Chapter 38
Felix is out there waiting and plotting to get to us, but I refuse to let that knowledge dampen my happiness. All I focus on is the fact that Blake survived, that we’re both healing, and that our group’s bond is strong and tight.
It’s been a month, and Blake has respected the doctor’s bed rest order. The wound in my chest has been healing nicely as well, only leaving behind a faint scar.
Blake’s front is plastered to my back, and I feel his erection poking my back. I live in a permanent state of horniness. But I have been so afraid to hurt him that I’ve stopped every time he would try something.
Before he can even start groaning and arguing about the only thing that’s hurting is his dick, I turn around and kiss him and slip out of bed. His intense gaze follows my every move. I miss his hands on me, his body pinning me under him as he fucks me. His patience is wearing thin—just like mine.
“Get your ass in bed this instant.” His command, delivered in that deep, husky voice laced with desire, almost undoes me.
“We’ve managed so far… we can do it for a while longer.”
“You were with me yesterday when the doctor cleared me,” he reminds me, sending a ripple of lust straight between my thighs.
But the fear of losing him is still fresh. It’s a wound pulsing with terror every time I remember him teetering between life and death. I’d forsake sex to have him with me. I tell myself that my fear is unfounded, but it will take a while to get over what we went through, and that’s okay, too. Healing is a marathon, not a sprint, and that involves patience. Cutting yourself some slack and exercising self-care and love during hard times is imperative.
Blake slips out of bed and wraps his arms around me, kissing my forehead.
My palms rest against his chest, his heart beating under my touch, instantly calming me. Every day, it’s a compulsion to feel the life pumping in him. I believe if his ends, mine will too, and vice versa.
“Talk to me, baby.”
I sigh. “We’ve been talking for the last month about my fears. You must be getting tired.”
“No, because your physical, emotional, and mental well-being are all that matter to me. I am afraid, too. Just the thought that I could lose you makes me go insane.”
“Have I told you that you’re the best boyfriend ever?”
“Hmm, I am, aren’t I?”
I slap his chest playfully. “You’re so full of yourself.”
“And I want you to be full of me.”
“I am well aware. Your dick has been incessantly trying to get inside of me.”
He bites my earlobe and goose bumps scatter on my skin. Kissing along my sensitive neck, a shot of desire zaps through me. I am about to give in when there’s a knock on my door.
“Breakfast is ready,” Bailey says.
“That little cockblocker.”
I giggle. He’s so cute when he’s riled up.
“We’re going to the lodge this weekend.”
What he doesn’t say rings louder. No more excuses .
And I love it there. We have only been once since we returned from the hospital, but I didn’t allow what happened to me impact how I feel about our place. One weekend together sounds lovely. I love spending time with our friends, but we need some alone time as well.
When we reach the kitchen, Dane is feeding Abi, and Kaden is cutting pancakes for Celine. But when I look at my brother and Bailey, they’re on opposite sides of the table, and their tension is palpable.
Blake pulls a chair out and brings me down with him, so I end up sitting on his lap.
“Is that really necessary?” my brother asks.
“You don’t like it? Look somewhere else,” Blake says and brings the fork to my lips.
This moment feels so wholesome, I could burst with happiness.
“We’re going to the lodge for the weekend,” Blake announces.
“Someone is going to get laid,” Abi says.
My brother drags a hand down his face. “Come on, guys.”
“I don’t get why that bothers you with all the girls flocking around you. You shouldn’t feel this tense all the time,” Bailey says.
Hunter glares at her. “Jealous, kitten?”
It’s like they ignore the fact that we’re here as well. They’ve been at each other’s throats, and it’s obvious that they feel something for one another. Instead of giving in, they bicker all the time.
Finishing breakfast, the girls and I head to the main campus together.
“Did you hear him? The nerve of him. I know he’s your brother, but I could squeeze his neck,” Bailey says.
Abi stops and places her hands on Bailey’s shoulders. “Okay, I’ve been waiting for you to realize this, but… you like him.”
Bailey blinks at her, a shudder going through her. “I… no… I refuse to.”
“She’s still in denial. She has to come to terms with it first, Abi,” Celine says.
Bailey remains silent for the rest of the walk when Abi says, “Do you think we’ll catch that asshole before Dane’s racing season starts?”
“You’ll be at his races anyway,” I say, not liking that one bit, but no one could keep me away from Blake, either.
“Mom is stressing out. We had dinner last night, and there was a bit of tension between my parents,” Celine says.
“As the matriarch, she has to have some secrets,” Abi says.
“Kaden won’t.”
“Yeah, but until then…” I remind her.
Bailey waves at us and takes off to the media department.
“Hunter and Bailey are getting worse,” Celine says, and Abi sighs.
“You think pushing them helps, but they are like baby ducks stepping into the water for the first time,” I say.
“I can’t wait for tonight. Finally a night out,” Celine says.
“Thank you for your support, girls.”
“Hey, we’re family. But I can’t watch anymore movies or have game nights. At least for a while,” Abi says.
“Girl, you’re so getting fucked tonight, and I can stop muffling my moans in the pillow,” Celine says. They burst into laughter while heat creeps up my neck.
Since Blake had to be on bed rest, they all helped me by keeping him occupied at home, and apparently, they also went above and beyond that.
“Aww, thank you for being so selfless, you two.”
“Shut up,” Abi says. “Dane is not that selfless. When I tried to muffle his name, he basically stopped mid-fucking and brought me to our place.”
I chuckle. “He’s something else.”
“Well, there will be no more muffled sounds. I swear Kaden went from understanding to fucking me so hard every time we weren’t at the house just to get the moans he wanted.”
***
At the end of my classes, Blake waits for me, and knowing he’s mine makes the experience even better.
I rush to him and jump into his arms. He catches me, kissing and swirling me around.
“That’s a mandatory greeting from now on,” he says through kisses.
Hand in hand, we walk to the house.
“You seem really excited about going out later,” he says teasingly.
“I am. It will do me good to let loose.”
“Oh, you so will.”
A current travels through me, my patience hanging by one frail thread that’s going to snap at any moment.
When we walk inside, he stays with the guys in the living room for a bit, while I go to our girls’ room––the Lady Boss Lair, where the girls are getting ready.
A bottle of champagne chills on the table, and I pick up a glass. “To a magical night.”
We toast and get dressed. I wear a purple dress that is so tight I can’t even wear panties. Then I put on a biker jacket and matching black leather boots.
I cat line my eyes and brush on a bit of mascara. Adding a bit of kiss-proof lipstick, I finish my look by wearing Blake’s diamond hair clip. I turn around, and the girls give me a thumbs up. I take a seat and sip from my glass until everyone else is ready.
“So, how is everyone really holding up?” I ask the girls.
“I am intent on looking on the bright side of things for once. I’m alive. No pressure to be someone I’m not and having the liberty to chase after my dreams freely. It’s not that I am channeling an ostrich who buries her head in the sand, but I want to focus on the present more,” Abi says. “I freaking deserve to live and love and laugh and dream. And no one will take that from me ever again.”
“I just want to enjoy this break. I’m getting tired of constantly being on alert, worrying all the damn time. All my future plans involve leaving something better behind, but for once, I want to take each day as it comes and live,” Celine says. “After everything that’s what we should all do—learn to live.”
“I need to stay busy so I can function, and until Felix is found, I can’t think of anything else,” Bailey says. “I wouldn’t even know where to start with making a life plan… I’m good at one thing. Live vicariously for me, girls. I think I am destined to live half a life with half a heart and half a will.”
“You found their location once, you’ll find it again. Give yourself a break, Bailey.”
“And what about you?” Bailey asks. Celine, Abi, and I exchange a worried look, knowing she redirects the attention from her on purpose.
“After what I went through, hold my glass while I conquer the educational world.”
We all burst into laughter, savoring this carefree moment.
Celine wears a silver-bluish backless dress, Abi a fitted pink one, and Bailey a green dress with cutouts in the middle.
Our giggles announce our presence, but when my eyes land on Blake, every other sound and presence fades away.
I reach him on shaky legs and breathlessly after he sweeps his hungry gaze three times over my body.
“You look stunning.”
He looks the same in a black button-down shirt and pants, hugging his muscled body perfectly.
When we reach The Cave, the music pounds and bottles are being exchanged as drinks fill. The girls yank me to them, and we dance until my phone vibrates.
Come outside. Blake texts. I lift my eyes, but he’s not at the bar any longer.
Once I am outside, I get a new message. Turn right.
Excitement replaces the worry as I turn the corner, and a hand slaps against my mouth. My heart pounds like crazy, fear licking at my skin, but not for long. Blake’s spicy, leathery scent is the first thing I notice, instantly curbing the adrenaline rush.
“Shh.” His deep voice and familiar touch make me dizzy on my feet as he takes my senses on an addictive ride. “Don’t make a sound, baby, if you don’t want others to see what will happen.”
He spins me around, and my palms slap against the wall. His fingers skim along my dress, and he pulls at the tight hem. Every inch has me burning hotter for him. His breath fans my skin, inflaming my desire into a raging fire.
“I wanted to take it easy on you, but you’ve denied me my pussy for so long…”
“A hard fuck... I don’t know how I’ll survive it,” I tease him.
A slap resounds as it connects with my ass. He won’t hold back tonight. Desire lights me up, setting my body ablaze. When he pulls the dress over my ass, his thumb brushes along my pussy.
“And no panties,” he says, sounding so damn pleased.
“It’s the dress.”
“Yes, baby, this fucking dress that could make a saint sin. And I am only a sinner, so I will just dive in.”
I hear people around me, and every time the club door opens, letting the music escape, my pulse spikes. I’ve never experienced this heady combination of wanting to fuck and fearing to be caught.
I hear the pop of a button and a zipper pulling down, and then Blake aligns himself to my pussy. I suck in a breath, the anticipation makes the experience even hotter. It wouldn’t surprise me if I exploded into a supernova. One palm is at the side of my face, as he enters me so slowly it’s a delicious torment.
“Look at me.”
Looking over my shoulder, there’s so much love for me in those greens that appear almost black now with lust for me. And with one thrust, he’s inside of me. I cry out his name, I am sure I am loud enough to be heard. But he stretches me so good and fills me up to the point I can’t think straight. I become all raw senses––no more made of bones and flesh but a pleasure vessel.
“Please, Blake.” I am not silent at all. It’s been so long, but honestly, I don’t even know what I am asking of him. But if he stops, I might scream bloody murder. How I missed him filling me up, making me take all of him. My body shakes as my pussy stretches to accommodate him, and I let out unintelligible sounds, vibrating with delight.
“What are you asking me? To stop? We both know I can’t and won’t until this tight cunt comes all over my cock.”
I rise to my tiptoes every time he pushes me to my limits. That addictive stretch and so much fullness make me lose my inhibitions. I am safe with him.
Every time his balls slap against me, he groans. “You feel so fucking good. Jesus Christ, I can’t get enough of you.” His mouth slams against mine, devouring me at the same time as he fucks me––consuming me.
It’s too much––an unbound pleasure. It’s sweet rapture and a maddening experience feeling every ridge and thick inch he feeds my pussy, again and again. My release shoots up, leaving my body a quivering mess, and I explode, breathing heavily and moaning my pleasure in his mouth as he sucks on my tongue greedily.
“You did so well, Silver, but I need one more.”
Another orgasm. He’s killing me in the best way. He pulls himself out of me and turns me around. Stepping between my legs, he lifts me up by my ass, so I end up hooking my legs around his back, my heels pressing into his butt.
“One more, baby. I know you can, my good girl. My perfect woman.”
At any moment, someone could round the corner and see us fucking, but his praise makes me forget everything. Neither of us keeps his pleasure silent as he thrusts inside of me, and we both moan-groan at the same time. I don’t care, losing myself in his eyes and this divine pleasure. The world could end and all I’d want is one more moment with him.
“I live for you and this sweet pussy that turns me into a madman.”
He fucks me like one: all hard, intense, and toe-curling until he fills me up as we come at the same time. But instead of hurrying, he gets between my legs and trails his cum and my juices, putting them back inside me.
“I can’t believe you’re doing that right now.”
“You didn’t seem to mind when I had my cock in you. Well, baby, my cum has to stay inside of you, serving as a reminder of who you belong to.”
He pulls my dress down as I comb my fingers through my hair to rearrange it, and the moment he zips up his slacks, someone rounds the corner.
“Oh my god… we’re never doing this again.”
“But you came so hard—twice—in such a short amount of time.”
I bury my head in the crook of his neck. “My heart is still pounding like crazy… but thank you––”
“No, don’t thank me. You’ve wrecked my defenses, consumed my thoughts, and conquered my heart. I love only you. Everything in me wants only you. All my life I’m going to satisfy your every fantasy and fulfill your every dream.”
“I love you, Blake. With all of me. Until the end.”