Chapter 31 Myelas
MYELAS
I was more than a little surprised to find the titan, Bayn accompanying us all the way to Izzy’s bedroom. Though I took some solace from the fact that the huge man seemed awkward, unsure what to do, staying a little back from all of us. It was like he didn’t know why he’d been invited.
Izzy went to him, taking one of his hands — hers seemed tiny in his — and turned back to the rest of us.
“So… yeah, everyone, I’m sure you’ve met Bayn already, but in case anyone is unfamiliar… Bayn… this is Myel, Rook, Vyns, and Koar. There, now you all know each other and… Bayn will be joining us tonight.” She looked up at him. “Right?”
He seemed surprised by this. “If that’s what you want,” he said.
Something strange was going on between them, I sensed it through their interactions, but I also felt it through my bond with Izzy. She was… connected to the man in some way. Curious.
“It is.”
He looked from her to us.
“I… don’t share well. I… might be…”
“A dick?” Rook finished. “Don’t worry, we all know what to do with dicks.”
I couldn’t help a smile as Bayn tried to figure out what the incubus was implying.
“Sometimes none of us share well,” Vyns conceded. I had a feeling something had happened while I’d been away which had caused him to say that. “Just remember, the main thing here is, we all want Izzy to be happy.”
The titan bobbled his head at that, accepting the angel’s advice.
Time for me to speak up. “Izzy… could I have a moment alone before we… get going?”
“Sure,” she said easily, releasing the titan’s hand and coming to me.
“I’m gonna go freshen up,” Rook said, heading for the bathroom. “Make myself all washed and oiled for my lover, anyone wish to join me?”
Koar and Vyns caught on and began to leave. The dragon went over to the titan and pulled him out of the room as well, giving Izzy and I some privacy. Not that most of the guys didn’t have exceptional hearing and would probably be able to listen in from the other room.
“What’s up?” Izzy asked. “I know the bond’s a little tight, since you were away for so long, but I get the feeling it’s not that.”
“It isn’t,” I said, taking her hands and drawing her to the couch, where we sat side by side. “I realized something while I was in the capital.”
“Thanks for that, by the way. I didn’t want you to go, but…
your intel was amazing, it’s changed everything.
” Her eyes suddenly widened. “Wait… you don’t know yet do you?
Safir died. He fought off assassins trying to get to me, using some nasty poison and…
I couldn’t save him. I’m so sorry, I know you two were close. ”
I sighed heavily. I had heard. When I’d returned from my mission, Safir had been the man I’d sought out, but I’d been told what had happened and reported to Lhorine, Olinara, and Zora instead.
“I heard,” I said heavily. My feelings for the man were complicated, to say the least. During the time I’d known him, I’d gone from loving him like a father, to hating his guts for how he treated me and my bond to Izzy.
I’d also thought — for a while — that he was the reason for my inferiority issues.
That wasn’t the case. He may have taken advantage of my issues from time to time, being the leader I’d felt I needed in my life, but I was the one to blame for putting myself down.
“If we survive all this… I’ll mourn him in my own time.” I gave a sad smile. “But I know he would have been so damned happy to die protecting you.”
Izzy’s smile matched mine, bittersweet. “Yeah, he even said so at the end, something about fulfilling his oath.”
“Sounds like him.”
We sat in silent remembrance, before Izzy softly asked, “So, what did you want to talk about?”
“When I left… I said I had some things to work out… thank you for calling me out on that by the way. I had a lot of time alone to think in the capital and I’ve realized a few things.”
She smiled and squeezed my hands, encouraging me.
“I haven’t figured it all out yet,” I began, prefacing everything.
“But I’ve accepted that I have issues around feeling inferior, less than others.
It’s… how I’ve always felt, partly because I’m a shifter, but it goes even deeper than that.
Even as a shifter, I wasn’t the strongest and my own kind have been telling me that all my life. ”
“That can’t have been easy,” she sympathized.
I nodded. “It wasn’t. And now, in my head at least, I can see that I’ve survived longer than so many others.
I’ve gone through shit and I’m still here and that makes me strong.
But in my heart, I’m still a terrified little shifter boy, cringing at all the loud noises around me.
And I think the important part is that I take responsibility for that feeling.
I acknowledge it and want to change… but I’m still figuring out how to do that. ”
Izzy leaned in and kissed my cheek. “I’m not particularly good with feelings stuff, but I’m fairly sure admitting what you just did, takes a whole lot of courage. Thank you for telling me.”
I sat a little straighter. She was right.
Izzy lowered her voice to a conspiratorial whisper, “And, if it makes any difference, I can’t tell you the specifics, but I’m pretty sure Bayn’s issues make yours look like child’s play.”
Did that make a difference?
Not really… well okay, maybe a little.
Still, I felt good enough to joke about it. “Aw man, really? He’s bigger and stronger and tougher and even his issues dwarf mine. I can’t win!”
Izzy laughed… but only after I winked to let her know I wasn’t serious.
“Thank you for listening,” I said softly. “And for… pushing me to begin with. I’ll figure myself out and become a man you… no… I can be proud of.”
She kissed me again. “Yeah, because I’m already proud of you, you sexy, Goth, dreamboat.”
She shifted, straddling me, crushing her core to my hardening erection. “Think we have time for a quicky to satisfy the bond before the others get back?”
“I’d rather we take our time,” I said, pulling her lips down to mine. Her arms went around my neck and we melted into each other.
“Don’t know if that will be an option,” she whispered between stolen kisses.
Yeah. She was right. The bond was straining, demanding passion.
We quickly stripped, not even getting off the couch. Then she was back on my lap, spearing herself on my waiting cock and sighing with the most delectable moan of pleasure as I filled her.
“I’ve been experimenting with letting go of my own control issues,” she breathed as she rocked on me, quickly building her passion. “Want to help me with that?”
I could barely speak, her sensuous lust overwhelming me. I nodded.
“Good.” She quickly shifted, though, not in the way I’d expected.
She leaned back and to one side, pulling her leg up to drape it over my arm.
Then she did the same with the other side.
My hand slid down to her ass, it seemed natural in this position, cupping that lushness.
And with her legs draped over my arms, I had all the control. She was at my mercy.
“I’m all yours,” she breathed as I lifted her and set her back down, grinding on my cock. She bit her hip. “Yup, just like that.” Her arousal spiked, climbing higher, billowing through our bond into me and driving me closer to a peak.
I sank my fingers into her ass and moved her, sometimes pressing her close and grinding against her clit, other times bouncing her on my cock, and all the while our lips meshed, her arms locked around me, our kiss so deep I felt it in my soul.
I drove her onto me harder and harder, then crushed her close, as her orgasm exploded through our bond. That incredible surge of ecstasy blasted into me and I came with her. We moaned and grunted together, drinking each other’s lust like sweetest wine.
She pulled back a little from my lips, so she could gaze at me.
“No one can rock my world like you can,” she whispered. “Bayn may be big and Rook’s orgasms are divine, but with you… the bond… it’s always special in a way I can’t describe. I love you, Myel.”
She blinked and I felt her confusion and surprise. But… she didn’t take back the words. Then… slowly, like the sun rising, her face brightened, a wide smile on her lips.
“I do love you,” she said again, leaning her forehead to mine, her hair draped around us.
“You’re the first man I’ve ever said that to.
And it’s not the bond speaking.” This much I knew.
If it had been the bond, she’d have said it long ago.
“The bond brings us together, but you are… home to my heart.” She kissed me softly, then added, “Just as you are.”
And my own heart exploded with joy to hear this.
“I love you too, now and forever,” I breathed.
She smiled wider.
“I know. I feel it.”
Her love and adoration poured through the bond. It was the most glorious sensation. I felt a million times better than I had before we’d started. I may still have my issues, but she loved me, and if she could love me as I was…
…maybe I could too.