Chapter 29
Melody
My hand is stinging. He made me jerk him off with the hand he put a knife through, and now I’m bleeding everywhere again. I am hopeless. After he finished he donned the pearls around my throat, and then he threw a towel from his back pocket at me to clean myself up with. Usually he just lets me sit with his mess all over me. I clean off as fast as I can, throwing the towel across the room.
When he left he turned off the lights again, so I’m now plunged back into darkness. I feel around for the chain secured to my ankle and try again to pull it from the floor. It’s useless though, I don’t have the strength to do anything but cause myself more pain. I give up and huddle back into the corner of the room.
I can’t believe I didn’t think of him sooner, but then again why would I have? In school, he seemed like a normal person. He never came off like he liked me or that he was obsessive over me. Nothing to set off any alarms at least. We would work on our homework a lot together which meant staying at the library pretty late sometimes, but I never got the feeling or notion that he liked me more than just friends.
I’m terrified of what’s to come later tonight. I’ve been lucky so far that he hasn’t attempted to rape me, but it sounds like my luck has finally run out. Tears run down my cheeks, but instead of feeling fear and anger, all I feel is resignation. I think I have come to accept that no one is going to save me, not the police and certainly not Jax. Thinking his name causes my heart to stutter. I was falling for him so hard only for him to be ripped from me before we really had a chance to explore our relationship further.
And what kills me is that the last thing we said to each other was a stupid argument about money for the repairs to my house. It seems so ridiculous now.
I wish I had kissed him one last time, if only to help me get through what is coming.