always drove me crazy, and he’d say something along the lines of, “You’re so intense. ”

God, what I wouldn’t give to see that smile again. I don’t care how many fights we might get into or if he decides he never wants to see me again, but this can’t be it. It can’t end like this…

Luke Shaw can’t die before I’ve had the chance to kill him for breaking my heart.