51. Mattea
Chapter Fifty-One
MATTEA
I looked in your eyes, you snatched my soul
I looked at my life, I found my soul. You came along and then I saw… that I deserved a special kind of love.
I found my purpose, my sense of direction, my goals, my heart. A new meaning.
To love and take care of me!
I listened to my new song on repeat with my airpods inside my ears as I laid on my back and stared up at my black ceiling.
I didn’t know what time it was, what day of the week and who all been trying to reach me.
I needed my space to recollect and think deeply.
It wasn’t because of what I did to Crystal, but what that Jamaican trip did to me.
It made me think of the baby I got rid of, and I started to regret it even more.
At the same time, I felt free and didn’t ponder too hard on the issues I had the mental struggles I faced on a daily.
I felt really good within. Rellianah constantly spoke words of encouragement to me, even though she was way older we vibed so good together like we had been knowing each other for years.
We both needed the trip, and I promised her that when she went back in three months that I would tag along with her.
I already missed the smell and scenery of Jamaica, the food as well as the people.
I was recharging and planning on taking huge steps to bettering myself.
The first step was to start keeping up with my appointments and seeing my therapist at least once a week.
Stay on top of taking my medication and stop fighting myself so hard.
Closing my eyes slowly, I opened them back up.
Although the music was playing loud in my ears, I could smell him first.
I was surprised that he had gone this long without breaking into my house and forcing his way in.
Ream had that bad, he didn’t back down, he forced those walls down that I had built high against him.
He made sure to get past all the armor that I protected myself with.
I didn’t sit up right away to acknowledge him.
I wanted to see how long he was going to stand there and watch me as if I couldn’t feel his powerful aura and sexy smell from the time, he entered my room.
I had taken my medicine, so everything was slow motion.
Inside I felt happy that he showed up. I had battled hard with calling him and telling him that I probably needed him.
I know it had been days with me locked inside my house in solitude and not having any communications with the outside world.
Opening my eyes, he stared down at me, looking like God’s greatest creation.
It was a sick thought, but I loved everything about Ream down to the veins that decorated his dick.
I had to stop fighting myself when it came to him.
Yes, this was new but also something new that I enjoyed.
I thought once he found out about me aborting our baby that he would never want to have anything to do with me.
I was so scared of how he was making me feel I wanted to run away from it all.
It was a foreign yet scary feeling that I wasn’t used too.
Besides me petrified of me having kids, due to my mental.
I knew that getting rid of my baby would really erase him out of my life and my life would return back to its normal state.
That didn’t happen, each day that turned into weeks and those weeks that turned into months.
My mind would fall back to Ream and his words of wisdom.
He was cocky and arrogant and very full of himself but beyond all of that he had a deep loving side.
I always wondered, how could people like us still yearn for love and companionship.
I was a dark soul I did enjoy the adrenaline of having so much power to take away a life that I felt was meaningless.
I knew the time had come after killing Crystal that I would step down from doing those kinds of things. Unless I really needed too. Slowly taking out my airpods I stared back into Reams beautiful light brown eyes and smiled up at him.
“You came.” I said slowly but not on purpose.
I probably sounded like a special case but didn’t care.
If Ream wanted to barge his way inside my home when I told him that I needed the space.
If he wanted me so badly like he constantly said.
Then he would have to see me when I wasn’t at my best. When I needed help but didn’t ask for it.
When the medicine didn’t work, and I moved slow as hell.
Even when I froze up for long periods at a time or couldn’t walk.
I didn’t want to be handicap to anyone in my life, but if Ream wanted me like he claimed then he would have to deal with days like this.
When I felt too weak to talk are move and feed myself.
Which is why my weight constantly went up and down.
When his hand connected with my face, and he stroked my jaw softly.
He leaned down and kissed my lips with enough force for me to feel how much he missed me.
“I’m gone always come after you, crazy girl. You just ain’t gone never cut me up like how y’all did Crystal.”
I lazily smiled as he pulled his shirt over his head and pulled down his sweats leaving on his boxers. I wanted to be clear that I didn’t cut Crystal up but didn’t have that much power in me to say it. I still tried anyway.
“We…didn’t…cut…her…up.” I really hate I went days without being on any form of medication. I truly hated when I couldn’t talk with normal speed. I looked away and blinked back tears of frustration. It felt weird letting Ream see me like this.
“Shhhh.” He looked at me with adoration and lust filled eyes.
“I know my mom had her men do it beautiful ass girl.” He kissed me again but this time on the forehead.
Turning me to my side, he held me tight as I drifted off to sleep.
I felt so secure and relieved that I had him here with me, it felt therapeutic.
The next morning, I woke up with a boost of energy.
The bed was empty, but I could still smell Ream.
I also could smell bacon mixed with biscuits.
I got out of bed feeling like my normal self and went to the bathroom to take care of my morning hygiene.
After getting out of the shower and drying off, I wrapped a new dry off town around my body.
I was slowly regaining my strength and the medicine was doing its job.
I made my way to the kitchen and just paused to take Ream in.
He stood behind my kitchen island with his phone up to his ear.
Whatever he was talking about had to be about business because his voice was super professional.
He looked up at me and I watched his thick tongue trace his bottom lip.
His eyes roamed my body slowly. Shaking out of his suit jacket slowly as he wrapped his conversation up, he motioned with his finger for me to come here.
When it came to Ream, he literally gave me butterflies in the pit of my stomach.
I could feel my essence dripping between my slit onto my thick thighs.
Hanging up the phone he sat it down on the island and gave me a look that said he was hungry as fuck.
“Our food about to get real cold Mattea.” He lifted me up and undid the towel that covered my body.
“Looks like you feeling better, don’t ever pull that you need space bullshit again.
You already know how I feel about you, we already know this shit is new to both of us.
Let it flow, let me make you feel good and cherish you, I want to take care of yo ass and see you every fuckin’ day.
” I swallowed down hard as we had a powerful stare down.
I broke the silence by saying, “Okay” softly.
I didn’t feel like I was being a weak bitch, I just didn’t see the need in running away from how I truly felt.
“Lay back.” He demanded as his eyes bore into mine.
The anticipation had me growing more wet.
I couldn’t stress how fine and manly Ream was, he always smelled good and kept himself looking impeccable.
I laid back slowly the cold countertops along with the AC made my nipples grow hard and achy.
Ream lowered himself while still making eye contact with me.
I could feel his breath between my thighs. He inhaled me then blew on my clit.
“I wanna see that pretty pussy swell up. You got me baby?” I looked down at his waves then eyes.
My breathing and heart rate picked up. “Daddy gotta go up to my new label company. I made you breakfast, before I leave, can I have my breakfast?” I couldn’t answer because Ream pressed his cool lips on my inner thigh and licked my juices up.
Keeping his eyes glued to me, he went to my other inner thigh.
I took in a deep breath and started to squirm.
His tongue moved slowly, like he wanted to savor my essence.
Sticking his ring finger and middle finger inside of my hole, I started to rock back and forth on his hands.
Listening to my own juices make soppy noises as he pushed in and out of me with his thick fingers.
He stared up at me intensely and lowered his full set of lips on my clit and sucked soft then hard.
I nearly lost my fucking mind. Flattening his tongue, he licked up and down then in circles as my eyes shut tight.
“Open up those pretty ass eyes and watch daddy eat this pussy.” He demanded. I flicked my eyes open as he continued to assault my pussy with his fingers and mouth. The sensation started to build up and take me away making me feel crazy in the head.
“Oh my God, Ream! Lick it harder!” I begged, it’s like he was deliberately trying to go slow as fuck to make me beg. I was all the way at the edge of a high story building ready to fucking leap.