Chapter 27
Twenty-Seven
Riot
Jarek assured me it's not weird to watch Vivian sleep. Maybe if I weren't so completely obsessed with her I wouldn't have agreed. He suggested I try counting her eyelashes to see how many I could get until I was distracted by her lips twitching or the rise and fall of her chest.
It's an interesting challenge, and I've come to realize how hard it is. My top count is twenty-three mainly because I’d rather watch her breathe all day long.
There were moments in captivity when I feared she wouldn't wake up.
The times I couldn't get close enough to check if she was alive are burned into my psyche.
I feel an immense amount of pressure when I'm left alone with her when she's sleeping. Hell, any time. Rationally, it's kind of fucked up because Vivie doesn't need a babysitter and she's almost completely healed, but holy shit is it hard to accept that.
I’m so damn glad she hasn’t had a nightmare during her nap. The guys all left me alone with her an hour ago when it was clear she was out like a light from being knotted to Jarek.
Lying here in the quiet has given me time to think.
It's time for my eye patch to come off, but I’m not sure if I'm ready.
Silas has it marked on the calendar in the kitchen, and I'm hoping everyone forgets.
They said it was just a small slice, but I'm fucking terrified I'll be blind out of that eye.
Would they view me differently then?
I want the entirety of my vision back so when I study the contours of my omega's face, I can see everything. Sometimes looking at her hurts. Like my chest physically fucking aches with the amount of love I have for her.
Kade said that was normal which I appreciated, but it's so damn terrifying. How can someone like me love so much?
I've never had a family or anyone who cared about me. I always thought myself to be incapable of emotional depth, but Vivian is bringing out a whole new side I didn't think existed.
I plan to be the best man I can be for her. That includes avenging her.
"Riot?"
Sucking in a breath, I glance up and away from her naked chest. "I wasn't just staring at your tits I swear. I was watching your breaths to make sure you were okay." Damn it, this looks so bad...
A twinkly giggle comes from her, lighting me up with so much joy I want to squeeze her. Is this what affection aggression is?
Her eyes flit down my bare torso and widen when she sees the tent in my boxers. Shit. "That's what we call an affection erection, Firefly. I swear to fuck I wasn't being a creep. I was just thinking about how much I love you."
Vivian gasps and sits up. Confused, I watch her stare down at me. Before I can ask her what's wrong, she hikes a leg over my hips and straddles me still completely naked.
"I love you too, Riot."
My cock jumps against her wet heat and my heart seizes in my chest. "I—You—Nobody has ever said that to me, Vivian," I croak out. "I love you too."
She nods. "I know. You said it when you were explaining your boner."
Fuck, I did, didn't I? "Well, I'll say it again. I love you."
Vivian smiles and glides her pussy along the silk fabric of my boxers. I have to bite the inside of my cheek so I don't flip her over and rut into her. She's in charge. We may bicker and sass one another, but I'll follow her lead every day for all eternity.
"Need you, Alpha," Vivie whimpers, digging her tiny claws into my chest. "But—" She hesitates.
"What, Firefly? Talk to me." It's a big ask considering the fact that I can barely talk. She's edging me and I'm not sure if she realizes it or not.
Her long auburn waves tickle my stomach, and the twitch of her pointy nose makes me smile. Everything about her is so beautiful and unique.
Vivian takes a stuttering breath and says, "I want you to bond me during my heat in a few days. Not now."
"Why during your heat?" I should just agree and let it go because I can feel the tension increasing in her body the longer she talks. Since I've met her, I believe her ability to speak has increased, but she still gets blocked.
Sparkly blue eyes bore into mine with so much intensity I stop caring about my dick. Whatever my mate is about to tell me is important.
"I've always hated my heats. They’ve just been another thing that controls me. From now on, I want to enjoy it. I want you to give me part of myself back. Lean into the experience and bond me like my omega will beg you too."
I swallow and my fingers spasm on her hips. "Yes. Fuck, yes. I'll do whatever you want as long as you understand that you might not remember it."
"I understand," she whispers and swivels her ass on me. "Fuck me now, Riot. I want your fat alpha knot stretching me."
Fucking hell...I didn't know she liked to talk dirty.
"Hold on," I snarl, and flip her onto her back. Vivian wants us mindless and feral for our bonding, but my first time inside of her is going to be slow and loving.
"I'm not going to fuck you, little Omega. We're going to make love this first time." When she goes to protest, I cut her off. "I know you like it rough and can take whatever I want to give you. Please let me show you I can be gentle and sweet too."
She nods slowly, eyes softening. While she waits, I slip my boxers off and kick them to the side. "Wait," Vivian rushes out. "I want this off."
My stomach flips and sours when her hands reach for my eye patch. I'll give her anything she asks for, though, so I nod and hold my breath. A soft tug and it's gone.
"A small scar," she whispers. I can feel the heat of her finger tracing the line that runs through my eyebrow, eyelid, and partially down my cheek. "Look at me, Riot."
Her plea makes me realize I had closed my eyes for fear I'd never have two functioning eyes again. My teeth turn cold as I blow a breath out right before my world tips upside down.
I don't know who gasps louder, but there's no longer air to fucking breathe. My eyesight is okay, but?—
"It's blue! Your eye is fucking blue with a dark rim around it," Vivian explains with so much awe in her tone it takes some of the fear out of my chest.
She just described her own eye color...So I have one gold eye, one blue?! "Viv—" I cough and twist to my side so I can see more than just her face. "Vivian... I see you. I don't just mean you, but your-your aura? Is that what the greenish-blue hue floating around is?"
Tears fill my omega's eyes, and she nods mutely.
"Firefly," I mutter and cradle her cheek in my palm. "I see your bond. Like swirling turquoise fog." Vivian's soul covers maybe a fifth of my overall vision at a time, but it's a constant swirl. Only when I blink or close my eyes does it go away.
"I have to be inside you," I growl. The intensity of experiencing almost all of my mate is driving me to take more. I need my omega.
"Yes, Alpha," Vivian whispers, voice wobbly and temples streaked with tears.
Rolling back over her petite form, I easily slip my cock between her folds. There's absolutely no resistance as I push in, only a warm fucking hug that quickly feels like my dick is being strangled in the best of ways.
Thank fuck for the routine tests at the hospital that gave us the peace of mind to forgo protection.
"You are...my home," I whisper, holding eye contact with her.
She's staring at the one blue eye in awe. Can she feel how our connection deepened once she removed the patch? It's like knowing that no matter where I go, she'll always be my focus. In my line of sight, no matter what.
Her walls contract sucking me in further. Unable to control myself for a moment, I slam into her and groan when her juices soak my balls as they slap against her ass.
"I need you to come. I'm so sorry, Firefly, but this is too good." The pressure building in my groin and watching the way she bares her throat to me is going to make me lose it way faster than I wanted.
The only time I break eye contact is to watch her tits bounce. "Can I make you come if I suck on these pretty little nipples? That would make me happy, Omega," I add, wondering if I'll have sway over what her body can do for me if I tell her I want it to since our bond isn’t complete yet.
A low whine spills from her parted lips, drawing me in like a moth to a flame. A different idea sparks. Needing something a little kinkier than this, I snap my hips forward, slam my knot all the way into her tight pussy, and grab her jaw.
Without much thought, only pure primal instinct to dirty my girl up, I lick a wet line across her cheek and pause only to tell her to stick her tongue out.
She obeys without hesitation, allowing me to suck on it like I plan to do to our mates’ cocks soon.
The scream that tears from her throat drowns out my groan as I spill my cum inside her cunt.
"Mmm, dirty girl," I groan and press my lips to hers. Our sloppy kiss slowly turns sweet and sleepy as we come down from our peaks.
"Love you, dirty Alpha," Vivian says with a ton of teasing sass.
Rolling, I take her with me since my knot is acting like it's here to stay. I rain a few slaps down on her toasty ass and smirk when she screeches with indignation. Her aura zips around in agitated movements before I close my eyes. "Love you too. Now sleep."
Her little huff doesn't hold the usual brattiness it does because in the next moment, a soft snore warms my chest.
With my omega sleeping on my knot, I don't think I could get much happier. I can make us safer though.