Chapter 3
Moira rolled her shoulders to ease the strain and sighed. An ache had settled between her shoulder blades, probably brought on by rolling a three-hundred-pound man from the EMT’s gurney to the treatment room bed. Not that she hadn’t had help, but after a long shift, she was tired.
She leaned her elbow on the nurse’s station and willed herself not to stare at the clock. She didn’t have much longer before she could leave. Her weekend could begin, and she was dying to rest, catch up on laundry, and hit the club again on Saturday night.
Thinking about the club brought to mind the handsome firefighter she’d escorted through La Forge’s main salon the previous evening. She’d been unsettled by him. Excited but unable to say precisely why. She often assisted Pansy or Jenn when newbies showed up eager to explore. She was experienced in training both subs and Doms, a skilled switch, but at heart, she was a sub looking to find the one man who could rule her heart.
Something about the dark-haired man with his sad eyes and hard face had made her pulse skitter and thud. But he’d seemed repulsed by some of what she’d shown him. Perhaps she should have whisked him away to a more private section of the salon to talk about what his needs were or to show him something a little less shocking. But he’d given off such a strong vibe, she’d been drawn to him the instant she’d seen the way his gaze had darted over the crowd inside the salon, snagging on Mondo and his new sub. His body had straightened, and he’d curled his hands tightly at his sides. A feral edge had hardened his jaw. Even if he wasn’t aware of what he really was, she’d certainly tuned in to it.
The way he’d watched Anton’s every move on the stage, the reddening of his features when Britney had keened wildly, released by Anton’s soft pat after he’d given her the punishment she’d craved… Well, Moira hadn’t missed Coop’s instant response. His nostrils had flared. His fingertips had curled as though he were the one who’d delivered the strokes.
Or maybe it was just wishful thinking on her part.
“You’re not finished yet,” Doreen said, slapping her clipboard on the counter beside Moira.
Moira jerked and straightened. “I won’t look at the clock. Do we have long?”
Doreen flashed her grin, startling white teeth against dark skin. “If no one comes through the doors, we’re out of here in ten.”
No sooner were those words out of her friend’s mouth than the double doors at the emergency room’s entrance whooshed open. Two firefighters pushing a gurney entered.
Shock rattled through her. Despite the soot-covered faces, she recognized both men in an instant. Noah and Coop. Her gaze slammed into Coop’s. His blue eyes widened for a fraction of a second and then narrowed. His expression shuttered.
He didn’t appear happy to see her, and her stomach plummeted at his rejection.
“Guess I jinxed it,” Doreen muttered.
The two women rushed toward the gurney holding a woman who was covered in grime and choking behind an oxygen mask.
“Smoke inhalation. Kitchen fire,” Noah said.
“I’ve got it,” Doreen said, her dark gaze going from Moira to Coop. “Call for that intern. I’ll put her in twenty-two and start a drip.”
As Doreen and Noah wheeled the gurney to the treatment room, Moira stiffened her shoulders and tipped her chin toward the desk. She placed the call and then turned back to Coop. “Hi there,” she said and winced. Couldn’t she have come up with something better? Something less breathless? And where was her voice? Her throat had tightened like a rubber band around the words. She swallowed.
Coop grunted and aimed a glance around the open area, at the nurse’s stations, and in the treatment rooms. Was he looking for another escape route? Was her presence that annoying?
Moira cleared her throat. “Guess you know what I do when I’m not wearing my little schoolgirl outfit.” That was better and earned her a quirk of one dark brow. Her pulse did that little skitter and a hop, just like it had the previous night. Confidence returned with the barely perceptible blush she witnessed chasing across his cheeks.
“Didn’t know you were a nurse,” he said, his voice gruff.
“We barely made it past introductions.”
He drew a deep breath and released it between his pursed lips. “Sorry, didn’t mean to be rude last night…” His gaze dipped to her ID badge. “Nurse Blessing.” His lips twitched as he read her last name. “Moira really your first name?”
“Think I need a pseudonym at the club?”
He grunted again. A sound she rather liked. It was masculine. Succinct. And it wasn’t irritation tightening his jaw. His gaze was raking her frame.
Her scrubs were wrinkled but a dark blue that hid a multitude of sins. They also made her figure appear dumpy because the curve of her waist was hidden.
However, the narrowing of his gaze said he remembered quite well what her baggy clothing concealed.
Heavy tread and the whir of wheels behind her warned her that Noah was returning. She pasted on a smile and cast a glance over her shoulder.
Noah gave her a grin and Coop a sharp stare. “She’s going to be all right. And Doreen said you don’t have to stick around, Moira. She’s got it handled.” With a waggle of his eyebrows, Noah strode away. When he drew abreast of Coop, he whispered loudly, “I’ll stow the gurney. Might take a minute or two.”
Moira and Coop remained quiet until the doors whooshed again.
Coop cleared his throat. “Uh, I usually ride on the fire truck. Noah’s cross-trained as EMT…and we were shorthanded today.”
“So your being here is pure serendipity.” His gaze narrowed again, and she almost laughed. “Kismet. Fate.”
He shrugged. “It was dumb luck.”
“Whatever you call it, so long as you think it’s something…nice.” Moira took a deep breath and wished like hell she could stop her jabber mouth from jabbering quite so much.
Coop’s mouth twitched, and then he released another sigh. “Look, I was giving you the straight stuff last night. That place…it’s not me.”
“I understand.” And she really did. Some guys needed privacy. They needed space to come to terms with their innermost needs. Some never dared explore them because they didn’t consider them safe or have a partner they were willing to risk.
Moira stepped closer until her chest nearly met his and raised her face. This close, she could see the crystal and navy of his irises right before his pupils dilated. His nostrils flared.
Her body responded to the signs of his heightened interest, softening and leaning closer. “You don’t have to learn about what you need, or what you are, at La Forge…”
His gaze whipped around, but they were alone. He dipped his head toward hers. “You offering me private lessons?”
Her nose wrinkled. “Can we do this a little more organically? It doesn’t have to be BDSM 101. It could be a dinner with a friend. We can talk. Get to know each other.”
His jaw eased side to side. “I just ended a relationship.”
Her chest constricted. “Were you in love?” she asked softly.
He shook his head.
And the regret she read in his eyes said he wasn’t proud of the fact he hadn’t found genuine affection with the woman. She relaxed. “Then there shouldn’t be a problem with dinner between new friends.”
“I don’t want complicated,” he whispered.
Another pang tightened her chest. He was warning her away. Telling her not to expect this to lead to anything.
But what she felt, being nearly scorched by the heat coming off his chest and stripped by his sharp gaze, couldn’t be denied. So she had to play this light. It didn’t mean he wouldn’t eventually realize the error in his thinking…
“Doesn’t have to be…complicated,” she said softly, lying through her teeth. She was already wildly attracted. Future Dom or not, she wanted to get to know him better. “I’m off for the weekend.”
His mouth curved into a crooked smile. “You inviting me to spend the weekend with you?”
Her own mouth curved. “Just telling you so you can work me into your schedule.”
“Ah.” He caught his lower lip between his teeth and then let it go. “Tomorrow’s Saturday. In the morning, my friends have a friendly game of football, and beer follows. Then I’m free until Monday.”
“You inviting me to spend Saturday and Sunday with you?”
His gaze remained steady on her; his mouth was tight. “Just synching up our calendars.”
She raised a brow. “I like football.”
“Bring a lawn chair.”
She reached for a notepad and pen and slid them across the counter. “Tell me where. I’ll meet you there.”
He reached for it and hovered his hand over it for a moment while her heart stuttered. But he picked up the pen, quickly scribbled on the pad, and then handed it back. His gaze raked her again before he turned and strode away.
She watched him until the doors whooshed closed.
“Whew,” Doreen said from behind her.
She turned to see her friend fanning her face.
“Wasn’t just me burnin’ up in here,” she said with a sly twist of her full lips.
Realizing her cheeks were red, Moira laughed. “Looks like I have a date.”
“No, sweetie, you have a whole damn weekend with that hella hot fireman.” Her eyebrows shot up. “You two met before—and you didn’t tell me?”
Moira laughed. Doreen didn’t know about her extracurricular activities, not that she’d judge her. But some things were best kept quiet.
Doreen pursed her lips. “What about that handsome fitness trainer you been steppin’ out with?”
Moira carefully kept her eyes lowered. “Anton and I aren’t exclusive.” How did one explain a D/s relationship that wasn’t a romantic one? “And he’s working tomorrow.”
Doreen shook her head. “Hardly seems fair,” she said, tsking as she strolled away. “Two handsome men…”
Moira wrinkled her nose. Anton could become an issue. Not that he wouldn’t understand. But what would the straight-arrow fireman think about her agreement with Anton?
Maybe she should have been honest and told him up front. But they barely knew each other. Some things couldn’t be blurted. Things like getting naked and whipped by a Dom while seeking another deeper relationship with someone else weren’t the norm in a vanilla world. Once she and Coop knew each other better, once he’d walked in her world for a while, then maybe she’d find the right way to approach what she really wanted. What she needed. Until then, Anton was still necessary. And he knew the score. He wouldn’t be hurt by her defection. All they had was a contract. One that could be broken with a single word. And despite her twinge of jealousy last night, watching Anton work Britney over, she knew the score as well.
The word uncomplicated echoed in her mind. Her world was anything but. A knot settled in her stomach. She couldn’t leave Coop clueless for long, but she didn’t want to risk his walking before they had a chance to explore the possibilities. Anton could help them both.
The image of Anton dripping wax over a tender backside flitted through her mind. He’d been so sexy the previous night while onstage delivering sensual torture to Britney, and then later, listening with a devilish curve of his mouth as she’d talked about having met someone.
After Coop had left, Anton had been doubtful. “A firefighter? Sweetheart, are you reaching? Guys like that—they aren’t usually wired like us.”
“Billy and Aiden are firefighters.”
“Aiden is a born Dom. Billy came into this because he loves Pansy.”
She’d pouted her lips and thrust up her chest, relishing the way his body hardened as his gaze skimmed over the flesh revealed between the winding ropes he’d used to restrain her arms against her sides. Soft nylon bit into her skin under and above her nipples. Not hard enough to hurt but wound just tightly enough to remind her she was at his mercy. Something she needed desperately after the wild seesaw of emotions she’d encountered with Coop. His quick departure from the club—and her—had somehow stung. They’d only just met. Why did she feel as though something precious had slipped between her fingers?
Her nipples spiked at the memory of the bulge in Coop’s pants that had grown while he’d watched the couple on the stage. Arousal trickled down her inner thigh.
Anton reached down and glided a finger between her folds. “Huh. That for me or for him?”
She glanced at him from beneath her lashes. He expected the truth. Always. Even when it embarrassed her. Her pussy tightened, making a moist sound. “Does it matter?”
Anton’s gaze narrowed. “It does since we aren’t about fucking. But you just met the man. Sure he’s even safe to be around?”
“Billy vouched for him. Said he’s been through a rough time. Coop lost his best friend in a fire. And he said himself he just ended a relationship.”
He rolled his bare shoulders. “So, he’s looking for rebound sex. I don’t like it,” he said, his voice a low growl.
Moira lifted her chin, warning him not to make fun of her. “He’s looking to be loved, Anton. I can sense it in him.”
Anton’s eyelids flickered, but then he bent and kissed her forehead. “All I’m saying is take this slow. You don’t know him. You can’t know whether he’s what you need or whether there will be any compatibility beyond the fucking. You need someone who needs everything you’ll bring.”
She sniffed and nodded her head. He was right. Settling for something less, something vanilla would kill her soul.
He kissed her again, this time on the tip of her nose. “What was with the glares when I worked with Britney?”
Moira rolled her eyes. “You didn’t tell me you were working with anyone else. And since you used the wax, I knew you’ve been doing it for a while. She wasn’t just a demo-girl you picked up on the floor.” Her gaze dropped because her jealousy embarrassed her. “I know we aren’t about fucking, but I was afraid for a second that you wouldn’t want to work with me anymore.”
Anton slid a finger down her cheek, and his intense gaze bored into hers. “We have a friendship, Moira, that goes beyond our contract. For as long as you need this, with me, I’m here for you.”
He chucked under her chin with a bent finger and jerked his head toward the bed in the corner of his private room in La Forge. “Now, go lie over the edge of the mattress on your stomach.”
He was using the voice . The one he reserved when subs were being shits and when she needed punishment, which obviously she did. He hadn’t liked her questioning him about Britney when the other sub wasn’t any of her business.
Showing reluctance she didn’t really feel, she strolled slowly to the bed and accepted his guidance as he positioned her with her ass in the air and her face turned sideways against the mattress.
The first slap was sharp and shocked a gasp from her. The next was harder and left fingerprints on her ass. Widening her legs, she tilted her bottom higher, inviting his punishment right there—which he gave her—a wet slap that struck her vulva, making her lips hot and causing blood to rush to fill them.
She was swelling. Each smack elicited a squirm and a cry. Not that she wasn’t loving every second of it. Anton was thorough, making sure every inch of her folds was lovingly struck, nudging away the thin hood to flick her clit until it was hard and bulbous.
He pinched around it, giving it a hard squeeze. “Have you learned your lesson?”
“I have,” she said, breathing the words. “I swear I have, Sir. Let me come, please, please, please.”
Something slid inside her clasping pussy. It wasn’t his warm slick cock. He only rarely gave her the use of it—and only when she needed the comfort of flesh. This was thicker, harder, and it hummed.
“No,” she said, raising her head and beginning to push upward.
His hand landed between her shoulders and pushed her down again. The vibrator worked its way in and out, deeper each time he twisted it inside her.
She fisted her hands in the sheets and clenched her eyes closed, fighting against the need to let go.
When he’d plucked her clit with his thumb and forefinger, she screamed. “It’s too much!”
But he hadn’t listened, plucking and tugging it while fucking her with the hard plastic dildo until her breaths had seized and her body tightened. She’d flown, uttering an endless, “Oh God, oh God, oh God…”
Even now, her skin and sex felt hot and ravaged. Used. A delicious vestige of their time together. How could she ever let that go? Anton knew her too well. With him, she was completely herself—silly or nasty and sometimes a bratty bitch. A woman who needed punishment, needed a bit of well-aimed pain before she took her pleasure because she craved a deeper orgasm. She needed the pain to wind her arousal around and around her core before it burst in an explosive whirl. Vanilla sex, whether she rode or her partner did, didn’t come close to satisfying her.
No, she needed Anton until she found the one . Her ultimate Dom. Someone who could deliver the kind of pleasure she craved but could also fill all the lonely corners of her heart as well.
Moira glanced at the pneumatic double doors of the ER. She had some thinking to do—about how she’d broach the subject with Coop. About how she’d recognize when the time was right—if ever it was—to tell him she already had a man in her life that she didn’t intend to give up until she found someone who could give her everything she needed.
And oh, would he mind joining them for training?