23. Celine
CELINE
The notebook now has a second notebook.
I started the first one the week I found page fourteen, back when I still believed a careful enough mind could find the gap in something built by people whose entire profession is leaving no gaps.
The second one started three weeks ago, after the night in this kitchen when Zane told me everything about Gregor, when something between us shifted into a register I still don’t have a clean name for.
I keep telling myself the second notebook exists because the first one ran out of room.
That isn’t the whole truth. The whole truth is that even now, even after everything, some stubborn part of me still needs to know there’s a door somewhere, whether or not I ever walk through it.
I open both notebooks on the kitchen counter on a Saturday morning while Zane is in his office on a call with Geneva, the city outside doing its slow weekend wake-up, and I lay out everything I’ve mapped so far.
Six entities. Four jurisdictions. The locked room in the middle that I’ve been circling for two months without finding the handle.
I am not a lawyer. I want to be clear about this, mostly to myself, because the version of me who started this process believed competence alone might be enough to compensate for the credentials I don’t have.
I have slowly learned that competence gets you exactly as far as the information allows, not one step further. But I am methodical, and methodical has gotten me three layers into a structure that took a team of corporate lawyers four months to build.
I start again from the holding company. Cayman Islands registration, no public directors, a registered agent address shared by at least four other shell structures I’ve already traced.
I’ve been here before. I know this wall by now, the way I know the creaking floorboard outside Lena’s old bedroom, an obstacle so familiar it has almost stopped registering as an obstacle.
Almost.
This time I try something different. Instead of working forward from the entity itself, I work backward from the registered agent.
The address in Georgetown comes up in a public filing I haven’t checked before, a routine corporate services notice buried in a database I found through Joanna months ago and never fully explored. The notice lists three other entities using the same agent during the same filing period.
I write all three down.
Two of them lead nowhere I haven’t already been. The third one is different. It’s not connected to the Volkov structure directly, not on paper, but the directors listed on its incorporation documents include a name I recognize from somewhere else entirely.
Dominic. Council member, the one who tested me at the first private dinner with the eastern logistics question, who I made like me in twenty minutes, and who has been cautiously warm to me ever since.
I sit back from my laptop.
This could mean nothing. Council members likely have financial interests scattered across dozens of structures that have nothing to do with the marriage contract specifically.
But it could also mean something, a thread connecting Zane’s personal arrangement to the broader financial architecture of the organization itself, which would explain why the structure was built with such extraordinary care in the first place.
Not just to bind me. To protect something larger that I haven’t fully understood the shape of yet.
I’m three layers deep into something that suddenly feels less like a contract and more like a vault.
I keep going.
By the third hour, I have a diagram that looks less like a corporate structure and more like a constellation, lines running between entities in four jurisdictions, Dominic’s name circled twice, a question mark beside the registered agent’s address that I can’t move past without information I don’t have access to.
Public records have given me everything they’re going to give me. The next layer requires something else entirely: court filings that aren’t digitized, banking relationships that exist behind doors I don’t have a key to, or someone inside the structure willing to talk.
I don’t have any of that.
I sit with the diagram for a long time, the coffee beside me gone cold, the way it always does now, the kitchen quiet except for the low hum of the building doing whatever buildings like this do to keep themselves running.
I think about asking Dominic directly.
The thought arrives and leaves almost as quickly, because I understand enough about this world now to know that asking a council member about his own financial structures, unprompted, by the woman whose contract those structures might be protecting, is not a conversation that ends well for me, regardless of how warmly he’s treated me so far.
I think about Joanna. About what she could do with three more names and a registered agent address. About whether there’s a version of this where I bring her something concrete enough that even an airtight contract starts looking less airtight once you understand what it’s actually protecting.
I don’t call her yet. I’m not ready. I want one more layer before I bring anyone else into this, some confirmation that what I’m seeing is real and not just the shape my own determination is forcing onto a set of unrelated facts.
I close the laptop.
I look at the wall in my diagram, the locked room with no handle, and for the first time in two months of hitting it, I don’t feel defeated by it.
I feel like I’m getting close to something. I don’t yet know what. But close enough that whoever built this structure made sure, very deliberately, that I would need help to go any further.
That tells me something too.
Zane finds me still at the counter when his call ends, the notebooks still open, the diagram still spread across three pages I haven’t bothered to hide. I used to put all of this away before he could see it.
I don’t anymore. Somewhere in the last few weeks, I stopped needing to keep this part of myself separate from the part of myself he already knows.
He looks at the pages for a moment. Doesn’t ask.
“Productive morning?” he says instead, and there’s something in his voice that isn’t quite teasing and isn’t quite serious either.
“I found a name,” I say, before I can decide whether I’m ready to.
He looks at me.
I don’t tell him which name. Not yet. I’m not ready to hand him something I haven’t fully understood myself, not when handing him things has historically meant losing whatever leverage I had left.
But I watch his face for a reaction anyway, some flicker that might tell me whether the structure underneath this contract is something he built alone or something built with people I’ve started to trust.
His face gives me nothing.
I close the notebook. “Just a corner I’m still working through,” I say.
He nods slowly, like he knows there’s more to it and has decided, for now, to let me keep it.
I pour the coffee I won’t drink, and I think about Dominic’s name circled twice on a page he’s never going to see, and I think about how much closer I might be to something than I’ve ever let myself believe.