Chapter 8
eight
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Jahsir
I turned Crimson every which way but loose last night, and somehow that still wasn’t enough.
We’d just showered a few hours ago, hoping to sleep in until Scarlett woke up, but Crimson woke up first. She placed kisses on my lips, begging me to wake up.
When I didn’t stir, she covered my dick with her mouth and didn’t move.
Instead, she allowed my dick to expand and reach its full length in her mouth.
When it was all said and done, my dick was settled in the back of her throat.
Her throat muscles massaged my dick as her mouth filled with saliva.
When her mouth was good and full, she slid me out, then bobbed.
Up and down,
Up and down,
Steadily,
Intentionally,
Up and down,
Up and down.
She trailed kisses down my shaft and took me into her mouth again, massaging my balls while simultaneously swirling her tongue around my tip, bringing me to my peak.
“Fuck, Red damn,” I whispered as my fingers found their way to her curls.
“I need to feel that pussy, too,” I added, removing my dick from her mouth.
Crimson lowered herself onto me. “Mmh.” She moaned. We both looked across to the crib. Thank goodness Scarlett was still sleeping. We had been at this all night and morning with no interruption. It was much needed.
Red rocked her hips gently, back and forth, and instinctively, my hands found their way to her waist. She then balanced on her feet, giving me direct access to her spot.
She drenched my dick with her juices almost instantly while my dick caressed her spot.
Losing control, she fell back to her knees and slowly rocked her hips, trying to hold her nut.
I held her in place, firmly thrusting from underneath.
Her nails gripped my chest, and her forehead wrinkled as she took her bottom lip into her mouth.
I sat up, bringing my chest to hers. Red wrapped her arms around my neck, while I sucked on hers.
Together, our bodies conversed, once again communicating the need for one another.
“Red, I’m not gon be able to pull out. You feel too fuckin good.”
“Then don’t,” she whispered into my ear.
And with that, I filled her to the brim, then watched it drip out of her after she fell back to the bed.
Red and I lay intertwined in the sheets.
I inhaled the scent of her hair, savoring it as if I’d never smell it again.
The morning sex and afternoon haze made us lazy.
We separated long enough to feed, change, and entertain Scarlett.
But soon after, we were basking in the company of one another again.
I missed this. I’d spent the last few years getting my dick wet but refusing commitment at the same time.
I yearned for intimacy and was settled now that I’d found it again in Red.
And while I was at peace, she seemed troubled.
Her breath was heavy with concern. The space between us that was once calm was now filled with questions.
I gently traced circles on her arm, feeling a warmth that once felt like home.
My mind drifted back to the night she gave me her virginity.
She was timid then, but now was the exact opposite, practically begging for more.
The only thing that remained the same was her worry.
Even now, it was etched across her face like she was about to blow her entire world up.
“Jah,” she whispered.
“Don’t tell me you’re ready for another round,” I joked with her.
She smiled slightly, but concern once again covered her face.
Crimson sat up from my chest and draped the sheet around her breasts.
She shifted slightly, then rubbed her delicate hands through her hair.
“What’s wrong, Red?” I asked, sitting up now.
“I need to be honest with you, Jah. And what I am about to say may tear us apart for good. But I can’t not tell you.”
“What's wrong, Crim?”
“Remember when Venus said I had secrets too?” I nodded as the hair on the back of my neck stood up. “Well, um, Quincy.” She hesitated, biting her lip. “Quincy is Scarlett’s father.”
“Que? Que that-”
“Yes, him.”
Silence filled the room, my disappointment hanging heavily in the air.
I felt like we were building a new foundation.
Trust was the main building block for it, and it quickly disappeared.
The reality of the truth settled in. The decisions I made caused a Domino Effect in the lives of everyone around me.
Gathering my thoughts, I chose my next words carefully.
I had many questions. Even if she had answers, the outcome would still be the same.
Red had a baby with another old friend turned foe. Nothing would be the same after this.
“Jahsir, say something, please.”
“Did you mess around with him to get back at me?”
“No, of course not. I swear I didn't know he was part of what y’all did. And I didn’t know he shot Dro either, or whatever happened.
I'm not really clear on the details. But I do remember seeing him with you and Rashad in passing once before. I just didn't know the extent of your relationship. He wasn’t around when we’d hang out so I didn’t know, I mean… I fucked up Jah.”
I was quietly trying to process what she had told me. And I was upset, too. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t. Crimson didn’t have a bad bone in her body, so I knew she didn’t do this on purpose, but it stung. Real fuckin bad.
“And Jah, I'm not trying to use any of that as an excuse. Seeing you with him once should have been enough for me not to mess around with him. But Venus introduced us. She encouraged it and practically vouched for him. I thought he was a good guy. I was just-”
“Venus? You said Venus hooked y’all up?”
“Yeah, it just happened so fast, everything. He comforted me and-” she paused. “I’m sorry, Jah.”
“How soon after I left did y’all get together?”
“Literally just within this past year. Those first few years, I stayed to myself. But now that I’m thinking about it, he was just using me.
I was an easy target, and no I’m not playing victim.
I am an adult and I made my own choices.
But as I look back, everything happened so quickly like he wanted me to fall for him and fast. I promise Jah, as quickly as it started, it ended.
When I got pregnant I couldn’t bring myself to get an abortion, not again. So-”
“It’s all good, Red. I can't hold you hostage for decisions you made in my absence. But if I’m being honest, I owe that nigga a bullet. And Scarlett complicates that.”