Chapter 34 Kaitlyn
KAITLYN
Kaitlyn didn’t go straight back to her suite. She didn’t want to be stuck inside a small space when she was so full of sorrow and fury. Instead, she wandered the Mother Ship aimlessly, turning the problem over and over in her mind, unable to reach a solution.
Finally she looked up and realized that she had somehow walked all the way to the center of the ship.
She was in the parklands in the very middle of the Mother Ship—rolling green and purple hills where families came to play and have picnics under the warm light of the artificial green sun overhead.
In fact, she was standing in front of the Sacred Grove—the place where the priestesses who served the Kindred Goddess lived and worshipped.
Kaitlyn had only been here once, during the wedding of a coworker.
She loved the graceful beauty of the tall trees with their green and purple leaves, rustling in a light breeze.
It was such a peaceful place—so filled with warmth and light and goodness.
It felt to her like nothing bad or evil could even come near it—like all sorrow and grief could be washed away just by walking under the shade of those slender trees.
On impulse, she took off her shoes—remembering that this was protocol here since the Sacred Grove was considered holy ground—and stepped into the shadow of the trees.
At once, she felt better. She breathed in and a warm, green, growing aroma filled her senses. Surely there was someone here who could help her—who could tell her what to do.
“Hello?” she said aloud, tentatively. “Hello, is there anyone here?”
There was no reply and at first, she thought she must be alone in the Grove after all. But a moment later, the branches rustled and a woman wearing a long white gown stepped through the trees and came towards her.
Kaitlyn recognized her as one of the priestesses who served the Goddess at once. She had green streaks in her long gray hair and the green-within-green eyes which meant she had been in service to the Kindred deity for a long time.
“Hello, daughter,” the priestess said, nodding gracefully. “Are you in need of wisdom?”
“Yes,” Kaitlyn said. “I am. But…” She nibbled her lower lip. “I’m not quite sure how to tell you what’s wrong.”
“Tell me what you can,” the priestess invited. “Your words will remain here with me and will not pass the borders of the Sacred Grove.”
“Thank you.” Kaitlyn nodded. “Well…I’m an Ambassador for the Kindred Mother ship and I have a Protector—a Kindred warrior who comes with me everywhere I go to keep me safe. So…” She took a deep breath. “On this last mission we were on, we had to, er, pretend to be married—Bonded, I mean.”
“I know what you mean.” The priestess nodded and made a hand motion. “Go on.”
“Well…things got a little out of hand.” Kaitlyn made an aimless motion, not sure how to explain what “out of hand” meant. “We…went further with our fake marriage than we meant to,” she said at last. “And now it seems like…it seems like he hates me.”
She was surprised to feel tears stinging her eyes again. She’d been feeling like she wanted to cry ever since they’d come back to the Mother Ship, but she hadn’t let herself break down. Now, suddenly, it felt like her emotions were right on the edge and she couldn’t hold back anymore.
“He wants to break our partnership and leave,” she whispered, as tears poured down her face. “I thought…I really thought we were getting closer. Maybe even close enough to actually Bond. But he can’t forgive me for what happened, and I don’t know what to do.”
“Oh, daughter—I feel your pain. Come here.” The priestess held out her arms and Kaitlyn found herself enfolded in a warm, comforting hug. She sobbed harder, glad to find her comfort at last, even in the arms of a stranger.
The priestess stroked her hair and murmured,
“All will be well, my child. Do not let your heart be troubled.”
“I just don’t know what to do…what to say. How to get through to him.” Kaitlyn sniffed and stepped back, wiping her eyes.
“Well, you—” The Priestess stopped speaking abruptly and a blank look came over her face. Kaitlyn stared at her, worried.
“Hello?” she asked tentatively. “Are you all right?” Was the woman having a stroke or—
Suddenly the Priestess’s face came back to life and her eyes…Kaitlyn stared in disbelief.
Her green-within-green eyes were glowing.
“Hello?” she said again. “Are you okay?”
“I am well, Daughter.” The voice that came from the Priestess’s lips didn’t sound like her own. It was deeper and more powerful, though still feminine—it echoed through the Sacred Grove, imbued with gravitas and authority.
Kaitlyn took a step back.
“Who are you?” she whispered. “What’s going on?”
“Do not fear, Daughter,” the priestess said. “It is I—the Mother of All Life—I am simply speaking to you through one of my chosen vessels.”
“You mean…you’re the Goddess? The Kindred Goddess?” Kaitlyn asked, her voice shaking. She knew that all the Kindred warriors worshipped the female deity, but she wasn’t a true believer herself. Though after this, she could hardly deny the reality of the divine being.
“I am she,” the priestess said—or rather, the Goddess said through her. “I have come to tell you that I mean for you and Braze to be together. Your needs and desires compliment one another—truly, you were made for one another.”
Kaitlyn gave a bitter laugh.
“Try telling that to Braze—he won’t even talk to me.”
“You will find a way through to him.”
The Goddess spoke with such authority that Kaitlyn didn’t dare to question her—though she had no idea how she was going to get the big Beast Kindred to open up to her and talk.
“You wonder how this reconciliation will come about, the Goddess said, clearly reading her mind. “I will tell you—the key to your future lies in your warrior’s past.”
“His past?” Kaitlyn frowned and shook her head. “I…I don’t understand.”
“You will,” the Goddess told her. “When the time comes, you will know what to say…and what to do. Do not hold back, Daughter—lean into your nature and fulfill your destiny.”
Then, before Kaitlyn could ask any more questions, the priestess’s eyes abruptly stopped glowing and she took a deep gasping breath and staggered.
“Hey—are you all right?” Kaitlyn caught her by the arm.
“Forgive me…” The Priestess looked woozy. “I am…not myself.”
“Here—take it easy.” Kaitlyn helped her sit on a nearby tree root protruding up from the ground and crouched beside her. “Are you all right?” she asked again.
“I think so.” The priestess took a deep breath and inhaled deeply. “Was I…indwelled?”
“If you mean did the Goddess speak to me through you, then yes—you were indwelled,” Kaitlyn said, hoping she was getting the right meaning of the word.
“Ah, no wonder.” The priestess nodded. “It is an honor to host the Mother of All Life, but very tiring as well.” She looked up at Kaitlyn. “What did she tell you, if I may ask?”
“Well to be honest, I didn’t really understand it. She told me that the key to my future lay in my Protector’s past.” Kaitlyn shook her head. “I’m not sure what I ought to do with that, but the Goddess told me I would know when the time was right.”
“Then you will know,” the priestess said with confidence. “You have been blessed, child—it is not often that the Goddess speaks in person to her children. Go back to your warrior with confidence that things will turn out according to Her will.”
“I hope you’re right.” Kaitlyn helped the priestess to her feet. She still looked a bit tired, but she was clearly no longer dizzy. “Er…thank you for your help,” she said.
“You are very welcome. Please come back any time you need guidance. We who serve the Mother of All Life are always here.” The priestess squeezed her arm comfortingly. “And don’t worry—the will of the Goddess will be done, and she only wants good things for her children.”
“Thank you,” Kaitlyn said again.
As she left the Sacred Grove and slipped into her shoes again, she felt oddly comforted. She still wasn’t sure what the Goddess had meant when she told her that the key to her future lay in Braze’s past, but she did understand what she’d said about leaning into her nature.
She would do exactly that, she told herself. And if she couldn’t get through to Braze, at least she would be able to tell herself she’d tried every way possible before giving up.