CHAPTER 29
Sutton
With Dad gone I joined the guys and the kids at dinner each night.
Being around them after what we’d done at the club was hard at first. I was mortified by my behavior and the way I’d turned into a wanton whore for them.
Part of me expected them to be cold the morning after but they weren’t.
They were almost sweet and it was so disarming that I knew my stupid heart was getting fully involved.
There was nothing I could do about it, though.
Especially not when they kept doing little things which felt so domestic.
Like the way Dominic would lean over and kiss Ollie on top of his head while I was holding him.
He’d rest his hand on my hip as he did, and then grin at me when Ollie demanded that I get a kiss, too.
It was just a kiss on the cheek but it felt bigger.
I fell asleep watching Theo watching me each night and woke up each morning with the knowledge he’d visited me during the night because his scent hung in the air.
I felt cherished and maybe it was strange I felt that way instead of concerned, but I wasn’t afraid of Theo.
I liked that he couldn’t help himself when it came to me.
Days passed without them mentioning the club or trying anything with me, though, and I started to doubt myself. Maybe I’d been too needy. Maybe I’d been terrible at everything and they regretted taking me. Had I been too loud? Did I taste weird?
I was heading to bed after having a cup of tea one night when I heard Leon’s motorcycle pull into the garage.
It was my self-doubt that made me detour and go to him.
I needed to know if he still wanted me. Or if he even liked me.
I hadn’t had any sweet moments with him.
He kept to himself more than Dominic and Theo, so I worried about him the most.
He had his back to me when I let myself into the garage and closed the door behind me. I was silent as I moved closer but he knew I was there.
“Sneaking up on people could get you into trouble, Kitten.”
I wrapped my arms around myself and forced a smile when he turned to me.
“I wasn’t trying to sneak up. I was just passing by and heard you. I thought I’d say hi… So, hi.”
He leaned against his motorcycle and crossed his arms. “That it?”
I blew out a quick breath and nodded. He didn’t want me there, that much was obvious.
“Um, yep. It’s time for me to head to bed and—”
“Lying could get you into even more trouble.” He straightened and walked over to me. “Why are you in here?”
I rolled my lips between my teeth and pushed up my glasses.
“It doesn’t matter. I should go to bed.”
“Don’t you dare move a step closer to that door.” Leon reached out to touch my light pink, flannel pajamas. “You couldn’t be more innocent if you tried.”
So, was that the issue? Was I just too…childish? I had to know.
“And that’s a bad thing? Is that why you don’t want to take me back to the club?”
He stepped back like I’d slapped him.
“What’d you just say?”
I considered running away but I knew he’d catch me before I got to the door. Instead, I decided the best way of getting out of a painful conversation was to change topics.
“Are you working on your motorcycle? What are you doing to it? We lived next to a guy with a motorcycle when I was young. He worked on it in the driveway and I always wanted to help but after finding my mom in his garage, riding everything but the motorcycle, I gave that idea up.”
Leon frowned.
“You want to help me work on it?”
“Not if you don’t want me to. Or if I’d be an inconvenience.”
“Tell me why you think I don’t want to take you back to the club and I’ll let you help.” He saw me about to answer and held up his hand. “It sounded optional but it isn’t. Tell me.”
I tried to walk around him but he gripped my hips and held me steady. I stared at the floor and sighed.
“You don’t seem to like me very much. Theo and Dominic spend more time around me but you avoid me. And none of you have asked me to go back to the club since the other night. Was I bad? Is it because I didn’t know what I was doing? Is that why you don’t want to take me back? Am I too innocent?”
I blinked and found myself bent over Leon’s bike with his big hand coming down on my butt. I grunted from the shock and sting of it and then I was right side up again.
Leon gripped my upper arms and gently shook me.
“We’ve been busy with other things, Sutton. All of us want to take you back but it’s not always easy for us all three to be free at the same time. It has nothing to do with our feelings toward you. As far as your innocence goes…”
I gasped when he pinned me to his chest and ran his other hand down to my butt.
“If you seriously think that what happened at the club wasn’t the best sex of my life, you’re nuts.
It’s fucked up but knowing that no one else ever got to fuck your tight little throat before us is the shit dreams are made of.
” He squeezed my butt and then pressed a kiss to the side of my neck.
“You weren’t bad, Kitten. You were fucking amazing.
I’ve been trying to give you space without following you around, trying not to fuck you every time you bend over.
If you don’t need that space, though, I’ll take that note and run with it. ”
My face was almost painfully hot.
“We didn’t have sex.”
He grinned. “Mmm. Imagine how I’ll feel once I get my dick inside you.”
I cleared my throat as the sinking feeling of stupidity sank in.
“Can we pretend I never said anything? I’m just the nanny. It’s not like y’all owe me your time or anything. I was just being—”
“Shut up.” Leon gripped my butt even lower and let his fingers press into my sex. “You’re not just the nanny. Help me with my bike or go to bed. Your choice.”
I nodded at his bike.
“Just for a little bit.”