Chapter 16
SIXTEEN
“I don’t want to learn that, though, Daddy,” I whine as I sit in front of him.
His eyes narrow on me. “You are learning it, no matter what.”
“You told me that you weren’t going to treat me like a dog, yet you are right now!” I raise my voice and throw my hands in the air.
“I said I wouldn’t call you Little pet anymore. I told you that you were still going to learn some tricks,” he calmly replies.
I open and close my mouth several times, trying to come up with something to say, but I remember him saying those exact words. I just didn’t pay close enough attention to it.
“But I don’t want to be treated like a dog,” I grumble.
“You are okay. Every human learns these,” he tells me.
“That doesn’t make it any better.” I look down at my hands. “I don’t want to do this.”
“And I told you that you are going to. I am the boss of you.” He leans forward so our faces are mere inches from each other. “Do you want to do it right now or do you want a hot bottom first?”
I think about it for a couple of seconds. Maybe if Daddy spanks me, he won’t make me do this since I’ll be in so much pain.
“Don’t even think about it. You will learn these tricks even if your bottom is on fire,” he tells me. “So what are you going to do?”
I open my mouth but quickly close it.
“Think very carefully what you want,” Daddy gently says. “I will do either.”
“Without,” I mumble.
“What was that?”
“Without a red bottom, Daddy,” I say once again.
I look him in the eyes and sigh. I really don’t want to learn these, but if I have to learn them, I don’t want to do it with a hot bottom.
“We are going to start with sit,” Daddy says. “Get on all fours, and when I say sit, you sit on your bottom.”
I clench my teeth and take a deep breath before getting up.
“Sit,” Daddy commands.
It takes me a second before I sit, but once I do, Daddy holds a little ball in front of me.
“Here is your reward, such a good job, Little one,” he praises me.
I open my mouth, and he plops it in my mouth. I chew on it and try to figure out what the flavor is, but I can’t. There is nothing like this on the space station.
“This is kibble,” Daddy says, and my mouth falls open.
He is really trying to treat me like a dog. Does he know what he is doing?
“Stand on all fours again,” Daddy says, and I follow his command.
Daddy does this several times with the sit command, giving me a little treat every single time.
“Now we are going to do lie down,” Daddy tells me.
I nod and wait for him to give me the command. I can’t help but secretly enjoy this. To do what he says and get a little reward after. It fills something inside of me.
“Lie down,” he commands.
I do as I’m told, keeping my legs under my body, and wait for Daddy to tell me that I’m a good girl.
“Such a good job,” he praises again and puts a piece of kibble on the ground in front of me.
I look up at Daddy and tilt my head to the side.
“Eat it,” Daddy encourages me. “The floor is clean. I washed it before you woke up.”
I look down at the kibble and take a deep breath. He really wants me to be a dog.
“Come on, eat your reward,” Daddy encourages me.
I take a deep breath and look at the kibble in front of me. Sighing, I lean forward and lick it up, chewing it slowly before resting my head on the ground. So humiliating.
“Such a good Little one,” Daddy praises me and runs his hands through my hair.
A small smile tugs on my face at his words, and I let him continue to run his hands over me. Maybe it isn’t so bad that I have to do this. Maybe this is exactly what I needed in my life, and I just didn’t know it. I would have never known it if it weren’t for Daddy.
“Let’s do it a couple more times,” Daddy says. “Stand on all fours.”
I manage to get my body up, and I wait for Daddy to tell me to lie down again. I don’t know how many times we do different commands, but by the end of it, I’m absolutely exhausted.
“You were such a good girl for Daddy today.” He picks me up and holds me close to his body.
I don’t fight him as my body relaxes, welcoming any and all care right now.
“Let’s go change your diaper, and then Daddy will feed you and put you to bed,” he informs me.
“Don’t wanna sleep,” I mumble.
Daddy chuckles. “You are so tired that you are going to fall asleep soon. There is no need to fight it.”
I grip onto his shirt. “Don’t wanna sleep.”
I don’t want to be away from Daddy. Once I fall asleep, I know that he is going to put me in the kennel, and I don’t want that. Why does he always have to put me in the kennel when I am asleep? Why can’t he just hold me for the whole night in his bed?
“Little one?” Daddy gently calls out.
“I don’t want to go to bed,” I whine as I open my eyes and look at him.
“Why? You are clearly exhausted and need your sleep. Don’t fight it,” he whispers.
Tears pool in my eyes as I look at Daddy, feeling really sad that he’s going to put me in the kennel soon, and I won’t be near him.
“Wow, Little one, what’s wrong?” Daddy asks, wide-eyed. “Don’t cry. You’re okay.”
“I don’t want to be in the kennel,” I whisper, letting the tears run down my face when I blink. “I don’t want to be away from you. I want to be next to you. I don’t want you to leave me. I don’t want to leave Venkoria and be taken away from you.”
Daddy blinks at me several times, and my heart sinks. Was he planning on letting me go back to the space station after all?
“I thought that’s what I wanted in the beginning, for you to give me back to the space station, but I don’t want that anymore.
I want you, and I don’t want to leave. I really don’t want to leave.
I’ll be a good girl, I promise. Please, don’t make me go back to the space station.
I don’t know how I’m going to survive without you,” I wail, letting all my emotions out.
“I promise that I’ll be a good girl and will follow everything you say, so you don’t get rid of me.
I’ll be the bestest person ever, even let you call me Little pet.
I just… Please don’t leave me. Please don’t send me back to the space station. I don’t know if I’ll survive.”
Daddy cups my face and gently rubs his thumbs over my cheeks.
“Take a deep breath in slowly,” Daddy calmly says.
“Daddy,” I whisper, even more tears welling in my eyes.
Is this his way of telling me that he is going to let me go after all? That I mean nothing to him, and he doesn’t want me anymore?
“Little one, take a deep breath in and slowly let it out. Help calm yourself down,” he reminds me again.
I shake my head and grab hold of his wrists. “Daddy, I don’t want to leave you. I will do anything you want me to if it means that I get to stay here.”
I’m that desperate to stay here, and Daddy is just putting it aside.
“I don’t want you to let me call you Little pet so that you can stay here.
I want you to be yourself and let me take care of you that way,” he gently says.
“I’m not going to give you back to the space station.
I don’t know where you got that idea, but it was never my intention to let you go back.
You are too precious to me to do that.” His voice is so soft as he speaks to me.
“But—"
“But nothing. You aren’t going back to the space station.
I don’t want you promising to be something that you aren’t so you can stay here, either.
I want you for who you are. I want you to be happy, and I know that if I keep calling you Little pet and you blindly follow whatever I say without any argument, you won’t be happy.
You are going to be so miserable, and that is going to make me miserable,” he explains.
I open and close my mouth several times as I look at Daddy.
“You really aren’t going to give me away?” I ask, my voice so fragile.
He shakes his head. “I’m not going to give you away. You are stuck with me for the rest of our lives.”
A smile blossoms on my face, and I jump forward, wrapping my arms around his neck and holding him close.
“Were you that worried?” Daddy asks.
“Yes,” I mumble.
It’s been on my mind for a while now. I never knew how to tell him that I didn’t want to leave.
“Where did you get the idea that you were going to get sent back to the space station?” Daddy asks. “Did anyone say anything to you?”
I stay silent, just holding onto Daddy.
“Little one, answer Daddy. Where did you get the idea from?” he asks once again.
I take a deep breath and slowly let it out.
“Leah.” His voice holds a warning tone.
“I just think it was my imagination. After you gave me the shot, my mind was running around wild. I just kept thinking about everything and anything, and then I realized just how much I missed you and how—"
“Take a deep breath for me,” Daddy gently says. “You aren’t in a rush to explain things to me. I’m not going to jump to conclusions.”
I take a deep breath and slowly let it out, seeing how out of breath I am.
“What was the rest?” Daddy asks.
“And how I didn’t want to be away from you.
I never want to be away from you. I knew that if I went back to the space station, I would slowly just wither away and be nothing.
” I whisper toward the end. “I used to not care whether I died on the space station or not, but now I do. Now I’ve tasted what it’s like to live and be with you, I don’t want to die.
I want to live with you and experience what it is going to be like for the rest of my life. ”
Daddy smiles as he gazes at me.
“I just want to be with you. We don’t even have to do anything special every day or even every week or month or even every year.
Being with you and having you take care of me every single day is more than enough,” I rush out.
“I used to think that I shouldn’t want it, that I couldn’t want it since I was going back to the space station, but I want it.
I don’t know why I fought you so much on everything in the beginning. ”
“Because you were afraid and didn’t know what was going to happen to you. I understand, and I don’t hold it against you,” he gently replies. “I know what you went through must have been hard, and I’m sorry that you had to go through it, but I’m also glad that you are here.”
“I have always wanted something like this. The girls and I would talk about it all the time on the space station, but we all knew that we were never going to get it. That it was just a dream. Then it happened, and I didn’t know what to do,” I explain.
“I didn’t know how to accept it or let you know that I liked it so much.
I was worried that once I told you, you wouldn’t do it anymore or send me back to the space station, so I fought with you.
And when I realized that, when I argued with you, and you tried to get me to stay even more, I wanted to keep fighting it so you would keep me here.
Or that’s what I think is what I was thinking. ”
All my emotions were jumbled up back then. Even now, it’s hard to distinguish what is right. But I don’t have to worry so much about it now. Daddy isn’t going to get rid of me.
“I’m glad you have come to this realization. Even if you fought me every single day, I wasn’t going to give up on you. I was never going to send you back to the space station. You are mine forever. I’m never getting rid of you. You can’t get away from me.” He smiles down at me.
I lay my head on his chest and take a deep breath, letting my whole body relax onto his.
“I love you,” I mumble.
“I love you too.” He kisses my forehead.