Chapter 107 Christianna
Chapter one hundred seven
Christianna
We are on the couch. I grabbed a notepad to write things down. Ruiz has gone off to bed now that the alarms are set in the house.
Erik draws out his phone.
How did I get here? Shit. I can do this.
I clench my pen tightly as he reads the first item. I'll make slash marks after the item on the list, to make sure we all agree.
Kissing – III
Open mouth kissing – III
Nudity with lights on – III
Oral sex on Tianna – II…… I (awkward)
Oral sex on them
“I have a question about this,” I say. “If I’m doing it, can I do it because I want to, and not because it’s a have to?”
Erik’s phone drops into his lap. “All of this is based on want and desire.”
Remy’s hand squeezes my knee. “If you are ever not in the mood, even for something we’ve done before, you can say no. You never have to do anything.”
I nod. “Okay. It’s just… he wanted that a lot, and the thought makes me kind of nauseous. And please God, never grade what I do.”
Remy shifts, crouching so he’s level with me. “This is a no unless and until you want it.”
I give a small nod and gesture for Erik to continue.
Vaginal sex – III
Anal sex – I ??
Breast adoration – III
Public affection – III
Safe word – Dissonance – III
Being ordered based on stated preferences – II…… I (if I can use the safe word)
Voyeurism between the three of us – III
“Okay,” I breathe out. “Can we call this good for now and revisit other things later? This already feels like a lot.”
Erik nods. “Yes. If we ever go further, we have our safe word. That covers us.” He pauses. “Last questions.”
STD free – III
“And are you on birth control?”
“I am. I will never not be again.” My voice stays steady. “I don’t know if I’d want to try to have a baby again. I’m not there yet. I need to put that out there. Do you want kids?”
Kids – II…?
“Is it a deal breaker if I decide not to?”
“No,” Erik says immediately.
“Never,” Remy says, almost over him.
“Okay.” I glance at the dogs curled together on the loveseat. “I guess we have a start. Now we need to take them out.”
“Tianna,” Remy says gently, “one last question. Can we spend the night tonight? Just to sleep. With you?”
My smile is slow as I raise my thumb.