Chapter 20 #3
“You can watch your mouth,” I say, my voice as calm as winter ice. “I’ve already had a lovely welcome from the sisters, you see.” I smile at him, dead-eyed.
He smirks back, small, cruel, unkind. He’s watching me, measuring me. I don’t trust him. Not one bit.
Seamus married me. We took vows. I love that man.
I’ve had just about enough of this cold welcome.
I nod to Caitlin. “Thank you.” Then Bronwyn. “Thank you.”
“But the next person with something nasty to say?” I smile again. “They can hold their tongue until they’re brave enough to say it in front of my husband.”
Caitlin blinks, then sits back slowly. “Good girl,” she says. “Mmm. He chose well, didn’t he? I see now why he loves you.”
And I nearly melt under that.
Because none of them would dare say these things in front of Seamus.
“Ash,” Bronwyn snaps. “Stop being a feckin’ cunt.”
“Bronwyn,” Caitlin says, like a warning.
But I can tell she’s already lost the battle against the foul mouths in this house.
“It’s family dinner.” Kyla shrugs. “What did you expect?”
“Not a goddamn interrogation. Let her breathe already. And she’s right. Say that in front of Seamus and I’ll eat my damn hat.”
Ashland doesn’t move. Doesn’t blink. Just steps aside, shakes his head like it isn’t worth the effort, and turns to leave.
“Excuse me,” I say, quiet but firm.
He pauses and turns back, then faces me fully. All eyes are on me now, but I don’t flinch. I don’t blush. I don’t stammer. I stand rooted in place.
“And that’s the last time any of you call your Seamus McCarthy a traitor,” I say. “He’s as loyal to this family as they come, and you’ll see soon enough what he’s meant to do. What he’s called to do.”
I don’t say more. I can’t. I’m already toeing the line. But I won’t let them disrespect my husband.
“Is that right?” he mutters calmly, as if challenging me.
I bare my teeth at him, a hiss catching between them. “You’ll speak of my husband and your boss with respect.”
Bronwyn and Caitlin share a glance, a loaded one. I see it. I feel it.
Bronwyn smiles wide. Caitlin, calm as ever, tops off her tea. Ashland exhales like the weight of the room is too heavy for him and walks out with Kyla close behind.
Good. Let them leave.
I release a breath.
“Sit down, darling,” Caitlin says gently, tapping the table like she’s summoning a cat to her lap. “You did well. So did my son,” she continues, smiling. “Let’s figure out dinner.”
The room smells like cloves and sugar, thick and sweet, a kind of comfort that makes me ache with memories of home. The teapot is already steaming again as Caitlin moves like she’s done this a thousand times… because she has. She pours two cups like we’re just two women catching up after brunch.
“Would you take sugar, Zoya? Or are you one of those purists who likes the taste of bitterness in their cup?”
I blink, then smile. It’s impossible not to.
“Two sugars, please. Not a purist. No milk.”
“Good girl,” she says, like she’s proud. “That’s how I raised my boys, you know, sweet enough to kill you, strong enough to burn.”
She sets the cup in front of me, then pushes the tin of biscuits closer like it’s an offering.
“Go on. Try the shortbread. Store-bought, but let’s pretend I’ve been slaving away in this boiling heat. I love this kitchen, but the whole damn thing feels like an oven sometimes.”
The kitchen is stunning but hot, with warm-toned wood, black marble counters, and hanging copper pots.
I take a piece of shortbread. It’s good, not as good as the honey-drenched ones Rodion and I used to make back home or Anya’s flaky masterpieces.
“Do you cook?” she asks, her head tilted. The diamond on her ring catches the light. I look down at my hand with only a slim gold band. I’m not used to the feel of it yet.
“I do,” I say, softer. “And baking too. My brother’s favorite is honey cake. It sort of became my thing at home.”
“Did it?” Her eyes light up, full of practiced interest. “Goodness, I’d love some honey cake.
Can’t say I’ve had it, but I’d love to try.
We’ll have to get you in the kitchen.” She leans back a little, and her voice drops.
“We had a cook. But she left. Her husband got another offer too far from here. It was time for them to go.” A pause. “She was with us for thirty years.”
Thirty years, longer than I’ve been alive. My chest tightens.
“She must’ve known Seamus almost his whole life. When will I see him?” I ask, trying to keep the tremble from my voice.
Caitlin’s eyes flicker. She stirs her nearly empty cup, like buying herself time. “Soon, sweetheart. We’ve been through quite a lot.”
“I understand,” I say with a nod, even though it punches the breath from my lungs. “But how long can one conversation be?”
She exhales slowly. “Oh, you’d be surprised. But there’s been an uproar since you married my son.”
She meets my eyes. And in that moment, I see her, really see her. The power behind the softness. The storm she's holding back.
“Let things settle, Zoya,” she says gently. “We’ll get to know you.” She leans forward. “I promise you’re safe here with me, but stay close to my son, alright, love?”
But I can’t help but wonder: Am I safe with anyone else?