14. Kai
Kai
I got as far away as I could from my alphas without leaving the stupid fucking party.
The whole place was filled with tightass bitches with their sticks up their skinny asses, anyway. They were all fucking cardboard cutouts of each other, and who even wants to be around that shit?
I knew Cas had stuck some guys on me to keep me ‘safe’ instead of doing it himself, but I got away from them. I put up with him when he went fully rogue, but he couldn’t even handle a bit of drunk screaming from his omega?
Pussy.
I gave a dull laugh that barely bounced off the marble walls of the arbour that was too fancy for its own good.
I’d been to their stupid townhouse enough to know the best hiding spots. No one bothered coming somewhere like this when it was chucking buckets. Most people just used it for fucking.
The arbour was all bloody pseudo-Roman decor with just enough sprinklings of modernity in the detailed carvings in the alcoves to make all the rich fucks happy.
I glared at the green glass of the large bottle of champagne wedged between my spread thighs. I’d been squeezing it hard for too long, hoping it would crack under my grip and just fucking slice me up so I didn’t have to feel Sin’s pleasure as he fucked another omega.
It was easier to cut out my alphas and numb the bond when I was drunk. And I could usually escape from them, apart from when they were experiencing intense emotions. Like the love pouring from Sin as he treasured Brandy how I’d wanted to be treated.
I swallowed down my pathetic whines. This was my second bottle after the one I hurled at my so-called mate, and I didn’t fucking care anymore.
I couldn’t give a single sliver of a shit about this fucking bullshit production.
I was too drunk to care if anyone came to get me. Sin could fuck off with Brandy, Cas could fuck off with Camille. They could both go and find their own omegas and use me whenever they wanted to get back at their parents instead of dealing with them like fucking adults.
My heart thumped with a beat of pain that spiralled through my body.
“Shit,” I whimpered, squeezing my eyes.
Why was I still doing this to myself?
They were supposed to love me, but they kept choosing other omegas every fucking time.
They were going to bite Brandy and she’d make everyone’s dreams come true.
A proper baby-making omega who could shoot out kids like a rabbit, exactly like they always wanted.
And then they could live happily ever after with the omega they’d loved all along.
After I’d had a good scream at Cas and by the time Sin’s pleasure petered out through our bond from wherever the hell he was, I was too fucked up to hold anything back. So it was better I stayed alone, even though I wanted to cause some chaos.
Half a bottle of champagne left, half a brain left, and no heart. Not that I needed one, anyway.
The arbour designers had made this stupid hole in the roof so people could look up at the stars as they fucked, but they never thought about how the flat marble floor got covered in water when it rained. So I just listened to it pattering in the small pool as I wallowed.
I drew my knees up to my chest, burying my head in them. I could just see my hands in the crappy little torches that lit up the dome above me, but I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to see anything, or feel anything, or fucking think of anything.
Why did Sin think I would be okay with him dragging another omega off and fucking her? After all the times he’d told me he loved me and I was his only omega…
How could he…?
Another whimper dropped from my lips. I wished I could lock myself up in my nest, but everything in there reeked of vanilla and caramel.
Maybe I should go and stand out in the rain and cry. Then people wouldn’t question why I had mascara dashed across my face where I kept rubbing my eyes. Then I could pretend everything was okay when my alphas finally remembered I actually fucking existed.
I popped my head up when the stinging of my eyes finally stopped. I didn’t know how long I’d been here for, but Sin felt like shit and the ball of fucking rage that was Cas had left the party ages ago, so at least all three of us were unhappy.
Not that I gave a fuck. They could both rot in hell. I was never forgiving them for this. As soon as we got home, I was going to stab fucking metal rods through their feet so they couldn’t leave our pack house.
“Assholes,” I whispered to myself, digging my nails into my palm to stop the tears.
I twisted my head to rest my cheek on my knees and stare at my middle finger.
I groaned at how fucking stupid I was.
The scar was fading. I couldn’t feel her anymore.
It was over, our bond had gone, and I hadn’t had a say in any of it.
I didn’t get to choose if we could bond again because she rejected us.
Even though the scent match still seemed to be there, she’d vanish after the Selection Ceremony, and we’d finally be done.
“I want to see her,” I whined before I could stop the words.
My eyes closed as another stab of pain hit me. I hated feeling so fucking weak.
I brought my hand closer. My cold fingers meant absolutely nothing when there was no spark of anger that came with it.
I pressed my lips against the scar, the sight of her needy expression when she bit me slashing through me. She’d forced me to look at her. She’d made me hers even when I was on top of her.
If it wasn’t so complicated, if the four of us had met at the same time, if it wasn’t for Camille, if it wasn’t for Sin’s and Cas’s fucking cuntbag parents, maybe it could have been different.
Maybe it could have been like Sin’s boring ass cover story where we both met getting coffee and we scent matched and everything could have been fucking normal instead of this shit.
Maybe I could have loved her without feeling so betrayed by everyone.
Especially her.
But I didn’t want to think about that. None of it was on the fucking table. Love was a stupid word compared to whatever the fuck it was I felt for her.
I let out a shaky breath as I pulled my finger away, and fear suddenly exploded in my heart as footsteps echoed outside the arbour.
I didn’t want anyone to see me like this.
“Kai!” she shouted from the archway, and I groaned as I rolled my eyes, pissed off just hearing her voice.
I couldn’t even have a night to wallow in my own melancholy like a tragic movie star. I always had to have a fucking interruption.
“Go away, Brandy,” I said, refusing to look at her. The words bounced around the arbour, adding a nice layer of drama to my fucking misery.
“Kai,” her voice trembled as she stepped inside.
“I said fuck off.”
Her heavy pants mixed with the falling rain. She probably ran here for some fucked-up reason.
“Kai, I—”
“Don’t come any closer!” I shouted, my head whipping up to glare at her.
And I flinched back at the agony splashed across her face.
She was absolutely drenched, water dripping from the hem of her dress, her fingers, the tips of her hair, even her chin and nose. But it was the total look of anguish which stabbed me right in the heart.
She looked as fucking torn up as I was, and it definitely wasn’t just rain on her cheeks.
Why the fuck did she look like that?
As soon as I saw her, all the anger that I felt for my alphas flared inside me, and her face fell even farther at the sight of me.
My shock quickly morphed into pain as she released a tremoring breath.
“Kai…”
“What? Was fucking Sin not enough for you? Are you searching for Cas as well?” I spat out, hating her even more every second I looked at her. Maybe I was her consolation prize since she’d already bagged my alphas.
Why the fuck was she even more sexy dripping with rain?
The dress I’d made for her stuck to her curves like wet tissue paper, and I could see her bumps and grooves. Even in the shitty light, she looked fucking delectable.
“Kai, why are you out here?” she asked, her foot splashing on the puddle of water as she moved towards me.
I turned my head, staying silent. If I refused to talk to her, maybe she’d get the hint and fucking leave.
“I’m so sorry,” she whispered as she took another step forward, and I pushed my back against the cold marble wall, as if I’d ever be able to get away from her.
“Shut up,” I groaned. I wished I could cover my ears, but then I wouldn’t be able to hear the hoarse edge to her voice.
“I’m sorry for sleeping with him,” she said.
“I said shut the fuck up.” Words wouldn’t make a difference now she was here.
I’d already felt how fucking in love Sin was with her.
It didn’t matter how much they apologised.
They still fucked behind my back. At least Cas told me what he was going to do before he cheated right in front of my fucking face during my own heat like a real trooper.
“Sin told me about Caspian and Camille as well…” She trailed off. Another splash, another step forward. I was pretty sure she was past the halfway point now and was just standing in the rain pouring through the dome.
“Congratulations,” I replied, totally flat. “Good for you. That still doesn’t explain why the fuck you’re here.” Because the closer she grew, the stronger her scent became. The rain should have washed it away, but it just made it thicker, and I couldn’t not fall into her trap.
Her face crumpled as her chest heaved, and I shuddered as one more step brought her in front of me.
I rocked my head back to scowl at her, which was a huge fucking mistake.
I couldn’t resist her when she hit me with her mournful doe-eyes.
“Why can’t you just fuck off? Did you really think you could just waltz in here after fucking my alpha like I was gonna cheer you on or something?”
I tried to hold back my whimper, but I fucking failed, like I did with everything else in my stupid life.
“Why do you have to keep hurting me?” I groaned, my voice cracking.