Chapter 27
Noah
Advantages of a relationship with an experienced man:
First, he knows what he’s doing.
Second, he really knows what he’s doing.
Third, sex is even better than I ever imagined in my wildest dreams.
The huge downside is obvious: It’s very easy to make a fool of yourself, and you can never give back what you get.
At least that’s how it seems to me. The blowjob a few days ago was absolutely insane, and the ones he’s given since have been just as amazing.
I’m starting to feel really inadequate with my handjobs.
Yesterday, I firmly resolved to pay close attention to everything Luca does with his tongue, but I didn’t stand a chance. One stroke along my shaft and I was in a frenzy.
Now I’m sitting on my favorite bench on campus, waiting for Luca, who has an appointment with one of our professors, and I’m putting my time to good use. I’m watching porn.
Specifically blowjobs in slow motion, and I try to pick up and memorize as much as possible. Unfortunately, though, none of it looks even half as sophisticated as it feels with Luca. He’s always doing something with his tongue, and I just can’t see that in the videos. Damn it.
Annoyed, I tap around on my phone, looking for another video. Here, this one looks promising…
“That looks exciting. What is that?” I jump in surprise, my phone flies through the air and, of course, lands in a way that Luca has a perfect view of the Mediterranean-looking guy sucking the Viking Hulk’s dick. Fuuuck.
Although that’s not quite right, as I learned today Viking Hulk is fucking the dark-haired pretty boy’s mouth. I haven’t decided yet if it’s hot, but I probably never will, because right now I’d love nothing more than to sink into the ground and never resurface.
I reach for my phone, but Luca is faster. “Hot. Do you like that?”
Is he making fun of me? He’s grinning, but not spitefully, more… interested? “Um, I don’t know. Maybe?”
“Then why are you watching it?” Graciously, he presses pause and hands me my phone.
“I wanted… to… um, try… oh, screw it, I wanted to do that with you, but I have no clue about anything and…” Nervousness and panic are taking over again.
“Hey, look at me.” Luca firmly grabs my wrists, and my hands slip into his.
“Did you find the videos… instructive?” No, not really, and I shake my head. “Good, me neither. Blowjobs are more of a ‘learning by doing’ thing. You figure out what you like, try it on your partner, and see if they like it too. At least that’s how it worked for me.”
“But…” What if I’m terrible at it and he hates it?
“Mon Papillon, I know you don’t have any experience, believe me, we’ve all been there. Even the porn stars in your video. I’d be happy to be your guinea pig if you want me to.” I can’t turn down the offer. Even if I do everything wrong, at least Luca won’t laugh at me.
“Are you coming over to my place later?”
“I have soccer practice tonight and can’t skip again, but we can go to my place, and you can wait in my room. Or you can hang out with the others, someone will definitely be home.”
I don’t want to go home alone. By now, I can barely stand being in the big apartment without Luca. That’s embarrassing and stupid, because sooner or later I’ll be sleeping alone in that big bed again, cuddling the comforter as if it were a person.
Let’s not kid ourselves, Luca has already put up with me much longer than I ever thought possible. It’s just a matter of time.
Two hours later, I’m sitting at the table again with Firas and Nael, Ludo set up in front of us. This time, though, it’s the large game board, because Philipp and Adrien are playing along with Dayyan. Jannis has promised to take over for Dayyan if his frustration tolerance runs out.
If Firas keeps up his game, this situation could happen in about fifteen minutes. He’s got it in for his brother like no one else, and while everyone else already has two little boys in the house, Dayyan’s is still completely empty.
No one has asked why I’m here, even though Luca has practice. The twins were immediately excited about a new game, and now I’m sitting here as if I belong, laughing with Luca’s family and having fun. I’ll lose this family too when Luca moves on.
When it all started between us, I thought it would be easy.
All I had to do was not fall in love, what could be so hard about that?
And now I’m sitting here, knowing that it will not only break my heart but also pull the rug out from under my feet.
I can’t go on without Luca. I can’t go back to loneliness.
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“Do you know what I was thinking about during practice?” Luca looks at me with big puppy-dog eyes, much cuter than I can handle.
“What?”
“The videos you watched at lunchtime today. I kept thinking about how good your mouth would feel around my cock. Fuck, that would be hot.” I’m not so sure about that, but I try to at least act a little cool.
“Would it?”
Luca rolls his eyes. “Definitely.”
“Even though I’m completely clueless?”
“Absolutely.” He pulls me tight against him at the waist, so tight I can feel his erection pressing against my stomach. “Come on, I have an idea.”
On the way to the bed, first his clothes, then mine, fall to the floor.
I’ve seen him naked so many times, and yet it’s still hard to believe that I’m allowed to touch this total work of art made of milky white skin and hard muscles, that he wants to be touched by someone like me.
We’re not going to talk about the fact that he apparently can’t get enough of me either.
“Lie down. On your side, please.” I stopped questioning his ideas a long time ago. Everything we’ve done so far has been hot.
“Damn, I love your freckles.” With a trembling voice, he traces the curve of my body with his fingertip. His gaze is soft and so full of admiration, I can’t help but believe him.
Slowly he lowers his head and with an endless string of feather-light kisses he traces the path from my shoulder down to my hipbone.
He plants the last kiss on the tip of my cock and I thrust forward.
More, fuck, I want more. I slide into his mouth, warm, wet, feeling the pressure of his tongue on my shaft…
Stop, today wasn’t supposed to be about me again.
I wanted… for Luca… ah, shit, that feels so good. My whole body is electrified.
“Open your eyes.” Surprised by the request, I look up and flinch back. Oh, wow. Luca’s long cock is right in front of my mouth. How did it even get there? Shit, what…?
“You wanted to learn how to give a blowjob. Theory is nice, but as I said, I’m more of a ‘learning by doing’ kind of guy. Just do what I do. We’ll start slowly. Okay?”
I can’t think straight anymore, Luca is clouding my senses.
I can’t think of any other way to explain why I’m gripping his cock at the base and gently licking the tip.
A shiver runs through his body, and okay, that was easy.
I move a little closer and wrap my lips around Luca’s glans.
Pulling back the foreskin, I let my tongue dance over the sensitive skin.
I like the salty taste, I know where it comes from, and I savor every drop.
It’s for me, because of me, I’m doing this to him.
The ugly duckling is driving the radiantly beautiful swan into ecstasy. And he’s doing the same to me.
I’m not thinking anymore, my body is operating purely on desire and instinct as I roll my hips and push my cock deep into Luca’s mouth while I greedily lick, suck, and caress his.
“Fuck, mon Papillon, I can’t hold back anymore. Fuck, can I move? I’ll be careful, I promise.” Luca’s cock feels twice as big as my own, and I’m a little afraid of choking, but I’m already floating way too high for that fear to matter anymore.
“Okay.” Carefully, he rolls his hips, thrusting deeper into my mouth and moaning loudly.
Fuck, I love that sound. My cock twitches and I follow his rhythm, speeding up.
Everything around me goes black, my body tenses, I can already see the cliff, I’m right on the edge, I just have to let myself fall.
Luca is speeding up too, he’s about to come, just like me.
I hold him tight, pull his hips toward me, don’t want him to pull out, want to jump with him, feel his cum in my mouth.
His cock swells on my tongue, he cries out, and my world explodes in blindingly bright light.