Chapter One
One month later, I still think about Eli when the clubhouse gets quiet. Not every second. Not every day in the same sharp, unbearable way. But sometimes.
When I pass the gate and see Connor standing there a little straighter than he used to.
When one of the prospects laughs too loudly and then catches himself like joy has to ask permission now.
When Cobra’s hand tightens around mine in the truck for no obvious reason, and I know he’s thinking about the same thing I am.
Eli’s funeral happened three days after I came home.
Home.
I can say that now without stumbling over it.
The day was gray, like the sky understood what kind of goodbye it needed to be. The whole club stood together, cuts on, faces hard, grief hidden beneath discipline because that’s what these men do. They bury pain under structure. Under loyalty. Under ritual.
Logan spoke. Not long. Not pretty. But every word landed.
Eli died like a brother. So they buried him like one. They put the patch with him.
I remember that most clearly. The way every man went still when Logan laid it down. The way the prospects broke a little, even the ones trying not to. The way Cobra stood behind me, one hand at the back of my neck, grounding me while I cried silently enough that only he could feel it.
I told them what Eli said. That he refused. That he apologized when he had nothing to apologize for. That he was brave. I needed them to know. Since then, things have been quiet. Not perfect.
Quiet doesn’t mean healed. Quiet doesn’t mean safe forever.
I know better than that now. There are still men in the basement sometimes.
Still phone calls that make Cobra’s eyes go flat and Logan’s office door close.
Still Matteo’s name spoken with tension.
Still the RICO investigation hanging somewhere beyond us like a storm that hasn’t decided when to break.
But inside the clubhouse, life has found its rhythm again.
Kids run. Women laugh. Men curse over things that are either serious or completely ridiculous, and half the time I can’t tell which until someone throws something.
Cobra sleeps now. Not always through the night. Not always easily. But if I’m in his arms, he sleeps. That feels like a miracle I don’t talk about too loudly because I don’t want to scare it away.
And me?
I’m happy. Not untouched. Not unchanged. But happy. That matters. After everything, that matters more than I know how to explain.
Today, the clubhouse is full, but not in the usual way.
The men are outside. Most of them, anyway.
Twisted, Shaina and Logan’s dad, somehow got them out there under the excuse of a family day, though none of us believed for a second he needed a reason beyond wanting them exactly where he wanted them.
The kids are with the moms and older women for now, which means the main room feels strangely empty even though it’s packed with women. And energy. So much energy. Suspicious energy.
Mac is pacing near the couch, phone in one hand, her hair curled and pinned back in a way that looks casual only if you don’t know how long it took.
Kya sits on the edge of a chair, bouncing one knee, pretending she’s not nervous while failing spectacularly.
Brooke keeps smoothing her hands over her dress bag, not even wearing the dress yet and already fussing with it like Carter might somehow sense wrinkles from outside.
Emma is calm. If the world ended, Emma would probably ask everyone if they needed water before organizing the survivors.
Shaina stands beside Raven, both of them looking amused and slightly overwhelmed.
Bella keeps peeking out the window, then turning back with a grin that gets wider every time she checks.
Brynn is quiet, but her eyes are bright.
Allison and Ana are whispering together near the kitchen, and every once in a while, Ana laughs under her breath like she knows this is either the best idea we’ve ever had or the worst. Probably both.
I stand in the middle of it all, holding the garment bag Mac handed me twenty minutes ago, my heart beating too fast. “This is really happening,” I say.
Bella turns from the window. “Oh, it is definitely happening.”
Kya exhales. “Before anyone changes their mind.”
“I’m not changing mine,” Mac says.
“No one said you were,” Raven says. “You’re the reason half of us didn’t sleep.”
Mac points at her. “You agreed.”
“I agreed because chaos is fun.”
Shaina smiles slightly. “You agreed because Joker is going to look like he’s been shot.”
Raven’s mouth curves. “That too.”
Brooke presses her lips together, but a laugh slips out anyway.
I look down at the bag in my hands. My wedding dress is inside.
Wedding dress.
The words still don’t feel real.
A month ago, I was standing on a mirrored runway being sold to strangers.
A month ago, men called me inventory. A month ago, I had a collar around my throat and thought survival meant staying quiet long enough for Cobra to find me.
And now I’m standing in the clubhouse, surrounded by women who have endured things that would have broken weaker people, holding a dress I chose for myself.
No one forced this. No one asked permission.
No man planned it. That’s the part that makes my chest ache in the best way. The women decided.
We were done waiting.
Done being claimed in every way that mattered except the one the outside world recognized. Done letting the men act like old lady was enough when every single one of them would burn down the courthouse if anyone tried to say we weren’t family.
Mac said it first. And apparently, when Mac gets an idea, it becomes reality before anyone can blink.
Twisted helped. That surprised me at first, though it probably shouldn’t have.
He might be old guard, might carry the weight of years and blood and club history in every line of his face, but there was something almost tender in the way he looked at all of us when Mac told him what we wanted. Not asked. Told.
He’d smiled slowly and said, “About damn time.”
Now here we are. Wedding dresses hidden in the clubhouse. Men outside with no idea. Women choosing permanence like a declaration of war and love at the same time.
Emma steps beside me and touches my arm lightly. “You okay?”
I nod, then shake my head, then laugh because both are true. “I don’t know. I think so.”
“That’s fair.”
“I keep thinking about how fast everything happened.”
Her expression softens. “Fast doesn’t always mean wrong.”
“No,” I whisper. “It doesn’t.”
Because with Cobra, fast never felt like reckless.
It felt like recognition. Like my life slammed into his and somehow both of us understood before we had language for it.
Still, nerves twist through me. Not doubt.
Never doubt. But the weight of it. Cobra is not a man who expects softness from life.
He doesn’t ask for gifts. He doesn’t assume joy is meant for him.
Even after everything, even after love, there are still moments when I see the boy he used to be buried behind his eyes.
The one who learned not to want because wanting gave the world a target.
Today, I get to give him something he can’t dismiss. Something permanent. Something chosen. Something no monster can twist into ownership because this is mine to give. Myself. My future. My vows.
Mac claps her hands once, making half the room jump. “Okay. Dresses. Now. We’re on a schedule.”
Kya groans. “You’re terrifying.”
“Thank you.”
“I didn’t mean it as a compliment.”
“I took it as one.”
The room bursts into movement. Garment bags unzip. Shoes appear. Makeup gets touched up. Someone swears because a clasp won’t cooperate. Someone else yells for pins. Bella nearly trips over a bag and then blames Blaze even though he’s outside and nowhere near her. It’s chaos.
Beautiful chaos.
I slip into one of the side rooms with Emma and Brooke helping me. My dress is simple compared to some of the others. Soft white, fitted through the waist, flowing enough that I can breathe. No heavy sparkle. No dramatic train. Just me.
At least, the version of me I want to be today.
When Emma zips it, I stare at myself in the mirror.
For a second, my throat tightens. Mirrors still do that sometimes.
Not always. But sometimes. The auction room flashes before I can stop it.
Bright lights. Cameras. My face painted into something that didn’t feel like mine.
The collar at my throat. Men’s voices coming from nowhere and everywhere.
Then Brooke steps into the reflection beside me.
She doesn’t touch me right away. She just stands there.
Present.
“You’re here,” she says quietly.
I breathe in. Then out. I nod. “I’m here.”
Emma’s hand settles gently on my shoulder. “And you’re beautiful.”
The words don’t feel like the ones they said about me that night. Pretty thing. Lot seventeen. Inventory. This is different. Because Emma says it like she sees me. Not a body. Not a product.
Me.
My eyes burn. “Don’t make me cry before I get out there,” I whisper.
Brooke smiles. “Too late. We all cried once already. It’s basically required.”
That gets a laugh out of me, shaky but real. By the time we step back into the main room, all the women are ready. And God, they are stunning.
Mac looks like power wrapped in white lace.
Kya looks softer than usual but still like she might curse someone out at the altar if necessary.
Brooke is elegant, quiet and glowing. Shaina looks steady and fierce.
Raven looks like a gothic dream Joker is absolutely not prepared to survive.
Bella looks radiant and mischievous. Brynn looks nervous and luminous.
Allison is grinning like she’s barely holding herself together.
Ana wipes under one eye and pretends she isn’t emotional.
Emma steps into place beside us, and for a moment, nobody jokes.