Chapter 7 #3
"You did, though. For a second. And a second is all it takes to know the shape of a thing.
" Not cruel. Worse than cruel. Kind. "It's all right.
I always knew the morning would come where you'd have to choose your blood over me.
I told you on the water. I just thought I'd have more warning.
" He almost smiled. It didn't reach the sealed place.
"Go to your cousin, Luka. He sold your grandmother's ring for you.
He hasn't slept in two years for you. He's the one who never once made you doubt him.
" A beat. "I'm the one who killed Dato. Don't ever forget that was true the whole time.
It doesn't stop being true because I can also cook and keep a watch. "
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Later — in the part of the night Luka would live in for a long time afterward, the part with no bottom — he would try to reconstruct the order of it, and never quite manage, because it all came at once, the way disasters do.
Irakli, moving — not with a gun, Irakli wasn't a shooter, Irakli was a man half-mad with grief and a length of pipe off the gutting table, coming at Pavel with two years of it in his arms, roaring Dato's name.
And Pavel not moving. Not defending. Standing in the grey light and letting Luka's blood come at him with a pipe, hands open at his sides, because he'd told Luka in the shop and he'd meant it — I've already put one Beridze on the floor, I'm not going to hurt the other — and here was the other, and Pavel would take the pipe before he'd lift a hand against Irakli Beridze, would let himself be beaten to death in a fish house by the grief of a man whose cousin he'd killed, and call it fair.
And Luka — Luka finally, finally moving, too late, always too late, getting between them, taking the second swing of the pipe across his own raised forearm, the same forearm, the bone going this time, a white flash of it, and shoving his cousin back into the gutting table hard enough to fold him, and standing there over Pavel with his arm hanging wrong and his own blood on the floor, having chosen, at last, with his body, a full two seconds after his mouth had already chosen the other way.
The pain arrived a half-second behind the sight of the bone, the way damage always did for him, the cold delay of a body that had learned to keep working past its own alarms. And under the pain, worse than the pain, was the arithmetic Pavel had taught him to hate: that he'd moved to save this man a full breath after he'd cut him with his mouth, and that the order of those two things was the truest fact about Luka Beridze, and Pavel had seen it, and would carry it out the door.
"Stop," Luka said. To all of it. To everyone. "Stop."
And into the ringing after, from the water side, came the sound Luka had been half-listening for under everything for six days without letting himself name it: the low burble of an outboard throttling down, easing in against the fish house dock, unhurried, patient, a man who'd finally been given a beacon bright enough to follow — a cousin's grief making noise all over Brighton, a meeting called on an old creek, two years of Irakli's contacts lighting up at once.
Pavel's head came up. His eyes found the water. And the flat sealed voice, when it came, was almost relieved, the way a man is relieved when the last uncertain thing finally becomes certain.
"That's the finder," Pavel said, getting to his feet, already moving, already gone somewhere the rest of them couldn't follow.
"Irakli led him here. He's been on the noise since Brighton.
" He looked at Luka — at the arm, the blood, the broken forearm Luka had spent to save the man he'd doubted two minutes before — and something crossed the sealed face, quick, and vanished.
"Get your cousin out the land side. Both of you. Now."
"Pavel—"
"He's not here for you or Irakli. He's here for me.
He always was." Pavel was at the water-side door now, in the grey, and the outboard was cutting, and there were feet on the dock.
"You wanted to know if the account was closed.
It is. This is me closing the last of it.
Get them out, Luka. Live. Somebody in this family should get to do what Dato asked. "
And he went out the door toward the water and the finder, alone, unarmed, a dead man walking to meet the thing that had been hunting him since Baltimore — and Luka, on his knees on the fish house floor with his arm in ruins and his half-mad cousin folded over the gutting table and two years of everything he'd gotten wrong roaring in his ears, understood that he had broken the one thing that had ever chosen to trust him, and that it had walked out the door to die for the privilege of sparing him the choice.
He tried to get up. The arm wouldn't hold him, and Irakli was groaning against the gutting table, and there were boots on the dock now, more than one man's, and every instinct Luka owned as a man who kept others alive in bad places was screaming go, get to the water, get to him — and screaming it a beat too late, the same beat too late he'd run on all night, all his life, the diver who always surfaced a second after he should have.
He got one knee under him. The world tilted.
Out past the door, on the grey water, the thing that had been coming for six days finally arrived.
The break had come. It had come out of Luka's own mouth, two words, did you, and there was no taking it back, and the water had the rest.