35. Reaper #2
“Why not though, Mattea? We not getting younger. You can’t just have a whole bunch of niggas on your roaster, that shit ain’t a good look on a pretty chick.
” I smacked my lips; I understood what he was trying to say.
I just wasn’t most chicks. I liked to move how I saw fit I didn’t want a man trying to clock my moves and change who I was.
The number one thing was, I didn’t want Ream looking at me like some special case nut.
I could take care of myself; I didn’t need a man thinking he had to cater to me just because I had mental issues.
I looked far into my future a million times; I never saw myself with a companion.
Getting married and having kids, had been pushed out of my mind a long time ago.
I didn’t want to chance to have kids and then they would grow to have the same issues as me.
I wouldn’t wish my mental on anyone. Taking pills and remembering several doctor’s appointments sometimes became overbearing to me.
“I know, Keem. I don’t like this feeling I have when it comes to him already.
I keep telling myself I’m only feeling this way because we had sex, he’s the first man I ever let inside of me in the literal sense.
Maybe that soul-tie shit that females be talking about is real.
I feel drawn to him in a way I don’t want to be.
I had my own thing going and now I found myself at the mall trying to pick out some girlie shit just to wear for him.
I rushed you the other night just to go hang out with him.
He ain’t pressed me hard for sex since then, I just be paranoid to get attached in a weird way.
I really don’t even know what the fuck, I’m talking about right now man.
” He opened his mouth to talk but I cut him off.
“When Crystal popped up, I felt jealous for the first fucking time!” I yelled, sounding animated.
“I caught him, well I saw him fucking her before and was turned on by that shit and wanted to experience it for myself. Now that I know what sex with him feels like, it made me a little jealous when her pretty ass showed up at his house while we were hugged up.” That was the truth, it was the only reason, I had allowed Ream to kiss and play in my pussy right outside.
That type of shit was way out of character for me.
Hearing a hard tap at Hakeem’s tinted window, we both jumped and pulled our guns out.
When I looked through the smoke and foggy window, I calmed down when I saw it was Ream.
Hakeem turned the key to his ignition and rolled my window all the way down, the smoke from our hot box session started to blow all in Ream’s face.
“You and I have unfinished business Mattea.” He reached inside the car to unlock and open my door.
I guess we had talked the nigga right up to my house.
Not wanting to argue with him, I stepped out of the car, enjoying the feel of the night air hitting my face.
Tapping the hood of Hakeem’s car, we both said our goodbyes as Ream placed his hand at the small of my back guiding me to his Lincoln Navigator truck.
His driver stood at the back door waiting for us to approach.
“Wait a minute Ream, I’m not going back to your place. I just got done handling some shit, and I like to be alone afterward.” I halted in my steps as we stared each other down.
“Is that right?” he asked looking amused.
“Yes, that’s all the way right. If you want to chill at my house for a while, you can.
” I offered. I needed to get in the shower and scrub whatever DNA I had on my body from Tre and the prostitutes.
It was dark out, but I was sure I had blood on my clothes somewhere.
I also had to burn the clothes and shoes, I had on.
“Let’s get in the car Mattea, I already got all the things you will need at my house.
” Smacking my lips, I stomped hard ahead of him.
Ream was starting to piss me off, thinking stuff was supposed to go his way.
It was late at night and the last thing I wanted to do was get loud in on the sidewalk.
I didn’t need to bring any attention to myself.
Soon as we both got in the back seat of the car, I let him have it.
“Don’t go in my fuckin’ house anymore when I’m not there. You don’t have the rights to impose in on my privacy just like I can’t do the same to you! You’re not my man, you don’t control what the fuck I do or say.” I was seething and starting to become angry with his actions.
“You stand on that shit?” he asked seeming unbothered, which was pissing me off even more.
“Hell yea.” I snapped.
“Yea?” his brows raised.
“Yup!” I snapped my neck to the side. He chuckled and looked forward.
We said nothing the rest of the way to his house.
Thirty minutes later we pulled into a gated community with nice homes.
His driver pulled into a driveway and cut the engine as Ream turned to open the door, he made a smart remark over his shoulder.
“I’m gon’ make you eat every word your smart ass said. When I’m done, you will apologize for stepping out of line and talking to me like you have forgotten who the fuck I am and what I’m capable of.”
“Yea, yea, yea.” I mumbled as the driver came to my side of the door to open it for me.
All I wanted to do was shower and sleep, I wasn’t worried about Ream’s egotistical ass.
Walking behind him a little bothered by what he said, he clapped his hands, and the lights came on.
The house décor was really nice, you could tell he didn’t come here often.
“Strip down, leave your dirty clothes right here so I can bag them.” He handed me a black MCM backpack and pointed down a long hallway.
“The bathroom is at the end of the hall to your right. When you done, come find me.” He walked off, as I sat the backpack down and started pulling my clothes off.
Once I was naked, I went down the hall as he instructed with the backpack, he had given me.
I turned on the shower water and rummaged through the backpack smiling at the stuff he had packed for me.
He even put my medicine inside that hosted my needles and anxiety disorder pills.
I sat on the toilet and injected myself with the liquid, I didn’t want to risk having an episode while being away from home.
I didn’t need my anxiety pills tonight, so I skipped those and the other pills that my doctor had prescribed.
I pulled out the matching lavender, lace panty and bra set and fished further in the bag for my pajamas.
Frowning up when I noticed he didn’t pack any just a sundress that I kept in the back of my closet for me to wear tomorrow with some sandals.
I pulled out my body butter and soap and got inside of the shower. Tonight, would surely be interesting.